Simon "Ghost" Riley x Reader
You'll Never Be The Same Pt. 11
(Platonic Task Force 141 x Reader x Ghost)
Disclaimer: Mentions of Sex Trafficking, S.A., Physical Abuse, (Not by the Task Force Members) Eventual Smut, Fluff, and age gap.
You were kidnapped while studying abroad and sold into sex trafficking. The task force 141
members find you and take an interest in you after they realize how much you know.
Yes this is the smut chapter lol for warning, if you are looking for deep rough bdsm sex, this is not in here. I firmly believe that if you suffered and were recovering from sexual trauma, Simon would NOT be rough with you, at least at first. This is about grounding you and loving you, not fucking you like a rabbit
Days pass of bliss. Simon sleeps with you every night but it is far more intimate. You now sleep building feelings of love rather than a soldier comforting a civilian through PTSD he knows so well. Now you sleep as a couple to an extent. Neither of you slap labels on anything. You both simply are just attached. During the days, when heâs not training, heâs around you, letting you hold his hand, or hug him. The team notices you as his shadow and some comment happily, others mind their own business.
It had become routine for you to join him on his firewatch. Youâll climb up the tower with him, bringing a blanket and pillow, often sleeping with your head in his lap, or next to him while heâs up there. He tries his best to never disturb your sleep. Once his shift is over you both go back down to your room. If Soap relieves you, he gives Ghost a smirk or mouths a âSheâs an adorable wee lass.â or âSweet thingâ If Keegan does, he lets out a low whistle. One night he did it too loud and you woke up. Even though you would be woken up anyway to go back down with Ghost, he was pissed at the American sergeant for disturbing you.Â
You still struggle with nightmares here and there. Some of them are far more graphic. You dream of being back home and missing your friends and family. You dream of them meeting Simon, and the reactions they would have over him. Some probably fear, others seeing him as eye candy, or respect.Â
Sometimes your anxiety stretches into the day, you suffer with nervous twitches and shakes struggling to calm down. Today was one of those days. Ghost was away on a field op, you knew he was safe, this was a very low risk, almost maintenance mission. But nightmares from the night before kept you frazzled all day. Keegan noticed first at breakfast and rubbed your back with his hand soothingly while he drank coffee.
Gaz gave you a hug and told you, youâd be alright. Roach tried to distract you with more medical stuff he was trying to teach you. You tried sketching with Soap and even explored the base for a bit. You found they had an old movie rental hut where other soldiers could watch movies. You watched a few, your anxiety still remaining until you knew it was time for dinner.Â
You helped Gaz cook, your hands shaking until he placed his palm over yours.
âLetâs get your mind away from where itâs at yeah?â He smiles at you softly. You nod and he helps you calm down. He helps you cook, hand steadying your arm so you can properly cut potatoes. When you finally hear the familiar thud of Ghostâs footsteps. You immediately perk up and drop your knife, dodging other soldiers to get to the front door. As it opens, Ghost sees you and his eyes light up. You throw yourself at him and breathe in his deep musky scent.Â
You smell hints of dried sweat mixed with his unique smell. He holds you tight and when he notices youâre squeezing him hard he asks.
âYa aâright loveâ You nod your head into the crook of his neck, but he knows better.
âStill thinkinâ âbout those nightmares?â He asks softly as Soap passes the door, also having come back with Ghost. He looks at your sympathetically also knowing of your struggles with anxiety and nightmares.Â
You again nod into his neck and he holds you extra long. He sets you down and beckons you to follow him. You get to your room and he drops his gear. He sits down on the bed removing his boots and patting the spot next to him. You sit down and watch him work. He finishes and then removes his shirt. Itâs the first time youâve seen this much of his skin, other than his forearms or above his color.
You feel your cheeks get warm looking at his body. Simon Ghost Riley is all man, no doubt about it. His sculpted body with enough softness on his front to still outline his strength and muscles without being rock hard. His arms are carved from stone, the scars strewn all over his body and back are enticing.
You canât help but feel a little excited. You havenât felt any kind of attraction this intense since before you were kidnapped.Â
He rubs his neck and faces you after removing his mask.
âRest âere for a bit. Mâ gonna shower then we can go back down for dinner.â He smiles at you. You nod and lay down in bed, hugging his pillow to your chest. You hear him go across the hall to shower. You close your eyes and donât realize you started to doze off until he comes back in, dressed in less tactical clothing. He helps you sit up and presses a kiss to your forehead.
âCome on, letâs go get some dinner.â He tells you.
Downstairs, Gaz pokes jabs at you for not helping him finish dinner and you get sheepish. He laughs and rubs your shoulder.Â
After dinner you help with the dishes and the night winds down. You sit on Ghostâs lap while they play cards. You get up and with a quick kiss to his cheek, head to have your shower. You walk out and grab a shirt on the bed you think is yours and some panties. Only when you notice the shirt goes down longer than usual do you notice itâs Ghostâs. You creep down the stairs and notice the card game is over. You see Ghost through the window having a smoke. You go out to him and stand with him on the porch. Heâs taking a drag and he eyes you.
âInteresting clothing choice.â He says. You fidget.
âGrabbed the first thing I saw and didnât feel like changing it.â You tell him. He nods puffing smoke.
âLooks good.â He says making your heart flutter. He stubs his cigarette and reaches for you.
âCâmere.â And you step into his arms. He stands behind you, arms around your middle, chin on your shoulder. You both stay like that a few minutes, him occasionally kissing your shoulder and neck.Â
You both go back up to your room to get into bed. Ghost gets in first, you next and he spoons you from behind. You both calm down for the night. Ghost rubs you soothingly. His hand occasionally slides under the shirt and rubs your bare side. His calloused hands rubbing your skin makes it prickle. Your eyes widen when you feel a bit of arousal.Â
Itâs been so long since youâve felt like this at all. Even kissing Ghost until now felt loving, not sexual. You tentatively scoot your butt back to press against him, and his hand stops.
âNeed some more space?â
âNo.â
âHmmm.â You roll over to face him and trace his chest. Ghost isnât an idiot, he just canât bring himself to push you into something. You trace his chest. You look into his eyes, the light from the moon giving you enough to see them. He doesnât move, doesnât push. You lean in to kiss him. He allows it, kissing your sweet lips and squeezing your side.
âSimon.â You say and he repeats your name.
You struggle to articulate what you want, so you kiss him again. He understands your want practically radiating off of you.
âI donât want to do this to you.â He says
âI want you SimonâŠall of you.â
âAre you sure? I would never want to scare you.â
You stroke his chest. âI want to know what itâs like with youâŠ.andâŠto forget the past. Rewrite what happened.â He sighs contemplating.
âDonât you want to be with me?â You ask him and he sighs again.
âOf course I do, but youâve been through a lot.â He reasons.Â
âHelp me forgetâŠabout all of themâŠI donât want my last time to beâŠAndrei.â Your voice trails off. Simon brings his hand up, thumb stroking your face.
âI will never hurt you that way.â
âI know. I want to feel loveâŠnot lust.â You say. He leans in this time to kiss you.
âTell me if youâre overwhelmed.â You nod, kissing him.
Ghost has had experience with women before, and he is going to use every bit of it to satisfy you the way you need. He guides you through the entire process, making sure youâre okay. He constantly checks in and asks for permission which you give him.
His large fingers trail down, under the shirt and pressing against your panties. He notes the slight wet patch there, his fingers sliding up to press against your swollen clit. He feels the heat from your core, and presses on your clit. Your breathing gets heavier and he checks in again before rubbing, slightly pressing harder through your folds. You grip his arms.
âMâ gonna make you feel nothing but pleasureâŠmake you forget about the pain.â He tells you. You are breathing harder. He continues to rub you through your panties, taking the blanket off you both. The cool desert air hits your heat and you draw in a breath. Ghost tells you step by step what he is doing as he shimmies down to rest between your legs.
âThis okay?â He asks gently, stroking your thigh. It takes you a few minutes before you are comfortable. He asks to remove your panties and you get anxious. He comes up to kiss you softly. He makes out with you sensually, lips massaging yours and gentle licks to help you relax. He goes up by your ear and whispers in his accent.
âThatâs a good girl.â He tells you. It makes your heat drip more and your thighs tense. With your okay, he removes your panties and keeps talking you through it. He uses his fingers to rub your clit again, Youâre so sensitive it makes your eyes roll. He strokes your folds before gently slipping his finger in and feels around your walls. Your muscles are tight, no doubt from your previous abuse. He knows he needs to relax them before you take his cock. Even if he was small, and he isnât, this would be painful. He refuses to cause you pain. He massages around your walls until you relax and he slides down the bed. He licks from your ankle up to your thigh, then pauses before going higher, blowing air on your puffy clit. He does the same with your other leg and blows air on your clit. He moves his head between your thighs and rubs his scruff along them.
The feeling makes you excited, more wetness secreting onto his face. He moves his face closer until you feel his stubble on your folds. He rubs his face before allowing his wet tongue to come out and lick the outside. Your hips twitch gently. He likes up your folds. His burly hands come up and push your thighs apart, the cool air hitting you making your skin bump. He brings the tip of his tongue onto your clit and circles it. The wet muscle making contact and circling makes you breathe harder again. He flattens his tongue and rubs it harder. This makes your hips rock.Â
He finally encircles your clit with his lips and sucks alternating between that and licks. The wet, warmness of his tongue in contrast to that air make you arch. You grind on his face and he continues to pleasure you. He slides his finger inside you again feeling. Your walls are pulsing, but still tight. He hmms, vibrating your clit and sucks harder. He works his head up and down, pulling it up and down in his lips sending shocks through you. He licks and suck and subs his face into it. You rock your hips getting closet to sweet relief. You grip the sheets. Oh God. You;re going to come. You had no idea you would ever be able to.Â
Simon eats and eats, tongue working you beautifully until your thighs clamp over his face and the pressure gives. You have an orgasm that is heightened by Simonâs sucking. He sucks your clit, flattening his tongue against your folds to lap your wetness, and then sucking again. You experience a hard orgasm and rest against the bed. He worries once the ecstasy wears down, you will start to panic. So he keeps going. He laps at your folds again making you moan softly. He licks your clit causing you to moan louder given your sensitivity. He works you back up slowly, not wanting you to be too sensitive to the point you donât enjoy it. He builds your pleasure again and uses his fingers to give your sensitive walls something to clench around. He massages your walls with them allowing you to get some friction. You gasp and pant against his mouth, your pleasure building harder. He rubs his mouth along your folds, fingers adding friction. He sucks on your clit again making you have another orgasm. Your walls pulse and clench around his finger and he pushes deeper stroking along your walls making spasm.Â
He works your fingers slower and slower to help work you down. He crawls back up to you, his erection is now prominent, his desire and want to make you feel good making him excited. His tip is throbbing, oozing precum, He lowers his body onto yours, so you could feel his weight on your body. He presses his clothed cock against you, smearing more of your wetness. He rocks his hips back and forth, his tip catching on your opening. He pushes his hips forward, your eyes rolling feeling the pressure. You lock eyes with him and he asks again if youâre alright. Upon getting your confirmation, he works his hips back and forth. You get impatient and your hips move more, wanting more friction. He finally removes his shirt and grabs your hands.
âWant to feel you love.â He says bringing your hands to his chest and guiding you to touch him. You feel his muscles rippling and he shivers under your touch. You both touch each other, he kisses your neck and sucks on it. He breathes on your ear and it makes your body shake. You kiss and he uses more of his tongue, exploring your mouth and trying to get you more in the mood.Â
He grinds as you kiss, the front of his boxers absolutely soaked from your arousal. He asks you if he could remove his boxers and it makes you slightly nervous, but you know this is Simon, not Andrei. He pulls his boxers down, the hot skin of his cock brushing against your folds. His tip leaks more, creating more lube, Simon breathes heavier, his cock twitching.Â
âGood girl.â He says to you, making you shiver.
âSuch a good girl.â He continues to grind and you feel the pleasure start to build again. He looks down at you, pupils dilated. He asks if he can continue and you moan.
â~Yesâ He reaches his hand down and slips his fingers into you. He feels your walls spasm, and notes they are a lot looser. He guides his ruddy tip to your entrance. He slightly pushes in, you lax walls allowing the intrusion. He circles his hips, allowing himself to slide in only slightly. He laces hands with you, leaning down to kiss your forehead. He reassures you again and kisses your lips. He works against you teasing you and then feeling your walls clench. He grips your thighs and spreads your thighs wider, opening yourself more to him. He slides deeper and your eyes roll back, he pushes your thighs higher and brings his thumb down to your clit and presses hard. You squeal and he slides his cock deeper. You feel the veins pulse inside you. He rubs your clit making your hips buck against him. The teasing from earlier got you close so youâre still sensitive. He works back and forth until you feel his hips touch yours. You feel full and your eyes roll.Â
He circles your hips, his tip brushing against nerves deep inside you. You pant. He gives the smallest thrust, his tip bumping your cervix and you gasp. He massages your clit and gives shallow thrusts. You grip his forearms and moan. Your back arches and Simon slides his other arm under it, allowing your hips to angle more and you feel his cock differently inside you. He starts giving short, harder pumps into you. You moan, the previous orgasms, and fingering you making your walls loose and more accepting. He grunts feeling your body. Itâs been a while for him, and having sex again, with someone he is really starting to love, is almost overwhelming for him.
His cock rubs every nerve ending in your body, dragging our and pushing back in and making you moan and squirm. He gives slightly harder thrusts. He leans down on his forearms and angles his hand to brush your hair out of your eyes. His pelvis grinds down your clits and he pushes harder deliberately adding friction to you. He works back and forth, pushing his cock deep into you. You moan and he stops thrusting to grind. You kiss him sloppily, gripping his back. You both rock against each other. You turn your head and gasp as you orgasm again. You walls spasm against his cock, all your nerves being stimulated. Simon groans in your ear, fisting the sheets next to you so hard his knuckles turn white. He works you through your orgasm and pulls out before he finishes and comes on your stomach. He pumps his cock, his balls constricting until he finishes with a heavy sigh.Â
Afterwards, he is so gentle. He helps you go to the bathroom and changes the sheets. He gives you a new shirt of his to wear when you come back, since you sweated through his other one.Â
âCome âere sweet girl.â He gathers you in his arms and lays you down on the bed, soft pillows propping your head. He massages your calves and arms. He constantly asks if you are okay and reassures you. He kisses your hands and cheeks. He has you drink water and then he has you lay on his chest. He reads to you massaging your scalp. He tries to make sure your mind doesnât wander and you feel shame or any other negative feelings about taking this step. But you donât feel anything like that at all. You feel closer to Ghost, in a way you havenât felt for so long.Â
You bring your leg over his waist. He moves his hand to your thigh stroking it. He continues to read to you until you fall asleep on his chest. This wasnât solely about pleasure, this was about love after trauma and bringing peace to your mind that youâll never have to suffer again.
