remembering what I’d forgot @7idee7fixe7 - Tumblr Blog

Its interesting to see the inherent value someone assigns me upon first meeting ALTHOUGH if I met myself I’d probably underestimate me too

Feeling mid-chrysalis doughy like I’m being walked in on in a dressing room

I fiend on the attention and acceptance and safety of it all but find myself feeling like the rug has been pulled out from under me when I feel these things are withheld

I am a fucking privilege to be around and I gotta stop forgetting that

I’ve gone through this period of not feeling enough for a while now. Looking at other people’s successes and the way others talk about them.

I tie way too much of my own self worth into other people and that’s my fault. I get pissed when I believe what they say then end up feeling how I do. My therapist used to say that I break my own heart that way.

I am regenerative. Usually the word resilient is what comes to mind but today it’s regenerative. I will grow back the hurt parts better than they were before. They’ll see I can’t be cut down or domesticated. I sense another period of growth because my skin feels too tight so to speak. When I transmute they may not recognize me and I don’t care.