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song jihwan. dancer & vocal. 1/8 of utopia. probably the closest thing to a god you'll ever meet.

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             Self-styled rock star version of Frank Sinatra

BAE KIYEOL or known as Unplugged’s JAWS An American born trainee who gave up Ivy League Universities for a chance to debut. 

clasically trained playing the violin, ended up headbanging, while belting out VOCALS

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95theokim:

theo feels a pang in his chest when jihwan takes his hand, but he doesn’t pull away. the smile on the other’s face tugs at his heart strings, and he’s tempted to call the whole thing off and make up some other bullshit reason he’d need to talk.

no. jihwan doesn’t deserve that. he doesn’t deserve any of this. 

when the door closes, theo finally untangles their fingers, stepping past jihwan to sit on one of the beds in the room. currently their bed, soon to be only his bed. he sighs, rubbing his face with his hands, then letting them fall to his lap, fingers nervously tangling together.

“ah, how do i say this… i’ve been thinking. a lot. about us. and… i just… i don’t know, i think that maybe…”

theo stops himself, clearing his throat, taking in a deep breath before looking up to meet jihwan’s eyes.

“i think that… our run, it was great, but… i think i want… to… break up with you.” his voice trails off until it’s hardly a whisper by the time he finishes, and he looks back down at his hands. “i’m so… so sorry, jihwan…”

jihwan watched theo sit on the bed, expression unreadable. he was going to follow, sit next to theo, pull his hands into his once more, but...jihwan could tell now wasn’t the time, instead hovering next to the door with an unfaltering smile.

he gave theo his time, he knew words were sometimes hard to form during times like this, and he was willing to wait however long. even though theo was uncharacteristically riddled with nerves, and jihwan didn’t know why, he waited.

i...think i want to break up with you.

the words sure did hit him like a suckerpunch, that’s for sure. it felt like the air was whisked out of his lungs, frozen. he was unable to think, let alone speak. there was only one word on repeat in his stopped heart, in shellshocked mind: why? why why why? was it something i did? did i say something? am i just...not enough?

jihwan recovered his smile that threatened to crumble, forcing the edges of it to curl up in a twisted mockery of a grin, though he’s always been a good actor despite the feeling of his world shattering around him in an instant.

it’s been four years. four long years. 

“i...that’s fine, theo.” jihwan said, forcing his voice to stay even. the lack of a silly petname did not go unnoticed on his part. “whatever you need, okay? i just...i just want you to be happy.”

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The problem with being the rock is no one asks if you’re starting to crumble.

Ellen Hopkins (via wnq-writers)

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95theokim:

for @94jihwan·. (i’m so sorry.)

it’s not something anyone wants to do. it’s not pretty, it’s not fun, but sometimes, it’s what has to be done. it’s not fair to jihwan for things to continue; it hurts theo’s heart to admit to himself that he has to break it off, but it hurts his heart even more to think about continuing to hurt someone he loved so much.

loves. still loves. he still feels the same—well, maybe not the same, but similar—as he did for the entirety of their relationship. four years of it. four long, great years of their relationship. but that spark is gone, and deep down, theo knows exactly why.

he’s fallen for someone else. at no fault of jihwan’s, only at his own, but it’s the truth, and he can’t bear to make jihwan suffer for it. he just needs to get it over with, before things get worse, or something happens that he can’t just take back.

it’s not often that theo feels the cold, icy grips of nervousness, but they tear at his heart now, as he gently places a hand on jihwan’s shoulder, to get his attention from behind.

“jihwan, i… can we talk? in private… maybe back in our room?” he swallows hard, trying his best not to let his face betray any emotion.

jihwan knew something was coming—he didn’t really know what, exactly, but he knew that something had changed. he could feel it, in the way that theo treated him recently, the way he talked with others...it didn’t exactly take an expert to know that somewhere, somehow, a light had begun to flicker out.

and it’s not like jihwan was surprised. (for the most part, at least, ignoring the bit of hope he had always had that theo would be his constant.) they got together young, and their relationship has treated both of them well. however, things change. 

but relationships—any of them, romantic or not—have their bumps, and people needed to work through them. sure, it took work, but that’s exactly how theo and jihwan had lasted so long. they talked through things, they supported each other, and they stayed by each other’s sides no matter the turnout.

he had been thinking a lot lately about this, about theo, about how to salvage what they still had. he jumped, broken from his train of thought by the surprisingly soft touch to his shoulder.

“yeah! of course.” jihwan smiled easily, reading theo’s slight nervousness and trying to calm him a little. he took theo’s hand in his, intertwining their fingers as he walked to their shared room, closing the door behind him. “what’s up?”

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aren't you cocky today? / welcome to 2k!

jihwan laughed at that, raising an eyebrow. he was tempted to make a comment like ‘do you not talk to me that often?’ or ‘aren’t i cocky every day?’, but he held his tongue for a moment, glancing at himself in the mirror once more before turning around and saying something decidedly worse instead. “i mean, can you blame me? it’s a very flattering outfit.”

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                                * I N S T A G R A M    U P D A T E *

jinkyu_cos  Day 1 for who’s next reunion concert was a blast! See you tomorrow for the last day! Utopia lovin’ time! #WhosNextReunionConcert 

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Utopiaslut12: OMG YAS DADDIES! GO GET THAT ORGY YASSS!! UNF

2ktrashalltheway: I love the concert! I wish I was there in person! Thanks V app!

thotopia: they worked so hard! Fighting!

ejeiislit: Damn they look so wet and sexy, 10/10 would hop on! I wanna mpreg cosmo!!! ughh

trumploveskpop: OMG this is so cute! Utopia Fighting!!

inyouarea1232: They remind me of black pink. Black pink is better though because BLACK PINK IN YOUR AREA

BTSNSD: army here, came to support utopia and who’s next. also buy not today on itunes thanks.

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95theokim:

with @94jihwan, from here.

“if that’s your excuse, you’ve only made your job harder. now that this day of the concert’s over, i’m all sweaty and gross, and you still have to give me a complement.” theo said, matter-of-factly. “it’s kind of a shame that you apparently didn’t notice me when i was in my prime. but i’m a simple man, jihwan hyung; i just want one, then i’ll be on my way.”

“to be fair,” jihwan started, giving a little laugh at theo’s antics. “it’s not like you look bad all sweaty and gross right now. sure, not exactly in your smokey-eyed, leather clad prime, but not many people can say that they still look good after such a long day.”  jihwan paused for a minute, humming, thinking; he wanted to make his token compliment-of-the-day count. “even though i don’t want you to be on your way, necessarily, i know you won’t stop bugging me until i give you one. i think what i just said kind of counted, but…red really is your color. you rocked that one outfit you wore for a couple songs today, the one with the red jacket. y’looked good, i’d say.”

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"You haven't complimented me yet today, and honestly, I feel betrayed." // welcome to 2k !!

Jihwan raised an eyebrow, a grin playing at his face. “Oh, I haven’t yet? What a shame,” he teased. Truth be told, with the concert happening, he had been a bit busy to notice...but that doesn’t mean that Theo’s stage outfit did him no favors. That’s what the coordi noonas were for, right? “Sorry that I was too busy being focused on doing a good job tonight to flatter your ego.”

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