Mercy (they/he)

23 bpd + adhd diary of the horrors i fb adults! taken!

[333mercy]

Intro .𖥔 ݁ ˖ ✦ ‧₊˚ ⋅

hi i'm mercy, i'm nonbinary (they/he) and i'm also diagnosed with bpd, adhd (and i suffer from an 3d too) and this will now be my diary and a place to vent please and thank you

i also like things like diy, ethel cain, video games, horror, fashion, etc. so i will be talking about those as well now and again

nice to meet y'alllll

[333mercy]

it's so scary when i split or am feeling especially moody as a bpd person and start acting so mean for no reason and i am completely aware of it as it is happening but it's like my empathy or risk awareness are hidden behind glass and they just bang on it but i don't seem to care

[vengeful-fawn]

[heavensghost]

shame is sharp, and my skin gives so easy

[333mercy]

recently i vented to my friends and my bf about how i don't know who i am whatsoever and how it's actually destroying me because at my grown age i shouldn't be jumping from personality to personality and the response i got was "we know it's hard to accept yourself but we accept you" and it made me split for a solid day because that wasn't what i meant at allll

[bpdkarmic-deactivated20260329]

i can’t tell if i’m letting her mistreat me because i want her to love me so desperately. it’s hard for me to tell when i’m being mistreated versus when i can’t escape out of my victim mentality.

[333mercy]

i am so fucking scared of being unintentionally abusive

[ct-lambykins]

i am so incredibly sensitive its honestly quite pathetic