enjoy this pic I took in my downtown area!
I was diagnosed with a generalized anxiety disorder last year finally but I've been suffering since I was 12 (I'm now about to be 21). I also have emetophobia which has literally ruined my fucking life. I started a form of birth control in 2016 which only made my anxiety and depression escalate to new heights which actually helped me realize how seriously emetophobic I was. since stopping that form of birth control in January of 2018 I’m a new person. my anxiety and phobia is so much more manageable. what fucking sucks is that my mom has been sick for a year or two now and it makes my anxiety flare up so badly and I guess thats why I'm here typing this now, knowing no one will read this or care. I have been struggling to cope with my moms health issues on my own because I have no siblings to go through this with. my ex boyfriend dumped me a week before my moms major surgery last year. I'm dating someone new now (its been a year since all that mess) and he seems to care more. I worry so much about my mom and am afraid I'll let that ruin my relationship somehow considering it ruined my last one. I don't know why I'm even writing all this I just don't want to bother anyone else with this shit going on. I'm a really happy person and I'm so grateful for everything life has given me, its just really hard sometimes when my anxiety and persistent worrying is just attacking my mind.
