OOC: Hey guys! Long time no see---
Just some quick updates as to my status.
I’m still in a fairly bad place, so activity here
will be SPOTTY at best, but I’m still going to
put more effort into Ara && her lore, which
brings me to my next point--- I’M RESTARTING
all of her lore && will be remaking her to be a bit
of a better, well balanced oc. ALL THREADS are
dropped, and all canon is now GONE. I made this
oc when i was in an even darker place than I am now,
so I believe remaking her will be therapeutic and also
will hopefully make her a better suited muse for interaction.
THANK YOU to all of those who still follow !
I’m sorry for the inactivity !! I’m just having a bit of trouble musing as of late,
so don’t expect much out of me for a little while. I apologize to those still waiting for things from me;;; I’m just dealing with some irl things atm.
If the scent of death did not serve as a clear indicator, the strew of blood and viscera surrounding him spoke of a tale far too late to change.
A woman, this time. Young, blonde haired, once bright eyed. Her throat has been ripped into, her jaw severed from her face and her heart torn from her chest; nowhere to be seen. The she-demon’s attacks bring light to memories he’d long since buried—the difference being that Arazai’s motives are nothing but gluttonous. Unwarranted. Deliberate, and unholy.
She is not attacking to instill fear, anymore. No, it’s become quite obvious that her actions are being driven solely by her emotions alone.
The feeling is familiar, if not brazen.
Shen rises from his kneel at the girl’s corpse, and takes but one moment to close his eyes in her memory before he snaps back into place with the sound of nails scraping brick.
It would appear she’d never left.
‘ Come forth, ‘ Shen declares into the night, and reaches for his steel saber over the hilt of his spirit blade. ‘ You trespass on sacred grounds, demon. ‘
I will not allow it any longer.
@abattoiris
FINGERS slicked with the bittersweet
essence clutch together —— each pointed tip resting
tightly against her ivory palm. How many more will
it take? How much longer can she continue unseen?
It didn’t matter.
‘ To the ends of the earth. ’
whispered itself inside her head, each time the echo’d vow
penetrated deeper into what can be assumed was her soul——
and thus filled her limbs with a revived unholy purpose, a revived
vigor. Soon, Sickening, sloppish sounds filled her ears as her
opposing hand tightened its grip, the vascular organ releasing
what little claret it’s chambers held. The familiar scent of fresh
decay waft around Ara, her eyes fluttering closed as if she was
gripped by a pleasant, welcoming memory —— and that, she was.
However, before such a pleasant feeling could consume && enthrall
her, the stifled footsteps of another caught her attention, and thus,
she snapped out of her blissful, wanted reverie.
Was it him?
No, the footsteps were heavier, harder, unsummoned.
Why now? Had the cursed woman’s screams attracted yet
another BEAST in the night?
The scent was unfamiliar —— far too clean for those monsters
she knew.
Taking a quick gander, she narrowed her painted lids,
the form coming into view being none other than SHEN ——
someone she was hoping to indefinitely avoid.
RAGE filled her veins, turning her porcelain cheeks
a deep crimson hue as she swayed, hoisting herself into
standing position as she clutched the wall beside her.
Digging deeply, && dragging, her long talons skitted across
the faded bricks, her eyes dead set on the bastard who ruined
what could be VICTORY for her && her dearest RHAAST.
Soon, the boy would have given in.
Soon, kayn would have ceased.
Soon, he would have been NO MORE.
Thus ending the struggle, the turmoil && calamity that
filled her eyes && heart each time the youngling denied
her ———— denied HIM the chance of reunion.
❞ SO ———
do you make it a habit to ruin a girl’s night out?
based on this suggestions blog. warning: these are pretty dark/angry & could be triggering to some people. please be cautious before proceeding!!
‘ all i want in my life is for my friends to be able to touch me suddenly & me to not flinch away without meaning to. when will this stop affecting me? ’
‘ all i want is to be soft & gentle, but i’m made out of steel & anger. maybe in another life, i guess. ’
‘ beauty is in the eye of the beholder, so choose to see beauty in everything. ’
‘ burning it all to the ground & force them to start again. they made you lose everything. now return the favor. ’
‘ do i ever even cross your mind or do i do all the thinking of us on my own? ’
‘ do you trust me enough? do you trust me at all? ’
‘ don’t you dare abandon me. ’
‘ even after all you have done, i will always want you fighting on my side. ’
‘ every time i see you smile i fall in love with your brightness all over again. ’
‘ everyone i have ever loved is long gone. i sing to the sky alone. ’
‘ everyone i touch gets hurt, but i can’t stop. i touch & i touch & i touch & people get hurt. why can’t i ever stop? ’
‘ everyone says i used to be a hero, but i can still taste the blood in my mouth & still feel bruises blooming because of my fists & my eyes are still stretched wide & terrified. ’
‘ everything i love has been taken from me. what do i have left to fight for? ’
‘ fall in love with someone that makes you feel strong. ’
‘ friends are more important than any material object will ever be. ’
‘ i am aching to hold you & keep you safe, to be pressed against you so that nothing can harm you. ’
‘ i am divine & you will bow before me. ’
‘ i am fucking divine. ’
‘ i am in control & i listen to no one. ’
‘ i am not a good person. don’t pretend i am. ’
‘ i am not accustomed to love. this is a learning experience. ’
‘ i am not worth saving & i am not worth redemption. let me stay in the dark. ’
‘ i am so tired all the time, all i want to do is rest. ’
‘ i am too tired to deal with any of this. ’
‘ i bow to no man. ’
‘ i broke into sharp pieces when i broke & i expect someone else to hurt their hands on my edges just to put me back together. i’m sorry. ’
‘ i can give you your wings back & i can show you to fly once more, if you only believe in me. ’
‘ i cannot be saved. ’
‘ i can’t ask for help because if i ask for help it hurts people. i can bear this weight on my own. i have to. ’
‘ i could taste the lies in your mouth every time i kissed you, but i loved you too much to notice. ’
‘ i crave affection in the simplest way. ’
‘ i deserve to hurt. i deserve to bleed. ’
‘ i didn’t ask for any of this so don’t you dare blame this on me. ’
‘ i don’t care if you say my name like it’s poison or like it’s a prayer, as long as it leaves your lips. ’
‘ i don’t fight for you anymore. ’
‘ i don’t want to let go of you. not now, not ever. ’
‘ i don’t want to talk about it. i don’t want to remember. i don’t want to heal. all i want is for it to go away. ’
‘ i don’t want you to touch me. please don’t touch me, just go away. ’
‘ i feel anger deeper than my bones. i feel anger in my very soul. ’
‘ i feel nothing at all, except for when i feel everything all at once. ’
‘ i have fallen & though i may miss the sky, i belong here now. ’
‘ i have fallen from a height your mind cannot even imagine. ’
‘ i have no home anymore. ’
‘ i remember collapsing in the flames with a sword in my hand & then i remember nothing. ’
‘ i see beauty in everything, but especially in you. ’
‘ i should never have fallen in love with you. ’
‘ i thought for a long time that i was so terrible no one would look at me. now i know it’s because i shine so bright they are forced to look away. ’
‘ i was so caught up in the feeling that i forgot how to breathe. ’
‘ i will never amount to anything. i am a failure in the worst type of way. ’
‘ i will tell myself that the burn of my loneliness in my chest completes me & maybe someday it will be true. ’
‘ if that’s what a hero is i’m glad i’m not one anymore. ’
‘ if you ask me to, i will set the whole world on fire, my dear. it’s all for you. ’
‘ is it my fault? it’s my fault. it’s always my fault. ’
‘ it’s not murder if they deserved it, right? ’
‘ i’m drowning in emotions that don’t belong to me, choking on anger & suffocating on sadness. ’
‘ i’m in love with everything that hurts me. ’
‘ i’m okay. i’m alright. this is all in my mind. ’
‘ i’m ready to give up everything i’ve ever had if it means someone will love me. ’
‘ i’m so cold & i can’t stop shaking. i am not who you think i am. ’
‘ i’m so tired all the time & i just want to be awake again. ’
‘ i’m tired of fighting against the pain of being forgotten. i just want someone to remember me. ’
‘ i’m tired of fighting everything in my life. just make it stop. ’
‘ i’m too tired to care. blow up, get angry at me. i’m sure someday i’ll realize i deserved it. ’
‘ jealousy burns within me. ’
‘ just let me go in peace for once in my damn life. ’
‘ loneliness is a disease & it leaves me empty & hollow, like sound goes through my body & bounces back. ’
‘ made of starlight & sunshine, i shine brighter than they all know. ’
‘ my anger is righteous & my actions are pure. ’
‘ my chest aches & my lungs burn. this sickness comes from the inside. ’
‘ my chest hurts & all i need is some comfort & understanding. ’
‘ my chest hurts & i ache to go back to the sky. ’
‘ my shoulders are aching where wings used to be & all i want is for them to stop hurting. ’
‘ pull me apart & piece me together in your own way. make me perfect. ’
‘ righteous fury throws through my veins & if you touch the people i love i will destroy you. ’
‘ rise up. you can’t keep being small when you were made for so much more. ’
‘ say my name like it’s the only one that’s ever been on your tongue. ’
‘ so much blood has been spilled in my name. time to make you believe it was in yours. ’
‘ so you’ll worry about me when i fall silent, but not when i scream & plead for help? fuck off. ’
‘ sometimes people have to get hurt for me to get what i want. ’
‘ stay away from my fucking friends. stay the fuck away or so help me i will destroy you. ’
‘ stop treating me like i’m an idiot. you aren’t better than me in any way & you better remember that. ’
‘ the bitter taste of regret is ever present on my tongue. ’
‘ the world is spinning far too fast for me to stay on it. ’
‘ to love them is my divine right. ’
‘ voices whisper from the shadows & they fill my mind with thoughts of you. ’
‘ what did i to wrong to be so unloved? ’
‘ what is the point of power if i’m not supposed to use it? ’
‘ who the fuck do you think you are? ’
‘ why can’t i ever fucking stop crying? ’
‘ with a new year comes new tests & triumphs. let’s try to make the most out of it. ’
‘ would it really kill you to be honest for once? ’
‘ yes, i remember my wings breaking & being destroyed. i was powerless to stop it. ’
‘ you are not required to love your parents, or to even like them. ’
‘ you can’t hate me more than i hate myself, but you are more than welcome to try. ’
‘ you may say you love me, but you love only a part of me. i am too complex for you to ever love my entire being. ’
‘ you never fucking cared about me. don’t fucking lie about it. not to me. ’
‘ you remind me of mint. fresh, sharp, kind of cold, but in a nice way. i always knew there was a reason mint was my favorite. ’
‘ you shine light in even the darkest parts of me. you are my sun. ’
‘ you should fear me, but you don’t. i will be eternally puzzled, yet grateful. ’
‘ you touch me & my skin burns & it burns for you, always you. ’
Ara is very much a dominant personality, especially in relationships. If there is anything to be initiated, it would probably be her doing the initiating. ( smut is not written here, so no funny ideas, folks! wink wink )
She does not like children, and thus, does not want any part in becoming a parent.
Ara absolutely adores the feminine form, and has dated / slept with many women in her time before rhaast.
Unfortunately (or fortunately, however you decide to see it) she has no shame in being nude, and thus, has probably accidentally bared it all to a decent number of those who happen upon the shrine she has chosen to reside in. Now, whether or not those who have viewed her survived to tell the tale is a mystery. ( (: )
Filled with holy fervor I never tire, never expire
My wrath is pure like my desire
I’ll light your funeral pyre
With zealous fire, situations lookin dire
Lead me to battle- justice is beckoning
Judge and the jury, I’ll give the evil their reckoning
Indie Kayle from League of Legends
As Heralded By Shiro
Art Credit
Banner by Hina
