Introduction
This story begins in February of 2021.Ā A time when I was not in a good spot physically or emotionally.Ā Ā
Physically, my back was in a lot of pain. To the point where just sitting at a desk and typing for more than 45 minutes to an hour led to the need to lay down flat and recover.Ā Ā
Emotionally, I wasnāt in a good place as I wasnāt able to shake the loss of my father in November of 2020.Ā Iām really good at showing the emotion of anxiety in everyday life, but donāt really let the sorrow and sadness surface to the top and will internalize those emotions, which really isnāt a healthy coping mechanism.
Finally, the pain got to be too much and I headed into my doctors office for a visit.Ā While waiting to see the doc I was weighed and came in at a shocking 253 pounds.Ā Thatās the most weight my 5ā²11ā³ body had ever packed on and something I was ashamed to have allowed to occur.
Prior to the doctors appointment I knew I was heavy.Ā My belly was distended, my face was fat when I looked in the mirror.Ā I had given myself every excuse for not addressing it.Ā Ā āI have a bad left knee, I canāt run.ā,Ā āMy back is in such pain I canāt walk.āĀ The pandemic of course made it easy the previous year to hunker down and eat, drink, and binge watch tv shows as that seemed like a safe activity or at least a great excuse to do nothing.
Doctors office was a pretty standard visit.Ā Bloodwork was requested. MRIās for the back and abdomen were ordered.Ā A steroid was prescribed to lessen the pain/discomfort in my back.Ā A muscle relaxer to help the sleeping.Ā The best result of the visit was that the doc had signed off on my eligibility based on my BMI to receive the Covid-19 vaccination immediately (at the time, the doses were being administered by age group unless medical criteria was met).
Walking out of the doctors office is where the journey began. Iām writing this post in late October 2021 and will add to the story in the coming days/weeks.Ā Eventually, Iāll get to present day but will reveal now that Iāve enjoyed the journey and the results have been extremely positive. I didnāt want to blog my journey and add pressure to myself to meet benchmarks or prove anything to myself.Ā Ā
As a matter of fact, Iāll leave this post with a bit of early advice if you are struggling with weight gain and looking to shed some pounds. Whatever you do change, please avoid the scale for as long as you can.Ā The mental ups and downs are just too much. Iāve been there done that in years past and the number that pops up alters things day-to-day.Ā A bad number means work out harder, eat less, be more miserable.Ā A good number can lead to thoughts that further loss can be accelerated by working harder, eating less, and of course, this too leads to misery.
More to come.











