I've had this friend for about 2 years now. He's a good friend of mine. He helped me through a major breakup a while back and I did the same later down the line. There's always been some tension between us... like sexual tension. This pulsing electricity but neither of us are ever single at the same time so we don't act on it. We always threaten to fight each other but that's usually the extent of it. Well lately, things have gotten out of control. I went to his party one night and started punching him and taunting him for not fighting me cause what else am I supposed to do. And he turns around and chokes me. And I'm pretty sure he saw me blush through the darkness of his backyard. It was super awkward but I can't get him out of my head now. My urges are stronger than ever despite having someone of my own. Now me and my partner are in a polynogomous relationship so there wouldn't be an issue there but he's also in a relationship. And that girl is soooo not cool with him going to someone else. And the worst part is he doesn't want to be with her and all his friends can see it. But he is anyway. I keep having these dreams or thoughts or whatever you want to call them that one day hes going to randomly text me to come over because he needs to talk to me. And I'm gonna show up ready to fight. And he pins me against the wall and whispers "oh we're about to do a lot more than fight". Him just whispering that in his gravely voice. I cant get the thought out of my head and its killing me. And I would tell him this but my anxiety stops that cause im AWKWARD. So for now I post writings about the things in my head until stuff plays out if it ever does. Until next time.
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