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[abyssoozlum]

   This blog is going to become a fandom and art blog. I’m archiving the RP blogs attached to it and, when I remake them, they’ll each have their own accounts so I don’t have to deal with the shared dash clutter.    Kind of silly, isn’t it? The clutter of the shared dash was what overwhelmed me. Then again, that was a lot of activity to keep up with when, sometimes, I just wanted to write for one blog without all the activity linked to the other one making me feel guilty for not doing replies for that muse, too. So I’m just going to take care of that issue and give them all their own accounts and have them logged into different browser profiles so everything’s nice and organized for a change!    So yeah, if you’re an muse blog and I unfollow you, it’s nothing personal. I’m just redoing my blog and don’t have a reason to follow muse blogs on this one now. I have everyone’s names noted down so I can follow people again on my muses’ blogs once I make them.

[drusoona]

[arcteris]

hm01? we don't do that here

[ppan-kyu]

[mineco000]

[andromedadualitas]

Vergil waiting for me to get to him on DMD be like.

But jokes aside idk I just wanted to draw him calmly vibing. 😊 And yes I know that’s not the plastic chair of ultimate POWER he’s sitting on but that one wasn’t looking as a dramatic as I was envisioning. 😂

Also I’m experimenting with a new kind of less detailed and more loose way of painting and I have no clue what I’m doing yet but I think I’m loving it. 😃

[abyssoozlum]

   I want to say sorry for how long it took me to recover from the loss of one of our animal companions but, honestly? I shouldn’t feel the need to apologize for something like that. That’s just the f-ing trauma talking again, making me feel bad for needing time for myself after a pretty big loss. So instead, I’m just going to let everyone know I’m back and give you a bit more of an update under the cut if you want to know more about what’s been going on with me.

   Warning before you read on: It deals with an abusive relationship. Specifically, having recently gotten out of one.

   As for what all occurred, I’ll give you the short-ish version. Cassandra (our late cockatiel) passing away as she did, and on the very same night that our now ex-partner system managed to injure one of our hands, served as quite an eyeopener for myself and much of my system. We all started distancing ourselves from them after that and, at some point that I don’t have access to the memory of, my system’s primary protector finally had enough and officially severed the relationship between us and the ones who have been isolating us for the last ten years.

   Now we have to heal, again. We were doing a pretty good job at one point, before our previous host ended up in the fiasco of a relationship that just ended. We have the tools, skills, and knowledge from what helped in the past plus we’re gathering more up-to-date resources and a few contacts now that we actually have a phone number again (financial abuse made it so we couldn’t maintain one).

  Know how I’m always timid and don’t really approach much, even though I really want to interact, I just don’t? It’s because I’m used to having everything I say either completely ignored and used as a chance to talk about what the other person cares about or twisted/misquoted against me and used as a launching point for an argument. You tend to learn not to say much when that’s what happens every time you try to talk to someone, and that person was the only one you really had to talk to for about a decade.

   With any luck the anxiety will start to lessen more soon and actual interaction will start to come easier. I’m already seeing a few signs of lowering anxiety for myself and we’re seeing some overall system improvement now that we aren’t being made to feel like we’re the bad guys any time we don’t follow someone else’s script. Now I just need to get my head back into writing. I know that I can talk my time, but writing helps me cope. It helps me cope a lot. 

   Just pardon if I get random. You do not have to join in on the randomness if it occurs unless you wish to. Just please pardon if it does occur. 

[abyssoozlum]

    One of our animal companions has passed away. I won’t be active for a while.

[rpsourcedmemes]

Anon hate is never acceptable, reblog to show your partners that you are a safe space for them if they start getting anon hate.

[mineco000]

[abyssoozlum]

    I’m really starting to wonder if I should have just made a different account for each of my muses instead of trying to juggle them as side blogs and making it harder for people to know if we’re mutuals or not at a glance. Moving the blogs themselves wouldn’t be a big deal because I back up the codes but I don’t want to make all my RP partners have to start following new blogs yet again, even if it would be a definite last time. I don’t know, I’m going to have to think about it. I really do think it would be best for the sake of organization, though.

[academicssay]

[kedreeva]

[rpsourcedmemes]

Don’t rush out your replies! This is a no pressure zone. RP is meant to be fun, not a job. Get to replies as and when you feel like it, don't force them or you will burn yourself out.

[geniuss-loci-deactivated2021052]

[sesamie-moving]

shoutout to artists who work slowly, artists who don't have time to make a lot of art constantly, artists who struggle to take breaks, artists who feel guilty for the rate at which they create, and all artists who haven't made art in months. you're still an artist and you don't need to feel bad for working at your own pace.

[narukamishiro]

Nero can be a good tamer too

[abyssoozlum]

    Well, I might not be up for interaction right now, but plot ideas are kind of a thing today. I’m going to do myself a favor and actually type them out this time. >_>