certified bummer

aria :(

[muzzlesbian]

no!! penetrative sex will kill the patient. she needs 3 hrs fully clothed grinding and making out to live

[disco-archetypes]

VOLITION - You clearly have issues you need to address.

ELECTROCHEMISTRY - Later when you get the chance, you should address these issues -- by getting *drunk*. That'll show them!

[disco-archetypes]

YOU - Her cheek against mine...

DOLORES DEI - ...feels like soft fuzz, a bird covered in down feathers. Brushing against your broken capillaries.

CONCEPTUALIZATION - The world's most precious material, reserved for those she lets close enough to feel it. You are stealing a touch. It's not yours to take.

[disco-archetypes]

REACTION SPEED - Don't think about that! Quick, think about something else!

YOU - I am scared I will never be held or loved in this world again.

[disco-archetypes]

YOU - Fucking kill yourself you asshole.

DAMAGED LEDGER - The words just... *crossed* your mind somehow.

YOU - Who were they for?

DAMAGED LEDGER - Who do you think?

PAIN THRESHOLD - You.

[punkitt-is-here]

Hello person having transgender thoughts but convinced they aren't trans because they don't have the requisite amount of dysphoria they think they need

Hi I transitioned without even thinking I had dysphoria. Like later in hindsight I can go "oh that's probably what it was" but for the first year of my transition I was straight up like "I like being a guy but I like being a girl WAY more" and you can do that!! There is no prerequisite amount of suffering needed to make yourself happier.

[yay855]

Being transgender isn't something you have to earn, you just have to decide if you want it. And if you change your mind, that's okay too. There's no one serving a, a toll gate of transgender identity and saying you have to be this dysphoric to enter, all you have to do is just decide for yourself.

[shamebats]

Another thing is that if you base your identity on a specific form of suffering you experience, you might find it hard to get better because the absence of pain might feel like a loss of identity.

[ablurrystarlight]

difficult too because the dsm diagnostic criteria for gender dysphoria and that diagnosis' impact on getting care is quite inflexible

[ablurrystarlight]

being a young, trans-girl therapist with their own rash of mental health issues is quite difficult sometimes. for all the "wisdom" that people say i have and i guess i do have, there's always something new and painful to learn.

one of the most powerful things i have learned relatively recently is the idea that i cannot just project my own way of thinking about things onto others, other people are their own universe of contradictions. my new therapist and i have been working on having authentic relationships with others and this has been a huge part of it.

it's hard to be authentic though when i'm supposed to have everything figured out there. i can give advice to someone for the same issues im having and never even consider using them for myself, although i am better now. i love my life so deeply, but i wish that i didn't have to start learning how to live life as my true self the same time i started a very professional and responsibility-laden career.