Kinnie Blog (work In Progress)

Using this to archive my posts from fictionkinfessions and share thoughts, memories, etc. Very selective about who I will interact with. 27/ he/him / you can call me A or Alastor/ aroace and strictly uninterested, if you flirt with me I will block you/ Vox kins and supporters please DNI under any circumstances/ fine with doubles, no minors, follow basic DNI criteria etc etc

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- unsettling ✅

- sharp toothed smile ✅

- aroace ✅

- red eyes ✅

There’s a pattern here.

- Alastor (Hazbin Hotel) who is also Quaestor Valdemar (The Arcana) #🦌🖤🥩

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Allonormativity and amatonormativity are such rampant poisons in the fandom for my source….. I’m so tired.

- A (Alastor, hazbin hotel) #🦌🖤🥩

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https://www.tumblr.com/fictionkinfessions/806860613967101952/being-kin-with-both-alastor-and-actual-literal

HELP me being Al kin and also kin with one or more of the Holiday family from Deltarune -Alastor

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[a-is-for-alastor]

You 🤝 me

Silly deer

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I complain a lot (as is my right), but sometimes I see someone spouting the most utter drivel steaming garbage takes about my source possible and I feel the biggest sense of relief that I’m not them.

- A #🦌🖤🥩

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Making an ita bag themed around my kin is extremely fun, definitely recommend! Now I have a fun bag entirely themed around me!

-A #🦌🖤🥩

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It really aggravates me when I see those edits of me refusing to partner with Vox that are like ‘Alastor said everything except no’. You guys do know that there are other ways to refuse something, and mean it, without directly using the word ‘no’, right? The absence of a ‘no’ does not mean the presence of a ‘yes’. There’s extremely worrying implications if you don’t understand that. Even he understood that (in this instance. I can’t say he was ever really accepting of my refusal but he certainly knew what it meant).

- A #🦌🖤🥩

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Sitting there. Watching a flashback scene in my source. And I say out loud, to myself, ‘that is NOT what fucking happened’.

- A

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Where is Rosie? Rosie where are you??? I know things were complicated but I would very much like to see her again

- A #🦌🖤🥩

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[a-is-for-alastor]

I think that’s all of my kinfessions thus far reblogged? Sorry for spam reblogging, MPC, if you’re seeing this, I wanted to get them all in one place.

[a-is-for-alastor]

Wait no, now I think I have them all

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Saw a post saying that apparently the creator of my source has said that my asexuality will be acknowledged and explored in the show in the future. Which, normally I would be very happy about, more ace representation, yay, that’s good, right?

Unfortunately, I do not trust her to do it well. I do not trust that anything good will come of this. I have an awful, awful feeling about the way she may go about doing this. Maybe I’m not having enough faith in her. Maybe that’s justified.

- A

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Being completely sex and romance repulsed makes navigating both fandom and kin spaces for this kintype a total minefield, despite it being a relatively popular interpretation of this character. People either have no interest in interacting with me (absolutely fine), make me incredibly uncomfortable, or have experiences that are so far removed from anything that I experienced that I don’t relate to them and don’t have any interest with interacting with them. There are certain people I’d like to find. I cannot find them. Unfortunately, the only ones who seem interested in finding me are the ones who kin the one person I absolutely do not want to interact with ever again (took long enough to get rid of him in the last lifetime, I’m not dealing with that again) and are usually ones who’s experience is at direct odds with mine. I’m not less of myself just because I’m not interested in dating you and never was.

- A

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[a-is-for-alastor]

I think that’s all of my kinfessions thus far reblogged? Sorry for spam reblogging, MPC, if you’re seeing this, I wanted to get them all in one place.

[fictionkinfessions]

On a lighter note, me having a body pillow of one of my own kintypes is incredibly funny to me. Ah, yes. I love cuddling up with my me.

- A

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I’m going to need people in both the hazbin fan and kin communities to learn to be normal and respectful towards aromantics and asexuals, especially towards the ones who are romance and sex repulsed, don’t date and have no interest in anything of that kind. I’ve seen such absolute steaming garbage takes and it’s incredibly disheartening.

- A

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I have tags blocked for the majority of ships involving me, and going through my own tag is just filtered content after filtered content after filtered content. Am I not allowed to exist without it being in relation to a ship that will never happen? A ship with someone I actively despise? Am I not allowed to exist *and* have my actual orientation acknowledged? This is exhausting. I get it, people can ship whatever they like, it’s gonna happen, whatever. It’s just incredibly tiring and disheartening that the only thing people seem interested in doing with me is disregarding the fact that I’m aroace completely.

- A

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So this is a difficult one to write, but I’m having a difficult time in online spaces because of it and just want to get it out.

My canon was significantly different than what we were shown in the show. When I was captive, I was tortured much more severely. As well as that, Vox didn’t stop with just forcing me to watch him and Valentino have sex- which is already sexual assault by the way, forcing someone to watch sex against their consent counts as SA- in my canon he went much further, and I was raped.

Seeing images of he and I makes me feel sick now. I’m sure you can imagine how difficult this makes it for me, when radiostatic/ radiosilence/ whatever they’re calling it now, is everywhere at the moment. I am having an extremely bad time.

- A

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Three deer related kintypes and counting….

- A

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