head space

Drawings, thoughts, confessions (maybe).

[aaazithro2]

Things are falling apart and it’s breaking my heart. 💔

[aaazithro2]

Jadead

Lately it feels as though I’m placing too much effort and attention in the wrong things.

Realization: No matter how good you try to be, no matter if you prioritize and give it your all, there’s just some individuals who will not be impressed. They would go further and say I’m “difficult.” Hmmm..

This is the sign, I don’t belong here anymore.

[albertayebisackey]

I know everything is temporary

I am not the things that happened to me - Cat Burns/Healing

[octoberloved]

[aaazithro2]

I just spent 8 days in Singapore for vacation. 🇸🇬

I've been here last year too (for work).

But this time though, it left this throb in my chest. I want a change in my life, one that's more convenient and of better quality..

[aaazithro2]

The chaos of my brain shows. Will you still love me if you know the deeper me?

[aaazithro2]

There's so much work-induced anxiety. My brain functioning automatically closes off. Help.

[missingvibrance]

one of the greatest tragedies in life is that you will always be loved more than you will ever know. someone in class finds your presence inviting and warm, even if you’ve only ever exchanged a few words with them—maybe none at all. someone on the street loves your smile and it gets them down the next few streets. someone you used to be friends with still wishes to fondly call your name. someone you used to be friends with five years ago would give anything to be in the same room as you today. someone who regularly comes into work is disappointed when you aren’t there to brighten their day. someone missed you today. someone noticed you were gone. someone loves you when you’re there; someone loves you when you’re nowhere to be found at all. you think you have always disappeared when you’re no longer in the picture, but you’ve never left the frame.

[aaazithro2]

There are times when it is just (very) challenging to reveal your truth to somebody. It becomes a lot more frustrating when the somebody is someone really close to you (e.g., family, friends, partner).

My words often offend people around me. If not offensive, my words illicit some negative emotion (e.g., sorrow, guilt, anger).

It makes me feel better off just to keep my words to myself, to keep quiet.

I feel misunderstood so many times, it's just exhausting. Loneliness provides me peace somehow, because being alone makes me not consider anyone's thoughts/feelings.

Sometimes, I'd just rather be alone, you know.

[aaazithro2]

The introvert in me is drained with all these meetings, calls, and discussions for today. I can no longer work. My status in MS Teams may be "⛔️ Do Not Disturb" but you'll find me here, lying in bed unable to function anymore.

[aaazithro2]

And it goes like,

"I never thought I could find a love like this."

It's Christmas season, seems she and the relationship are Santa's gifts to me for being a "good girl." 💖🎁

Happy holidays. 🎄🎀

[aaazithro2]

We have the power to create whatever our heart desires.

Writing it down here as a "reminder to myself."

[aaazithro2]

It's crazy when I write something, especially the most honest parts, I find myself tearing up. This always happens, whether it be on paper or digitally. Writing is such a liberating and therapeutic experience for myself.

Or maybe I'm just a crybaby! 😅

[deloveusion]

when the sexual connection is as good as the mental connection >>>>

[deloveusion]

i need to be kissed. pin me against a wall and kiss me like i’m the love of your goddamn life and you didn’t think you’d ever find me

[inadequate--feelings]

need

[aaazithro2]

In a crazy turn of events, a certain lady broke my 2-year++ singledom streak. This certain lady caught me off guard and sweetly asked if I could be her girlfriend.

Off the bat and without a doubt, I uttered the easiest YES. 💍

"M's"

[aaazithro2]

Corporate Red Flag

It's been a week and I've been 100% demotivated to work. I haven't worked as hard as I used to. After the "long vacation" between Oct 30-Nov 03, going back to work on Nov 06 felt oddly nonchalant.

I am, and have been, a very highly motivated corporate rat. But this week is the total opposite, I'm an absolute corporate red flag - hiding behind the Do Not Disturb status, pretending to work. It feels guilty. But what can I do? This week isn't my best. It is my worst week, in terms of work.