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— ” She generally gave herself very good advice, (though she very seldom followed it). ”

Lewis Caroll, Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland (1865)

Hello! You can call me ALI ♡

ㅤㅤㅤ⟡ I’m an ASSH student from the Philippines, still wondering why adults say that your high school years are your ”best years” >_<

ㅤㅤㅤ⟡ Your average isolated gal—I basically have nothing else to do than study, study, and... maybe indulge in my interests every once in a while.

This blog is a sanctuary of my thoughts, as well as serves as a place to track my academic journey.

ㅤㅤㅤ⟡ Feel free to interact with me [ or through @veneracioun ] if you’re interested in being friends or just like the stuff I post on here ^_^

ㅤㅤㅤ⟡ Do refrain from interacting if you have less than ideal intentions with me—and even if you do so, an instant block will simply be carried out.

! Last edited: Jun. 3, 2026

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03-06-26 | Five days before classes!

In two days, I'll be in my new dorm... I swear I'm too young for this 🥹✌️

Went out today for passport photos, by the way! Brought Riddle with me for emotional support 💞. I also got a little smart watch mostly for time and some light tracking of my health (weak immune system and awful mental state core!!!)...

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hiiii would u explode someone who ships jamikali😿😿

27-05-26 | JamiKali?

Hello! ♡ I would NOT explode someone that ships JamiKali.

I have never had a strong opinion for/against Jamil x Kalim—even after I've finished Book 4 a while back. I haven't checked out vignettes regarding the two though, so take my words with a grain of salt if you must.

It's... a mix of both trauma and codependency. I also understand that it can get toxic, considering their master-servant dynamic. But genuinely? The character arc they went through? I'd understand why someone would think positively of the ship. It's not that bad, especially how they both can't go without the other. It's a give-or-take situation—they're pretty much written that way from the characters they're based off. I don't know how else to describe it, but it's... just there for me.

I neither hate or love JamiKali, but if it makes you happy? You do you! I can't force nor pressure someone not to like it.

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21-05-26 | Dawg...

I do NAWT have anything interesting going on. As in. It's either I'm studying, grinding on Dandy's World (Wow! Surprise!!), or out doing errands like a proper little thing—all the while mentally preparing to move into my dorm.

We did go out today though. I bought some school supplies... Everything BUT notebooks and binders. Well, a singular extra notebook in case, but very much none for actual classes. Why? Who the fuck knows what my new teachers require for their classes!! We have NO list of supplies to get, so I'm basing off what my younger sisters have from their school. I didn't have to buy much stationary and art supplies because I already have a lot, and could just reuse what I already have because I REFUSE to have even more stuff to pack.

Today was generally fine though. Even though I'm totally stressed over the move. Not that I care about parting from my family, more like how many stuff we have to get because we STILL have so many appliances to buy. Bright side is that my dorm is a 5 minute walk to my building, plenty of shops (food, laundry, other things) in similar distance, 20 minutes max to two available malls and the local market in the city... You get the gist. I'm in a lucky spot compared to others dorming in the area, so I'm thankful for that. Not like I'm going out much either, I like my personal space.

Lots of yapping, woah! Even more than I have written in my journal as of late.

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13-04-26 | I forgot to post this💔

HI, HI!! I completed JHS last Friday, and I'm actually the rank 1 of my class 🙏! Yes, I gave a speech. No, I didn't completely cry—but I almost did. I got like 8 medals, 9 certificates, and my diploma... Which was pretty heavy.

I'd post pictures of myself, but DAMN I don't want to dox my location 😭 Plus, even if I censored it, I'd need to censor 70% of the pictures... Which renders posting them useless anyway. Which sucks because I like how I looked.

I did end up getting a new tablet and stylus though, so that's nice! Even though I wanted a stove or an air fryer more 🥹.

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08-04-26 | AFTER SO LONG!!

WAR IS OVERRRR!! NO MORE GETTING LOST IN BETWEEN BUILDINGS JUST TO FIND THE PEOPLE I NEED FOR SIGNATURES!!! Minimum of 90% to pass!! Sure, some grammar issues here and there, BUT IT'S FINALLY OVER! YIPPEE! After countless nights spent proofreading, editing, and fixing everything because SOMEONE in our group thought it was a good idea to use FAKE SOURCES, I'm so happy of the results. WHAT'S LEFT IS BOOKBINDING, FINALLYYYY!!

* Whisper from my Pinterest 🫶

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heh smelly

01-04-26 | SHIIBA!

No. Stop. I have work to do... 😮‍💨

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30-03-26 | A FloRid fan in this economy, indeed!

📕ㅤㅤOther than that, WOOHOO! Not many work to do anymore! I'm finally graduating JHS, I have a little surprise some time soon a couple of posts since this one. I'm so glad there's very little to do now, or else I would've exploded. I'm so tired of my classmates' faces, can't wait to enrol into a new school and possibly even move to a new place~ Isn't that, like, totally exciting? For me, it is!

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20-03-26 | Work? What work?

Let's forget I have stuff to tend to at the moment... U-4989 is so cutie patootie, I sorta wanna bite him. Dunno why bite him specifically, or even why him specifically, but I just wanna. But something about him just makes me giggle. He sorta reminds me of my friends, so maybe that? I don't know.

I should get back to work, but GOSH I don't wanna!! I'm so tired. Even when I'm at home, I'm still on my laptop and tending to stuff. Some arguments with my mother here and there—which is awful—but manageable. I'll just give her the silent treatment.

* Pictures from Pinterest

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17-03-26 | Cells At Work!

Research has been awfully demanding, but at least what's left is to get it checked by our advisor, editor, and research office! I can't wait~

At the moment, I'm enjoying this anime I've been laying off for a while now. If only I knew of it years earlier, it would've helped me a whole lot with Biology class 🥹...

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15-03-26 | Riddle, my boy!

I have nothing to share today, as I've been nothing less of occupied. So much so that I didn't even take any pictures!

I just love Riddle so much. He reminds me of many aspects of myself. I don't know how, I don't know whether I should be in awe or concerned. Malleus and Jamil are SUUUUCH close seconds to favorite! I don't know. Either, man. I want to get Malleus and Jamil Nesoberis and Nuis some time. Or Lilia and Kalim, I just feel like getting them. I can't make up my mind, I might as well get all of them... But my wallet 💔💔...

Mmmm ♡♡♡ I love Riddle. Ups and downs, something about him just clicks so well with me. I don't have an essay-long opinion of him like most Riddle enthusiasts, but I simply love him for him. Upbringing, personality, what-ifs and all.

*Pictures from Pinterest

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14-03-26 | @explodingebi ????

IT LOOKS SO AWFUL, I'M SORRY!! But I was about to sleep when I looked at my Floyd plush and remembered "holy shit, I forgot my promise" 😭😭 So basically, this was a rushed little thing both traditionally and digitally 🥀 I'LL MAKE SOMETHING BETTER SOON, TRUST BRO!!

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14-03-26 | I actually went outside?!

Today, my family and I drove to our farm. We played Disney songs on the way, lol. Very nice, very windy! I low-key felt like Epel because our farm is located somewhere pretty secluded.

After that, we went to eat at this place a buddy of my dad owns! I personally didn't like it a whole lot, but I guess that's just my taste buds. The entire day was so chilly, the AC at the place wasn't helping!

Overall, my day was spent with my family. After so long of isolation and filled schedules, I actually had some fun. I can't wait for graduation.

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13-03-26 | I think. I think.

I think I wanna go home. Even though I AM home right now... But I'm too tired to even feel I am at home. Does that make any sense? I hate my Research teamates. Why aren't they of much help. I don't wanna do all the work on my own. BRO, RESEARCH... REVISIONS SHOULD'VE BEEN EASY BUT WHY IS IT TAKING SO LONG... O STATISTICIAN, WHY ARE YOU SO BUSY?? 💔💔 My head hurts, by the way. Did I mention that I wanna go home? I don't know.

Miao...

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11-03-26 | RESEARCH DEFENDED!!

AHAHA! FINALLY, THE HARD PART'S OVER! We have revisions and refinements, yeah, but it's all pretty minor stuff. My group and I can do it on Friday so we'd be able to relax on the weekends (and also because tomorrow, we have a bunch of stuff to do too). Only things left to do are to delete, add, fix some stuff... Finalize it... then it'd all be settled.

The funniest thing today was that I was on the verge of tears when all the papers weren't being printed AT ALL. My groupmate pointed it out when I finally got the confidence (and the papers) like "Y'know, you were visibly mentally struck earlier" and, honestly, I was justified because if we graduate or not depends on the manuscripts and defense. (⁠-⁠_⁠-⁠;⁠)

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09-03-26 | The GIF is me staring at our research papers right now.

I feel like this will never end, but it'll end. It eventually will. MY TEAMMATES, on the other hand, aren't so much help. It's exhausting, I don't want to do this at all. It's so stressful. I'm going to cry if by tomorrow we haven't completely finished it yet. The defense days are only until Wednesday, we're COOKED. I want to graduate, dude.

OUR STATISTICIAN IS TAKING SO LONG TO RESPONDDDD... I'm THIS close to forcing myself to learn how to do statistics.

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07-03-26 | GODS, I can't WAIT to leave.

I'm so tired, I also have to call ny teammates in regard of Research... They're not of much help. We also have so many recordings to take. It's SUCH a pain to deal with these... But it's okay, I'll live. Sorta. We still have the following to do:

(09-03) Research Defense

(09-03) Performance Task in Filipino

(09-03) Remedial Quiz in Filipino

(09-03) Deadline of Homework for MAPEH

(12-03) Musical Theater for Culminating

(12-03) Food Preparation for Culminating

It doesn't look like much, but it actually IS much?? Because I have to physically do stuff???? But exams are finally over, and after all of this... No more problems! I can't wait for graduation to come.