Self Rejection, insecurity, and true vulnerability.
Have you ever found yourself in a cycle where your in a group and you feel insecure. You find yourself on the outskirts of the party just watching everyone else take risks and have fun but you are too scared to step out and be yourself because you are terrified of of someone seeing whats in your heart, your totally awkward in your own skin, you wont dance or sing in front of people and if you do you throw out some stupid old lady dance move or you sing bad intentionally.. at this point you may be asking yourself wow I do these things but why?
I was laying in bed one night pondering a past offense (which for starters is a bad idea unless Jesus is involved) when I felt the Lord tell me they dident reject you, you rejected yourself and they followed suit.
I then repented and asked God to forgive me for my rejection of myself. I broke partnership with self rejection and partnered with acceptance. I said in a whisper Heather I accept you.
I gave people permission to reject me because I rejected myself before they ever had the chance.
The truth is we are all spirt beings and when we partner with the spirt of rejection through rejecting ourselves, other people’s spirt picks up on what you have already decided about yourself and they follow suit. Thus we create an unwanted culture of rejection in our lives.
Self rejection has ugly and unfriendly cousins named insecurity, self hatred, and pride.
Lets for a moment talk about Insecurity I have recently been learning about this from Kris Vallotton.
Insecurity = false security it is saying my security is in what the other person is thinking of me and not on what God thinks of me. This is a crippling place to be.
True vulnerability is not always telling a testimony about yourself that might be hard to share or feeling secure enough to be transparent with someone, I actually say the mark of someone who is truly vulnerable is that they love them self enough that they will be unapologetically themself in every setting. They will dance and and not be paralyzed in their own skin because of peoples opinion, they can sing with their real voice and not give a thought to who will hear, they will share the poem that came from their soul, and not be stopped by the critic.
Vulnerability is not always coming to people in your weakness but it is not being scared to show people your strengths. It’s not being scared to show the world you. It’s coming out, being who God says you are. Your amazing and you need to realize it.
So take off the old armor that does not fit you or your life. Stop building the same box, built with words that people put on you or that you put on yourself. these lies and labels don’t fit where you are going. Lies like, your shy, your too much, you can’t do that..blah blah ...ect.
people will treat you, how you see you.
Proverbs 23:7 "As a man thinketh in his heart, so is he".
