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wait guys help how do i keep my smut fics from getting flagged and hidden ??
me and the red card
The real barbie is Y/n.
Y/n’s a doctor, a cop, a scientist, an agent, vet, hero, villain, astronaut, lawyer, spy, criminal, artist, chef, engineer, psychologist, architect, journalist, firefighter, event planner, mechanic, photographer, musician, actor, interior designer, bartender, fashion designer, barista, florist, forensic scientist, flight attendant, profiler, tour guide, translator, etc.
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why was messi lowkey serving saddam hussein hiding spot
under observation
part 9
michael olise x fem!reader
a series in which reader works at the emergency room, but she can’t stand footballers. what will happen when a sweet michael walk in after an injury.
no warnings for this chapter
a/n : im quickly posting this during the final’s break omd. next chapter is gonna be juicy
last part - next part
There was something incredibly cruel about routines.
They never stopped, they just, altered.
The ambulance doors still opened every few minutes. Monitors still beeped in uneven rhythms. Nurses still called out bed numbers across the department, and the smell of antiseptics still clung to every corridor.
The department itself hadn’t changed.
You had.
You no longer caught yourself looking towards the ambulance entrance every time the door opened.
Michael was almost like a distant memory, the kind of memory you would tell your kids about in a few years. Laughing about how stupid it all was.
That was what you kept telling yourself.
”Bed seven needs another set of observations.”
”I’ll be there in a minute.” You replied without even looking up from the charts in front of you.
Your shift that day had been quiet. Only two fractures, a suspected appendicitis, and a very dramatic man who was convinced that a paper cut needed stitches.
Sophie walked over. “Heads up.”
You hummed absentmindedly.
”There’s a kid from the academy coming in.”
”Football?”
”Looks like it.”
You don’t even really react anymore.
Not because you didn’t care, because you promised yourself you wouldn’t.
Then, after a few paragraphs, you heard it before you even got to see him.
A quiet laugh drifted across the department.
It wasn’t loud, most people wouldn’t have noticed it.
You did.
It wasn’t the laugh itself that made you look up, it was the voice. Your heart sank before your eyes could even found him.
Slowly, almost against your own better judgment, you looked up.
Michael was walking beside the nervous academy player. The kid had twisted his knee during training and was petrified.
Michael accompanied him. He was healthy, smiling, laughing with the kid and trying to distract him.
You froze.
You hadn’t seen him in months. You’d spent the last weeks trying to convince yourself he didn’t mean anything to you.
All those hours spent looking at the same pictures of him and the gorgeous brunette, all the hours spent trying to get him out of your mind.
Everything seemed to fall apart the second your eyes locked.
His smile gently grew.
”Hi, Doctor.” He hesitated. You felt it.
“..Hi.”
Your response was almost cold, and he noticed it.
You almost had to force yourself to look away. The academy player settled in a nice room and another junior doctor volunteered to assess him. Normally, you would’ve insisted on helping, you always liked teaching the juniors. Today was different, you were grateful for the excuse of being busy.
You buried yourself in paperwork, discharge summaries, prescriptions, a set of blood tests you’ve already read twice, front to back.
Anything to stop yourself from looking up.
Except you kept doing it anyway, even after all the distractions.
Every few minutes, your eyes betrayed you, drifting towards room four.
Michael hadn’t noticed you yet. Or maybe he had and was deliberately trying to give you space.
Either way you wouldn’t know which possibility hurt more.
While the player was being examined, Michael waited in the hallway.
His hands were shoved into the pockets of his black hoodie, watching your every move.
You were exactly as he remembered. Hair tied up in a ponytail, sleeves rolled to your elbows, a yellow pen tucked behind your ear.
You moved quickly between patients, speaking gently to an elderly patient before trying to joke with a little boy.
He fought with his own legs, almost walking over to you.
He even took a step forward, but he remembered what had happened the last time you guys ran into each other and he stopped himself.
The way you’d walked straight past him that day, without so much as a glance. It was engraved in his brain.
One of the nurses walked over to him. “Can i get you anything? Tea, coffee?”
He smiled politely, “I’m alright thank you.”
”You can sit down. It might take a while.”
He nodded, but instead of sitting, he simply leaned against the wall. Eyes wandering back to you.
The nurse followed your gaze, landing directly on you. A tiny smile spread across her face. “You know…”
He looked at her.
”I don’t think she’s looked at her paperwork once in the last five minutes.”
He frowned, “What do you mean?”
”She’s been pretending to read the same page.”
But before he even got a chance to respond, the nurse got called away.
Sophie appeared behind you, almost out of nowhere.
”You’re doing it again.”
Without even looking up from the chart, you reply.
”I’m doing what?”
”Looking at him.”
”I am not.”
Sophie raised an eyebrow and glanced over your shoulder. “You’ve just written today’s date where the patient’s blood pressure should be.”
You looked down. Sure enough, she was right.
You let out a frustrated sigh. “This is so ridiculous.”
You dropped your pen on the desk. Sophie softened, feeling your frustration. “So go talk to him.”
”I can’t.”
”You can.”
”Does he even want to talk to me?”
Sophie glanced across the hall, where michael was watching you while pretending to read a hospital pamphlet. “Oh trust me, he does.”
The junior doctor walked back towards you after long exhausting hours of acting like you were busy with something important.
”The academy player is all set, they’re just waiting for the paperwork.”
You nodded, “I’ll sign them.”
You walked towards the nurses’ station, trying to keep your eyes on the clipboard in your hands and not the hot footballer who could be standing anywhere.
At exactly the same moment, Michael thanked the doctor and started walking towards the exit.
Neither of them planned on going to speak to the other.
Until they found themselves standing only a few feet apart.
He looked up first, heart racing.
Then you did too and your eyes met.
For the first time in months.
Neither of you found the courage to look away. “Hi doctor.”
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jude looking for his family in the stands omfg i’m gonna melt
im writing a one shot about this RIGHT NAEWW
colors
désiré doué x fem!reader
in which désiré tries his hardest to make you wear his rival club colors.
a/n : this was an amazing request that i loved so idc if you’re not a marseille fan, im not either just use your imagination idk i just though this would be a fun little thing.
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You’d dedicated your whole life to l’olympique de Marseille. Proudly wearing their colors, attending their games, celebrating their victories. You were a true fan.
The first time Désiré gave you a PSG shirt, he was so confident that you’ll love it.
He walked into the room, proudly holding a bag from the club shop. He grinned as he got closer to you, hugging you from behind. “Close your eyes.”
You laughed. “Is this another one of your terrible surprises?”
”Just trust me.”
So you do.
He places the soft material in your hands, smiling from ear to ear as he did so.
”Okay.”
You slowly opened your eyes, adjusting to the light as you glanced down at your hands.
A brand new PSG home shirt. His name stretched proudly on the back
DOUÉ
You smiled immediately. “Aww”
He thought he had won, until.
”It’s really pretty..”
He sighed. “But..?”
”I’m not eating it.”
His smile drops. “Excuse me?”
You held the shirt tightly to your chest. Smirking. “I love that you got me one.”
”So wear it.”
”I can’t”
He groaned, accepting defeat. For this time at least.
So he slowly makes it his mission. Getting you to wear a psg shirt.
Every couple weeks he tried again. He was nothing if not persistent. But you rejected his offer every single time, the shirts piling in a corner of your dresser. Slowly collecting dust.
One morning, you were making breakfast in an old blue and white Marseille shirt. You wore it proudly, it was your grandpa’s first football jersey, and he’d passed it on to your dad, and later on to you.
But when Des walked into the kitchen. He immediately stopped. Sighing dramatically. “Again?”
You dont even look up, eyes fixated on the eggs you were currently trying not to burn. “Good morning to you too.”
”I bought you four PSG shirts.”
”And that’s lovely really.”
”So..”
you frowned “So what?”
”Why are you wearing… That?” emphasis on the that, he looked down at your shirt in disgust.
You glanced down, smiling to yourself. “Because this one’s lucky.”
He rolled his eyes. “You don’t even believe in lucky shirts.”
”I do when it annoys you.”
He pinched the bridge of his nose. “You’re unbelievable.”
You smiled sweetly, knowing all of this was just a silly game, and you were clearly winning. His annoyance clearly making you laugh.
”Yet here you are.”
Désiré had even convinced you to come watch one of his trainings. So you showed up to the training ground. Wearing jeans, trainers, and an Olympique de Marseille hoodie.
You’d honestly forgotten you had it on. But it only fueled your desire to mess with him even more.
As soon as you walked to the pitch, the players noticed. All heads turned to you as you walked proudly onto the pitch.
One of them pointed. “Is that…”
another squinted. “No way.”
Warren started laughing before anyone had the courage to. “Désiré”
He turned around, eyes instantly landing on you, and going wide as soon as they did.
The giant OM crest across her chest.
He froze. “You’ve got to be kidding me.”
He quickly walked over to you. “What are you wearing.”
You look down at your hoodie, acting surprised. “Oops.”
The boys were absolutely losing it, watching the pair, one shouted. “Your own girl supports l’OM?”
Désiré stared, mouth feeling dry. “You’re wearing Marseille.”
you shrugged “I noticed yes.”
He shook his head in disapproval. “Here? To PSG training?”
”i also noticed that.”
the entire team is trying not to laugh, watching the scene.
Someone finally asked. “Does she at least own a PSG shirt?”
Désiré answered quickly before you got to. “Four.”
You nod in agreement. “He’s right.”
Everyone goes silent, listening.
”They’re all folded neatly in my wardrobe.”
More hope. “Next to my Marseille shirts.”
The laughter is almost deafening.
Des actually walks away whispering, “i dont know her.”
We were one day away from le classique.
PSG vs OM.
All week the internet had gone absolutely crazy, joking about where you would sit. Tagging you in edits.
People just couldn’t stop asking. “What side are you on.”
Even journalists were asking Désiré during media day. “Will your girlfriend finally wear psg colors this weekend?”
He smiled awkwardly. “I dont think so.”
And so, the night before the game, you were lying in bed. Curled up against his warm body.
He asks quietly, “Can i ask you something?”
You looked up, smiling. “Always.”
”Does it bother you that i play for PSG?”
You immediately shook your head left to right. “No.”
“Really?”
”I fell in love with you, not your badge.”
He looked honestly a little relieved, and you carried on.
”But Marseille is home to me. My dad raised me like that. I cried when we lost finals, i celebrated titles. I can’t just pretend that never happened,”
He nods slowly, “I know.”
He closed his eyes, sighing softly, “I’d never ask you to.”
So he stopped trying to convince you.
The next morning, it was finally match day.
He told you there was no pressure about you showing up to the game. You both knew it would be awkward. You still told him you’ll think about it.
He assumed you wouldn’t.
He walked out the tunnel.
The stadium was absolutely packed.
The Parc des Princes looked incredible.
The ultras chanted loudly. Music, flags, and noise. It was all so overwhelming, in a good way.
During warm up, he scanned the crowd. Eyes landing towards the family section out of habit.
He stopped.
There you were, standing against the railing.
But not in light blue and white. Not in Marseille colors.
You were wearing his shirt.
His name, his number.
He completely forgets what he’s doing, movements going flimsy. He couldn’t stop smiling.
One of the older players noticed his cheesy smile. “What are you smiling at?”
He didn’t answer, just looked up at the stands.
You caught his eye from across the stadium.
Grinning as you pointed to the name on your back.
He gently shook his head in disbelief.
PSG won.
But he barely celebrated.
First thing he did was lightly jog towards the stands.
You were already waiting for him. The second he got close enough, he wrapped his arms tightly around your waist. Head dipping in your neck, taking in the scent of the brand new jersey mixed with yours. He whispered. “You wore it.”
You laughed into his shoulder. “I did.”
He pulled back lightly, arms still holding your waist tightly.
”I thought you said you never would.”
”I said i’d never wear a psg shirt.”
He frowned, glancing at your shirt once again to make sure he wasn’t dreaming. “This.. is a psg shirt.”
You gently ran your fingers over his number, feeling the stickier materiel on your hands. “No.”
He tilted his head, obviously confused. So you continued, “It’s your shirt.”
He smiled.
”I didn’t wear it because of psg. I wore it because your name is on the back.”
He just stared at you for a second, confusion sprawled across his face. Obviously trying to process your words. “So…”
You smile, knowing exactly where this is going. “No, I still support Marseilles.”
He laughed, “Yeah okay figured.”
So you reached forward, placing your hand on his cheek gently. “But for ninety minutes…”
Your other hand reacher for the collar of his shirt, tugging at it lightly.
”…I’ll always support you.”
The words instantly made him melt, leaning instinctively into your lips.
The kiss was sweet and gentle, until his hands started moving all around the material of the shirt. Fingers wondering right underneath it slowly. Fingertips tickling your hips and slowly moving higher towards your waist.
You pushed back gently, looking at him, a smile still sprawled on his face. “I think this is the closest i’m ever getting to converting you.”
You smirked.
”Don’t push your luck.”
wait because i liked writing this
Oh they’re evil
definitely did it for the girlies and im not mad
DJED SPENCE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE
sleepless nights
Djed Spence x Fem!Reader
in which you come across a handsome footballer in a hotel lobby. both unable to fall asleep.
a/n : okay i’ve been wanting to write something for Djed so HERE IT ISSSS. his natural aegyo is so refreshing I actually really liked writing this so enjoy!!!
Djed got back to the hotel after an intense away game.
It was silent.
Not completely, there was the occasional hum of the elevator, the distant buzz of traffic outside, the clink of glasses being stacked behind the bar.
Everyone else had headed to bed, except for him. Head still buzzing from the match, brain refusing to switch off.
He’d tried.
Showered. Scrolled on his phone, watched half an episode of a dumb reality tv show he already couldn’t remember the name of.
He was tossing and turning in his bed, counting sheep, staring at the ceiling for what felt like hours to him.
When he finally looked at the time
1am
he sighed.
He tried everything he could, nothing helped. Replaying every pass, every touch, every missed opportunity. Even if they’d won the game. Djed was a perfectionist.
He sat up on his bed, looking around the dark room. Lightly illuminated by the city lights outside. He got up, walked to the bathroom and splashed some cold water on his face.
His body was physically exhausted, but his mind wasn’t.
He pulled on a grey t-shirt over his head and slipped his room key into his pocket.
Maybe a drink would help.
The lobby was almost empty when the elevator doors opened. A receptionist tapped away on her keyboard behind the desk, barely looking up as Djed crossed the marble floor across from her, heading towards the small hotel café tucked away into a corner of the hotel.
That’s when he saw you.
Curled up on one of those fluffy comfy hotel chairs. Because you also couldn’t sleep either. You had an early flight home in the morning, so you’ve just been reading and playing on your phone. Doing anything to keep your mind busy.
He frowned.
”Thought i was the only insomniac.”
You looked up. Recognizing the familiar face you’ve seen on tv multiple times. You weren’t a big football fan but you watched some games during big tournaments.
You looked back down at your book before answering,
”Thought footballers were supposed to be asleep by ten.”
That earned you a small laugh from him.
He shrugged, walking over.
”What are you doing awake?”
He gently sat down across from you, getting comfortable as he looked at you. Scanning your features.
”I could ask you the same thing.”
He smiled again, sighing as he stretched his legs under the table. “I couldn’t switch my brain off.”
You looked up, smiling. “Big win?”
He raised an eyebrow. “Yeah kind of.”
You nod, eye flickering towards his figure. His biceps, his sharp face, his tight gray shirt hugging him perfectly. He looked good. There was no denying that.
The conversation instantly flowed. He was easy to talk to, naturally funny without trying too hard, always finding a way to make you laugh. He was obviously confident, but not cocky.
You talked about football and your own career. The media, the pressure, he easily opened up to you, which was shockingly nice and unexpected.
He kept flirting too, nothing too obvious. Small remarks, lingering touches, borrowing your hoodie because the hotel’s air conditioning was ‘too cold’.
At some point he even convinced you to go on a walk around town, claiming that London was nice at two in the morning. And you followed his lead.
This was your first time in London, the city was beautiful. You loved everything about it. The building, the shops, the people.
You played silly games, rock paper scissors to decide which corner to turn, buying random snacks from vending machines and ranking them, sharing a pair of headphones and listening to each other’s playlist. He even gave you back your hoodie, even though he was freezing. Your hands lightly brushing accidentally and neither of you pulling away.
You sat on a bridge. A small green bench overviewing the city. You watched the empty streets, eating the remaining of the snacks you’d bought.
You felt comfortable.
You talked about your plans for the future, laughing and being happy.
At some point, you mentioned the fact that you would probably never see each other again after tomorrow.
You watched the frown for on his face. Head dropping to look at his hands in his lap.
He went quiet.
Then “That’s kind of the problem.”
It was your turn to frown now, head tilting. “What is?”
”I don’t actually want this to be the last time.”
Simple, honest.
That made you smile, you slowly leaned your head on his shoulder. Taking in the view one last time.
His heart was secretly racing, the contact feeling so sudden but natural.
The walk back to the hotel was more quiet. You walked next to each other, mostly in silence, except for the occasional brief joke. You kept catching a few glances at him.
He was truly beautiful, the city lights hitting his face perfectly.
His lashes, his nose, his pretty pink lips and his dark soft eyes. You just couldn’t stop staring.
He walked you all the way to your room, it felt shorter than you wanted it to.
Maybe it was because neither of you had the courage to talk. Not because it was awkward. Because every look seemed to say enough.
You didn’t want any of this to end, neither did he.
The elevator doors slid open with a soft chime. You stepped inside together, shoulders pressed together, neither of you moved.
Djed looked over. “You’ve gone quiet.”
”So have you.”
He smiled to himself. “Guess i don’t want the night to end.”
Your heart skipped. “I dont either.”
The words hung heavily between the two of you, as the elevator climbed.
When the doors opened at your floor, you walked side by side until you reached your room.
You stopped, key card held tightly in your hand.
”So…” you whispered.
”So.” He mimicked your tone.
Neither of you moved, too scared for the moment to end.
But then he laughed, softly, rubbing the back of his neck. “I’ve spent the last few hours talking your ears off, ad now i dont even know what to say.”
”I got you speechless?”
”I know. it’s concerning.”
You smiled, shaking your head. “I had a really good time tonight.”
His expression softened. “Yeah?”
”Yeah.”
He took a small step closer, closing the gap a little more.
”I’m so glad you couldn’t sleep.”
“So am i.”
There was barely any space left between you. His eyes searched yours, gaze quickly falling to your lips. “Can i kiss you?”
You answered by closing the distance yourself.
The kiss was slow, but tentative.
Like neither of you wanted to rush the moment, but were still so eager to achieve.
You pulled away first, your foreheads rested together.
”You can come in, if you want.”
He smirked, reaching for your hand. “I’ll like that.”
The door clicked shut behind you, leaving the city and the sleepless night outside the room.
IM SCARED TO MESS IT UP WITH SMUT ARGGGDAGDHA
if you guys actually want a part two i could write it and add some spiceeeeee.
under observation
part 8
michael olise x fem!reader
a series in which reader works at the emergency room, but she can’t stand footballers. what will happen when a sweet michael walks in after an injury
no warnings for this chapter, just angst and fluff if you squint.
last part - next part
He just couldn’t stop getting thinking about you. That encounter, why you didn’t treat him that day. It all kept replaying in his head.
He even started acting differently, some of his teammates noticed. Most of the time he just brushed their remarks off.
So when he walked into training one day, he didn’t expect to be faced with the club doctor. He had an unpleasant expression on his face, making Michael flinch lightly, expecting the worst.
”You’ve been to the emergency at least 6 times this season..”
He groaned.
”..Unless you have a valid reason to, stop going there.”
Michael laughs, the whole situation being comically well timed.
”i wasn’t planning on it.”
He now had two reasons to not come see you. He doesn’t want to get scolded, and he thinks you dont want to see him anyway.
He was completely wrong about the second one. You just couldn’t explain to him that people thought something was going on between the two of you and you had to stop treating him. That was far too embarrassing.
So weeks go by.
Michael still hoped he would run into you somehow. He went to the market every sunday, praying you would be standing right by the flower shop, just like last time. He drove by the hospital on his way home everyday after training, hoping he could catch a glimpse of you. Even if it added 15 minutes to his itinerary. He was desperate.
No texts, no hospital visits, no encounters.
the routine slowly started fading unknowingly. It was painful on both sides. You absolutely hated it. Secretly hoping he would walk through the door. That day never came, you slowly started to lose hope.
You were poking around your plate. The cafeteria was pretty packed, still, you sat alone, with your thoughts.
”Isn’t that your footballer?”
You jumped a little, the voice coming out of nowhere. You slowly looked up. Right in front of you, was a phone screen. It took a few seconds for you brain to understand what was going on. You scanned the picture the nurse was showing you.
Michael. Walking through London. Arms around a gorgeous brunette. He was smiling, hard, like you’ve never seen him smile before. Your stomach dropped.
You didn’t know what was worse. The fact that you had been sulking for weeks, not knowing that it hadn’t seemed to affect him in the slightest. Or the fact he was dating someone else. She was incredibly beautiful too. Probably a model.
You felt stupid. You were also mad. Not at him, or anyone else but yourself. You’d let yourself get attached to a footballer. You held your fork just a little tighter, your other hand gripping your thigh under the table.
”He’s allowed to date.”
You had to act like all of this wasn’t affecting you. You didn’t want it to affect you.
The nurses looked around at each other, one quietly formed to courage to ask, “are you okay?”.
That almost broke you right there and then. You absolutely were not okay.
You had spent months convincing yourself you didn’t have feelings for Michael, that he was just another patient. That your relationship was solely professional and friendly.
”I’m fine.”
The rest of the shift was painful. You were incredibly distracted. The nurses kept looking at you with those pitiful eyes. You had never wanted to go home so badly before. You looked at the clock, five hours left.
They were inches away from fixing everything.
You were working another evening shift at the hospital. It was unusually quiet.
You found yourself staring at the entrance doors again.
Not expecting an emergency, but because strangely enough, some part of you still hoped he would walk through them.
Michael had a club event that night, at the hospital.
He was visiting children, signing autographs, spending time with them.
He knew you were working that night, he had memorized all of your shifts and couldn’t get them out of his mind.
He thought about whether to go look for you or not.
One of the nurses noticed him as soon as she walked into the room. “You know Dr. L/N is on tonight.”
He smiled, a hint of sadness sparking in his eyes. “Yeah..”
”You should say hi then.”
”I don’t think she’d want that.”
He walked down a corridor. Quiet and empty. You come out another. Only being separated by a patient being wheeled between you.
By the time you looked up, he was gone. You hadn’t seen him, he hadn’t seen you either. Something inside you felt uneasy, you brushed it off.
Later, Michael glanced back towards your office. You hadn’t seen just been called into a meeting.
Neither one of you ever sees the other.
At the end of his visit. Michael stopped at the lobby. Leaving something behind for you.
Not flowers, chocolate. But a small paperback book.
The night you’d help him stay awake after his concussion. You talked for hours about everything. The subject shifted to literary at some point. You had mentioned this book you wanted to read, he’d told you he had a copy at home and couldn’t land it to you. You thanked him but said you never had time to read anymore.
He still remembered.
So when your shift ended, you walked past the receptionist, waving her goodbye like you always did.
This time she stopped you. Handing you a small book.
You were incredibly confused, so you opened it.
Inside the front cover was a small sticky note.
Thought you might finally have a day off. - M.
That was it.
No flirting.
No ‘I miss you’.
Just, that. A small but incredibly thoughtful gift.
You stared at it for what seemed like ages. Then quietly ask. “When did he leave?”
”About five minutes ago.”
You quickly closed the book and ran to the parking lot. It was empty, except for your car. He was already gone.
The drive home was peaceful.
Once inside, you opened the book again and a train ticket falls out. It had been used as a bookmark.
So you picked it up carefully, fingers grazing over the material, carefully reading it.
It was from the day you’d met at the market. He’d kept it all this time.
Your head fell back as you let out a groan.
Not because of the ticket. Because you had realized you weren’t the only one holding on to those little memories.
But then what was this?
The pictures, how avoidant he was.
You felt like he was toying with your feelings, and your heart felt heavier.
frustration
michel olise x fem!reader
you loved michael with your whole, even if he wasn’t the best with communication
angst, fluff, established relationship
two years.
two years since the first time you’ve ever laid eyes on michael.
two years you’ve been calling him yours.
he was everything you could ever dream of and beyond. he was yours, completely, and knowing that thousands of girls would kill to be in your shoes, made it even more thrilling. you were the one sleeping in his bed every night, and the one he would kiss, hold, touch. but you loved him for him. not for football, not for money, not for fame.
people often described him as quiet, but you knew better. he wasn’t arrogant or ‘nonchalant’. but only your knew, you understood him completely.
that week though, everything stopped feeling normal.
he started being, cold.
not mean, but cold.
he was there, with you, everyday. and somehow he was still absent.
one word texts, no phone calls, coming home late after training, falling asleep almost immediately.
you were all for communication, it was your number one priority in the relationship. you viewed it as the most important and most valuable thing. michael seemed to think differently.
every time you’d ask if he was okay, he’d say “yeah” and that was it. but “yeah” didn’t fix anything, it doesn’t tell you anything either. it made everyday more and more frustrating. wondering what was going wrong.
you’re someone who needs reassurance. you dont beg for constant attention, you just need communication.
but michael on the other hand, grew up believing that when something was wrong, it was better to keep it to yourself until it was solved, or had passed.
so when he’s stressed about football, poor performances, injuries, the media, pressure, he withdraws. bottling up all his emotions, until eventually he cracked.
to him, he was protecting you, the people around him, from his problems. keeping you out of his misery.
to you, it felt like he was shutting you out.
dinner that day was silent. just like every other one that week.
you’d cooked him his favorite, hoping that it would spark something inside him, even the slightest smile would mean a lot right now. instead you got a quick ‘thanks’. that was it. he would usually smile, hug and kiss you. tell you how much he loved you. today was different apparently.
as you were sat across from him, playing with your food, your appetite completely gone from all the questions playing in your head.
at first, you just thought he had a bad day and shrugged it off. but as time went by, you couldn’t stop wondering.
did something bad happen, was he hiding something from you, did he stop loving you?
your throat tighten just at the thought of it. you couldn’t lose him. so you ask quietly. “did something happen today?”
”no.”
you nod, expecting at least more than a single word from him.
so you try again. “are you upset with me?”
”no.”
another silence. you started to grow more and more impatient. so you finally put your fork down. “then talk to me.”
he looked at you. really looked at you. probably for the first time this week. you honestly looked exhausted. your hair was a little messy, your eyes were slightly redder than usual, you had purple bags slowly forming under them from all the sleepless nights wondering and crying quietly besides him in bed.
”i am talking to you.”
”no you’re answering questions, that’s not the same thing.”
you finally decided to get it all out, what you've been keeping to yourself for the past week, thinking things would change even when they got worse.
”i dont know how i’m supposed to love you when you won’t even let me in.”
he just stared, that hit him harder than you had expected.
but it wasn’t because he didn’t care.
he just honestly didn’t know what to say to that.
you mistook his silence for indifference. your heart slowly crumbling each day. you couldn’t take it anymore, so you left.
not forever, at least for now. you just went to stay with your sister, at least until michael showed you some signs that he did care about your relationship.
the appartement was weirdly quiet. he was so used to your presence. your breathing, your laugh, your voice, the small noises you made when sleeping. even when you weren’t in the same room, he could feel you, and that was loud enough for him.
now that you were gone, it felt empty. not only the apartment, but also him.
he slowly started noticing small things like one of the mugs from your collection, still sitting in the sink, waiting to be washed. your hoodie on the couch. your charger besides the bed. everything felt out place now that you weren’t here. the apartment felt wrong.
he sat on the couch, in silence, replaying the argument over and over again in his head. playing with the sleeve of your forgotten sweatshirt on the armrest. taking in your lingering smell. until he realized how much of an idiot he was.
you never asked him to fix anything, you just wanted for him to let you in.
you hear three knocks at the door. they were soft but you’d definitely heard them.
your sister was at work and you weren’t expecting anyone that day. still, you made your way towards the door. feet dragging on the hardwood floor. you’d only spent one night at your sister’s, embarrassingly enough you already missed michael. you were already miserable, every word, look, touch, replaying in your head. the argument, if you could even call it that, lingering inside you.
when you’d finally opened the door. he was standing there, holding takeout from your favorite place.
it wasn’t some grand romantic gesture. no flowers or super expensive jewelry. just dinner.
that was very michael like, and it unfortunately made you smile. it wasn’t a big, teeth showing, smile. but it was enough for him to notice. he always noticed.
after everything, it was hard to stay mad when he looked like a kicked puppy on the side of a highway, standing there at your door.
”can i come in?”
you sighed, defeated. you could never say no to him.
so you let him and you ate in silence, mostly.
”i dont know how to argue.”
that made you look up from your plate. and he continued.
”when shit goes wrong, i just stay quiet.”
”why.”
he shrugs.
”that’s how i’ve always dealt with it.”
you sighed, again. this time it was out of tiredness. and some pity.
“and has it ever helped?”
there was a long pause. you looked at him as the realization came across his mind.
”no.”
he was finally opening up, starting to get vulnerable.
so you listened.
”i wasn’t trying to push you away.”
he paused again, trying to find the right words. he had never talked about his feeling like that to anyone before.
”i didn’t even notice that’s what i was doing.”
so you tell him.
”when you stop talking to me, my brain just tries to fill in the blanks.”
he nods
”mine does too.”
that was such a simple, but powerful exchange for you guys. it ment more than anyone could ever understand.
he was still sitting across from you.
no dramatic declarations were needed, just quietness. he reached for your hand, and you let him. his thumb slowly dragging across the back of your hand, the familiar sensation finally letting you relax after a week of torment.
after a while, he whispered.
”i’ll try to talk to you.”
you look at him and smile.
”that’s all i wanted from you.”
he leans forward, pressing his forehead gently against yours. you close your eyes, taking his scent and his warmth in.
”don’t leave me next time.”
“don’t shut me out next time.”
he nods, smiling.
”deal.”
i just had a dream about my old situationship and i can’t stop thinking about him now
i lowkey want to go back to my editor era ??
who should i edit tho im scared
battle of the fine shyts saturday
MY REAL FINALLLL
The concept of olise, mbappe, bellingham, and spence on one field this saturday
WE EATING GOOD YALL
under observation
part 7
michael olise x fem!reader
a series in which reader works at the emergency room, but she can’t stand footballers. what will happen when a sweet michael comes in after an injury.
no warnings for this chapter
this is pretty short but the next one will be longer. enjoyyyy
last part - next part
Michael comes back into the hospital a few weeks later. Nothing major, just a normal check up on his concussion and his stitches. And of course he was thrilled.
You guys haven’t talked much since the market. He hadn’t had the courage to text you yet and you didn’t even have his number.
So the days were slow, quiet. Hospital and football duties awaited. You were both busy doing your own things.
When he finally walked in, the teasing started. The nurses were smiling from ear to ear.
”Your favorite patient is back.”
You smiled, not even trying to hide it anymore. You did like Michael’s company. It was nice having him around and the conversations flowed easily. But you didn’t expect anything else from this. He was just a friendly patient who you liked having around.
Nothing more.
You went to the room and Michael was patiently waiting on the bed. Eyes scanning around the cold room before finally landing on you. He instantly smiled, and you smiled back.
You found it so fascinating. How calm he always was. How he never talked loudly or wasn’t angry and demanding.
The room wasn’t as quiet as usual. Normally you would only hear the faint buzzing of the lights or the distant beeping of monitors.
This time the room was filled with laughter, smiles and casual conversation.
You checked his stitches, did some tests. Nothing too crazy.
You could also almost hear the medical staff gossiping around the corner. Giggling at every interaction you and Michael had.
When a consultant slowly walked into the room. He didn’t say anything. He was observing. The way you smiled maybe a little too hard, or the way your touch lingered for a second too long. He didn’t say anything at the time. You didn’t think much of it either.
But when the next day, you got called into the supervisor’s office.
You were nervous. You didn’t know what to expect as this had never occurred before.
You had never had any issues, you always did what you were told and every patient was always satisfied.
The hallway to the office felt unbelievably long. You slowly dragged your feet across it. Each step feeling heavier. Shoes tapping lightly on the hard floor.
When you finally reached the office, you knocked three times. Secretly hoping no one would open the door.
You didn’t know what was worse. The fact that you were called into his office. Or the fact you had no idea what this was even about.
After sixteen long seconds, the door finally opened and you were met eye to eye with your supervisor.
You gave him a tight, polite smile as you reached to shake his hand.
He smiled back, shaking your hand in return and gesturing for you to go sit.
You took a look around. The room was smaller than you expected. It was also darker than the other rooms in the hospital, but it felt nice not being exposed to the bright lights for a few minutes. He had some pictures hanging around, of his family, friends, diplomas and some inspiring quotes. There were tall shelves all around the walls, filles with books who were probably as old as this hospital.
He cleared his throat as he finally sat down. he looked, uncomfortable, but also friendly.
”I know you’re an excellent doctor.”
you listen closely, mouth feeling dry.
”But people have started noticing some stuff.”
You blinked.
Was this what you thought this was about.
”Whether there’s something going on between you and Mr. Olise or not, that’s not the issue.”
You swallowed, hard. And he sighed, the conversation being just as painful for him as it was for you.
”The issue is that it looks like there’s something going on.”
You were stunned, didn’t know if you had to fight back or just nod and agree.
”I’ve heard the nurses talk about how he always ends up here and usually asks if you’re on shift. Staff have noticed you’ve spent more time in his room than other patient’s.”
None of it was actually true, but you understood that appearance mattered. Right now, it did look like something unprofessional was going on.
”So we’ve decided that from now on, another doctor will manage Mr. Olise’s care whenever possible.”
Your heart sank.
You were honestly devastated.
Not because you were angry, but because they were right. You had become emotionally involved with a patient.
”I understand.”
And that was all you had said. You didn’t know how to defend yourself. How to explain that Michael was just friendly, that nothing was going on between the two of you. That you liked having him around because he kept you busy and grounded, that you loved hearing him laugh and he was becoming a routine in your life. That not having him around anymore would make it so much harder for you.
You just couldn’t.
So he smiled.
”I’m glad you understand Doctor.”
He gently got up, walked to the door and opened it for you.
You followed closely, giving him a not so genuine smile before leaving.
And while all of that was happening, Michael was in the lobby. Waiting for you as he had sprained his ankle after training. Nothing serious. Just wanted another excuse to come see you.
Instead, another doctor walks in.
He frowns, confused.
”Where’s Dr. L/N?”
The doctor simply says.
”She’s unavailable today.”
the doctor’s tone was cold, nothing sweet or friendly like you would usually be with him.
He accepted it. Feeling disappointed and his mind kept wandering back to you as the other doctor checked his ankle. He didn’t even know what being ‘unavailable’ ment, were you sick? out of town maybe? a bunch of questions he didn’t have any answers to.
The appointment was finally over, Michael’s ankle was honestly fine. He had made things sound worse than they were just to come see you. Which was apparently all for nothing. Right until he saw you walking down the hallway as he was leaving.
He was getting ready to greet you.
But you looked straight at him, and kept walking.
He froze.
His mind racing to a thousand different scenarios.
But he didn’t know that you wanted nothing more than to stop right there when you saw him.
That you wanted to ask him all about his day and hear his laugh again.
But you didn’t want to get in trouble again.
This career was everything to you.
You couldn’t risk it.
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