Shook up inside (Part of the new Laid Bare series) A place where the demons hide I'm alive but I feel a numbness lies My soul is bare A shell of what was there Tiny cracks pierce the walls of fragile matter saturating my creative patter Waking up in a cloud of grey not yet black but maybe one day Scared to never get back to the sun Oh how I miss my mum Miss her voice Miss her cuddles Miss our friendship and all its struggles I could climb out of bed or I could stay where it's warm and safe and do nothing all day but I have so many dreams, so much love to give, I just want to scream, I just want to live The endless circle, you're wrapped up tight but when you see a gap you should take it and fight Catch a glimpse, feel the warmth You can come back from this, you can dance It's a blip on your radar An empty gun Now take the bullets and run Back to the safety of my loved ones arms where I know I'll get better because I know shes the one I could climb out of bed or I could stay where it's warm and safe and do nothing all day but I have so many dreams, so much love to give, I just want to scream, I just want to live I just want to live And while I can't say the same for my mum Her card has been dealt and it's a terrible one I just want her not to live in this MS cocoon but to have peace and find it soon Find it soon.