emmi

| 21 | 163 cm | vegoon | bi ace | | cw 113.8 | | hw 148 | lw 118 | ugw 98? |

[98pouwunds]

weight tracker

starting: juin 28 2020

133 132 131 130 129 128 127 126 125 124 123 122 121 120 119 118 117 116 115 114 113 112 111 110 109 108 107 106 105 104 103 102 101 100 99 98

108 gw by end of 2020

vegan safefoods list

[98pouwunds]

hi! ive been quite inactive lately and some might think im crazy but im pretty sure im going through my spiritual awakening so this is a goodbye to my eating disorder, to my past self and to all of you.

to my eating disorder, fuck you. fuck you fuck you fUCK YOU. You've had control over my life for so many fucking years! You convinced me that this was the only way to feel worthy or safe but i see clear now. you've just been feeding off me, made me feel worse. Because of you I've felt so insecure, so exhausted, so cold, so scared, so sick, so jealous, so hateful, so inadequate, so out of place, so alone but i'm taking the power back. I'm done playing your games, i'm the one who's in control. i'm the one who's in control now. i am strong, i am worthy, i am beautiful and i am better than this. So from the bottom of my heart, fuck you

to my past self, i'm so sorry you went through all of this. I know you thought you deserved it but no, you didnt. you deserved better, you deserved peace and happiness. None of this is your fault. you can now rest, knowing that from now on we are on the path to true happiness.

and finally to all of you reading this, YOU DESERVE BETTER!!! YOU HAVE SO MUCH POTENTIAL IN YOU!! YOU CONTROL YOUR REALITY!! And no one deserves to live with an eating disorder, not me, not you, no one. I believe in you.

I love you all and i'm sending you all the strength, patience and love to fight through this. you can do it

xoxo

[98pouwunds]

ive been ignoring my dad's texts for a few months now since he's proven his stupidity by being pro trump and anti mask... a part of me feels bad for ignoring him but a bigger part of me wants to punch him so yeah... just had to get that off my chest

[ha-roro]

ғᴀʙʀɪᴄɪɴᴏ - ᴋɴɪᴛ ᴊᴀᴄᴋᴇᴛ

[98pouwunds]

why do i change my whole vibe and aesthetic everyweek omg... can this bitch please settle down for once

[ryebreadgf]

i'm hotter than i think i am but i'm also uglier than i think i am. won't elaborate

[cyskw]

[relapserafa-deactivated20210901]

I lost 1 pound overnight bitches

Rb for good luck

[lilpinkbaby-b-blog]

You are not limited to one characteristic and emotion

[98pouwunds]

would love for someone to wake me up when all this shit is over

[embracingwild]

fyi there is no such thing as “getting back on track” after the holidays because you were never “off track” you were simply living life because you are a human being and you deserve that

[chronyck]

[someone-who-s-lost]

Hey for anybody who thinks they are faking their ED, that they don't have a problem anyway, that they don't deserve recovery...

Do you think somebody who is perfectly healthy would be reading this?

Do you think somebody who doesn't struggle with food would be on tumblr watching thinspo ? Would relate looking at memes about calories and tea?

You are valid. It's not about your weight, how much you eat, what you eat or your body... We are all struggling differently.

[sk1nny-grunge]

*stays at the same weight for more than a couple of days*

Me: wow I'm such a fucking failure

[aroloverboy]

Hey it’s ace week and you’re local ace has something to say! I’ve been out as ace for 3 years now and it’s still a big part of my identity that I’m proud of so here’s a lil something for those who need it!

[birdasaurus]

[still-mesarthim]