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I actually can't, we've got a new lecturer this semester. we have to do a 'process book' for all of our modules and they're normally really scrappy sketchbooks basically documenting our process and how we made things but shes decided that we have to do a process book for her class but that it had to be completely designed and in the same style as the rest of our project... this I wouldn't normally have too much of an issue with except she's decided to tell us this a week before the deadline, like wtf

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did a cheeky wee 15km hike today and bagged 3 hills and fuck me I missed this shit

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changing out my trans tape and I think I about ripped my nipples off last night when I took it off owie

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my mates getting top surgery on Halloween and I am so bloody happy for him but also so incredibly jealous rn

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this weather is making me want to fuck off up a hill even more than usual

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arguably the hardest thing I've had to do at uni so far is listen to a fucking audio recording of my own voice

like ew no I actually can't sound like that

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I think I cut a little too much off my hair yesterday... its a little bit short

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my laptop sounds like it's gonna explode

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got dysphoria and took out all my piercings... its irrational but here we are

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there's literaly so many free seats and someone's sat down next to me on the train like dude there's seats where you don't have to sit next to anyone

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someone's just joined my year at uni with the same name as my dead name but just with an extra bit at the end and I've only just got the lecturers to call me cam and now I keep hearing what I think is gonna be my dead name before they continue and my heart jumps out of my chest every single time. I feel bad cause she's absolutly lovely but fuck my heart sinks every time

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fuck me there's not enough disabled toilets in this place

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uugghhh I did it I'm officially out at uni. I spoke to my pdt today and he's gonna get my name changed on the uni systems and stuff and talk to my other lecturers. now it's just my parents and work but thats gonna have to wait a while

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aaaaggghhh having a panic attack in tye disabled toilet at uni cause I'm gonna have to talk to my lecturers about changing my name I hate this

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I cannot drink the way I used to fml hanging out my arse today

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dunno what I did to piss off my bowels today but I have not stopped shitting tf