a nonessential adventure

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hi! I just wanted to remind you of a nice word starting with S. :>

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when I feel like I've mastered something.

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hitting it off

me: what do you do for work?

QT: I'm an emergency medicine resident.

so am I having yr children now, or?

[slopeslopeslope]

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gaben putting the sports in esports.

[coolthingoftheday]

A baby elephant throws himself in the mud in a fit of anger and frustration.

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could you not?

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orbit

you left no reason for me to continue thinking about you, but in some cruel biology, my brain just can’t seem to dismantle the entangled neurons dedicated to ensuring you echo through my mind. i’ve been living in the paradox of knowing you have truly abandoned me and waiting for the sign that you are coming back. you possess an incredible gravity that pulls me around in orbit; but my ascent in this new life seems to be slowly pushing me closer to escape velocity.

i accepted the idea of moving on months ago. i thought i had closed the book; a classic tale of unrequited love. whats the point of caring for someone who doesn’t care for you? really, it’s maddeningly flawless logic. it feels right to cut it all out like cancer. part of me craves being angry and bitter for not finding me valuable enough, but the simple truth is that i am not. my heart shattered; every day, little by little, i’m still picking up the pieces. it’s my nature to file them away neatly. almost all of it is catalogued and sorted by now, and soon i have faith that i can lock up and you really will, finally, ease and slumber within me.

and so, for now i can only whisper words you will never hear. i still get lost in all the things we might have shared, and i still love what you were to me. i hold no hope that our paths will cross in the future, but i can’t say i wouldn’t offer it all again.

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me irl

[slopeslopeslope]

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this

This is what I most want unpursued, alone to reach beyond the light that I am furthest from.

And for you to shine there- no other happiness- and learn, from starlight, what its fire might suggest.

A star burns as a star, light becomes light, because our murmuring strengthens us, and warms the night.

And I want to say to you my little one, whispering, I can only lift you towards the light by means of this babbling.

Osip Mandelshtam

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mah heart, mah soul

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I accept keanu christ as my lord and savior.

[chikoji-blog]

[somepiecesofmyheartandsoul-deac]

We were broken but we were hopeful.

7 words on us (via somepiecesofmyheartandsoul)

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