Chpt. 19

A random collection of thoughts

[2wenty]

Stop being a consumer and keep producing.

[2wenty]

Do white people have generational trauma?

[2wenty]

Pretty privilege comes with its own set of issues, my personal favorite issue on the matter would be that pretty people never really find love. People tend to the love the thought of HAVING you rather than the actual thought of you. People tend to see you through the lenses of a “type of person” rather than seeing you as an individual person. Pretty privilege makes you a trophy in someone else’s trophy case.

[2wenty]

And so if it’s not a money move, then it’s not a move.

Valuable lesson I learned this week, you don’t make money you take money. The federal reserve MAKES money, you need to find a couple of ways to TAKE some money.

[2wenty]

AND WHERE IS THE TUMBLR COMMUNITY??? 👀👀

[2wenty]

To be twenty is to be confused and caught in the whirl wind of the world. I’m 100% convinced that with the pandemic added in, we couldn’t have picked a worse time to become adults in.

To be 20 and a man in todays climate, boy oh boy. How I’d love for this to pan out well.

I don’t know what path I’m taking, all I really know is that it’s important that whichever path I may choose, I’m the one who chose it.

[2wenty]

I’m convinced at this point that the secret to becoming rich is to be selfish. It’s the only logical answer to the question…

[2wenty]

To maintain or not to maintain a social media presence? 🤔

That is the question 🍎.

[2wenty]

Still asking myself this question

[2wenty]

To maintain or not to maintain a social media presence? 🤔

That is the question 🍎.

[2wenty]

Books have helped me work through my commitment issues. Not in the fact that I only really read self-help genre’s, but in the fact that picking up a long a$$ book and finishing it IS a commitment.

[2wenty]

In my future home we won’t own a TV. I want my living room to be full of book shelves filled with all the books that have fluttered my imagination for all of my teen-twenties years.

I want my kids to be more inclined to pick up a book rather than scroll through the infinite loop of the internet.

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April will be filled with joy.

April will be filled with love.

April will be filled with peace.

April will be filled with trust.

April will be filled with kindness.

April will be filled with miracles.

April will be filled with hope.

[2wenty]

Today I went out into nature and lmaoo I wanted to keep going.

When walking in the woods, don’t stray to far. The farther you stray the more you know your capable of. The further you go the further you’ll want to go.

[2wenty]

I surprise Myself every day. {It’s actually getting scary lmaoo} for example, I knew I wanted to start a blog about my life and I had absolutely no idea where I was going to put it (because where tf do you blog at in 2022?? That question is still on the table) so, like most curious Americans, I googled it and found a bunch of websites I’d never heard about lmao so naturally I opted of those ones.

Twitter was an option, but listen I’m trying to put space between me and the mainstream internet. Then just as I was going to give up on the thought and just go back to my journal (that I’ll probably turn into a book at some point in my late 20’s or early 30’s to spite myself—it’ll be fun for myself) I stumbled across our old friend tumblr. My first thought was definitely “who tf still uses tumblr??” So once again like most curious Americans (why are we so damn curious?) I googled it and turns out tumblr still has couple hundred million users.

Apparently the app only really “died” because of the platforms removal of p0rn. But the rest of you remained. And I’m happy to share my thoughts about chpt 19 with all of you non sex deprived readers.

Moral of the story, try something new. And Google it before you write it off lmao.

[2wenty]

Relationship obsessive

How does this make me feel: …bad lmao

How can I change this: work on my trust

I feel like I definitely take after my mom in relationships lmaoo I’m a fucking ROD lmaoo like to the definition, one thing about I’m loyal asf and loving asf and I just see the good in everyone 🌚 lmaoo but some of the people I meet are no good lmao I’m definitely a socialite…. Ong!! That’s cunty, but I’m the cute cool socialite I think. The one that dropped off the face of the planet but like we be seeing him on ppls story, he’s doing something cute, he can dress…he can dress?? That’s it? Anybody can fucking dress..what does he do??? Is it cool??

…i don’t do much 🤔 I be in the house watching netflix… but I mean in my defense IM BROKE & it’s PANDEMIC..but like lowkey mfs be going out still.,probably catching covid but still.

Bitch you need a car…asap lmaoo and as soon as you get a car and can wherever when ever …. WHY WOULD TF WOULD YOU BE IN THE HOUSE 😂😂😂, I’m concerned that I sound stupid because I’m listening to my stoned brain talk and boy these natural thoughts are stupid lmaooo I mean drugs really just bring out your absolute self 🌚

It’s 11:54pm and I’m waiting on breakfast lmaoo… I was thinking about typing about something….yea idk. OH! JOSH Chile I need to stop fronting i don’t really like that boy lmaoo he’s kind of corny but like go for the corny nigga…but he a flirt… HE TO FRIENDLY!!! But who he friendly with is the real question — pause— your displaying some trust issues… it’s no way people without trust issues exist??? Like lmaooo I refuse to believe those are stable relationships like I’m giving you all my trust and i don’t trust people so like I hold in a lot of shit. But in all reality if I lived my life publicly and just not gave a fuck..where would land my personality? Would I be like my dad 🧍🏽‍♂️?? Ew. I’m undoing a lot of what I was taught as a child and this process is but really just on the behalf of the shit that my dad taught me and more so what my mom taught me.. I’m not thinking by my own mind…. I need to get the hell out of that house 🌚 like get me a van NEOWWW . Lmaoo likeee my family is lowkey evil not even evil just like— I’m not gonna shit on them in a public forum 🌚