Benjamin the Giraffe

I'm a part time poet. Full time hopeless romantic

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A Year

It's been a year since the unthinkable happened

It resulted in you

But even you didn't make it out of it.

I did, surprisingly

I miss you more than anything

I still think about what could have been

I imagine the sound of your laughter

I imagine how beautiful your eyes would look

I imagine your first steps

Yet here I am alone in the meadow

Watching the flowers bloom once more

And just as the world continues to spin

So must I until the day I can meet you again.

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To be titled someday

My sun

My light

My love

My soul

Everything I do is not left untouched by you

But I wouldn't change it because you darling have become my world

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Currently

All I want is for you to feel loved

I want to lift you up

I want to support you fully

I want to deliver the world into the palms of your hands

You are currently the sun in my life

You shine brighter than the stars

All I want is to make you continue to shine

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Aspirations

When I'm with you all I aspire to do is make you smile.

From having your favorite snacks

Your favorite shows

Making jokes specifically for you

Making the space we occupy to be comfortable

I love all your smiles

From the big dopey grins to the small little ones

Your smile lights up my week.

They make me feel like I finally did something correct

I will do everything to make sure you keep on smiling

That is all I aspire to do

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Absence

I'm going to walk out

Not like anyone will notice anyway

Not like anyone would care

I want to find the place where I am needed

It isn't here since nobody has noticed me pulling away

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My Being Belongs to You

I think about

I dream about you

I theorize with you

I write about you

My heart belongs to you

My entire being belongs with you

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Anatomy of a hug and thoughts that come after

When you hug someone

Both of your hearts are near each other

Both hearts feel each other

I wish my heart to you

Whether in good health or bad

Whether in fortune or misfortune

Whether you will have me or not

I wish my heart to you

And hopefully one day my heart will return to me

Because loving you is exhilarating and debilitating

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12:51 am

I laugh

I smile

I try to be kind

Everything is going alright

So why do I get this impending dread

As if I'm going to lose everything

[mischievousdog]

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Coded

You are my muse

Countless poems based off of my love for you

Poems you'll never read

But all coded and tailor made for you

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Belonging

I'm suddenly dizzy

I want to run away

To never see them again

I want to feel the wind and sun on my face

I'm afraid of them

They don't understand

I don't belong here

And it's blaring obvious

Yet why do they look at me like that?

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Fragile

As the light shines brightly in my eyes

I want to reach out and touch it

As the train speeds passed

I remember the boy in the news

I remember how really fragile we humans are

Both mentally and physically

So as the train passes

I enjoy the cool wind it leaves behind

And the reminder it leaves

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I feel like I lost something that I never had in the first place

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A Forgotten Meadow

As I lay alone in this meadow

One I stumbled upon

I wish you were here

I wish I could hear the sound of your laughter as you ran around.

To see you enjoy and learn

As I lay here alone

A single tear falls down my cheek.

For you are forever gone

And there is nothing I can do

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Eternity

I waited

I was on the moon staring at the earth I left behind

However you never showed

And there I stayed waiting

Slowly suffocating

Waiting for you, for all eternity

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I wrote something again

When I die what will happen to my consciousness

What will happen to all my thoughts my feelings

All the unsaid words

All the undecided decisions

What will happen to my love for the world

Will the moon ever understand

Will the trees ever understand

Even to the lark I see

What will happen

Will my love for the seemly small and insignificant things ever reach them

I love them for simply being

Will it ever reach them?

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As the Rain Falls

As the Rain falls

I am cleaned of my sins

I'm finally free from the world

As the gods above cry for the world

I rejoice in their tears

Because I am finally clean