Acne Diaries

Just a gal posting about acne and my Accutane journey! I hope my updates can provide insight on what it's like to live with acne every day and how it affects different aspects of one's life. Occasionally posts about ED recovery. Overall tryna keep this a positive space for self-love and growth ♥ Main account: finnishfairy.

[accutaneandme]

Accutane & Exercise

Any sports lovers out there? Me too. I love running, yoga and strength training. Unfortunately, I feel like Accutane has made it more difficult for me to get on the trail and mat.

I’m usually quite energetic and ready for an adventure and a challenge. Accutane has made me lethargic. I don’t have the same energy for jumping out of bed and exercising first thing in the morning. Throughout the day I feel exhausted for seemingly no reason. 

Not to mention the physical aspects. It takes way longer for my muscles to recover. I feel like my quality of sleep has taken a toll too, which obviously affects my muscles and energy levels. Exercising itself feels more like a drag than a drug - which it used to be for me. I have to force myself to move, when it used to come to me naturally.

Of course it’s easy to blame all of this on a drug. But it seems to be true in my case; even my family and friends have noticed this. I’m already prone to depression and I feel like Accutane is making it worse. I can’t wait to get off this drug. I don’t even care if it cures my acne at this point lmao. I just want to get off all drugs. 

[accutaneandme]

omg HELLO you guys!!! i know i haven’t uploaded in forever so i thought i’d show you the state of my skin today, april 2020. i’ve been off accutane for well over a year and i am finally somewhat happy with my skin. as happy as i can be. i think it’s more the fact that i really do not think or care about my skin that much anymore. of course it’s Easier to do that when your acne is basically insignificant and you only have some scarring left. but my scars Are deep and visible (not so much on camera but in real life, especially my left cheek).

i’ve come to accept the fact that i’m not one of the people who got perfectly clear skin from accutane. i’m finally Acne Free but i’ll probably never be scar free and i’m okay with that. i am happy with my life and the woman i am becoming. i am intelligent and capable. i am caring and strong. i am so much more than my skin. 

i hope you all stay healthy during these tough times. remember not to beat yourself up over things you can’t really control. try to relax into the moment and accept everything that is. because whatever it is you’re going through will pass eventually <3 love you

[i-was-today-years-old-when]

i learned the truth between eating chocolate and acne

myth: eating chocolate gives you acne

fact: false!

According to businessinsider.com, “For one month, scientists fed dozens of people candy bars containing 10 times the usual amount of chocolate, and dozens of others fake chocolate bars.When they counted the zits before and after each diet, there was “no difference” between the two groups. Neither the chocolate nor the fat seemed to have any effect on acne.”

So if you want more chocolates,

go have some!

[fakegamerboi-deactivated2019061]

Sugar can cause acne. So no, dark chocolate would not necessarily cause breakouts but any foods high in sugar easily can. If not breakouts, sugary foods still worsen inflammation. Business Insider is not a good source even if you completely ignore the conflicting pieces from them listing chocolate as a cause of acne. Whether or not something causes breakouts for someone is highly personal.

[hazelbeewitched]

i have begun a Method to deal with my dermatillomania:

every time i successfully enter and exit a bathroom without picking or scratching, i get one (1) Healthy Skin Point. 100 Healthy Skin Points earns me a reward of some kind. (I'm leaning towards a tattoo, but money shdhdjdj)

so far it has been fairly successful; like a child, i have become very motivated and excited about these Healthy Skin Points. i know positive reinforcement has always been better for me, so we'll see how long it lasts.

[hiraeeeth]

yourself is the biggest piece of art alive

[fleurison-deactivated20190824]

Remember to constantly congratulate yourself for all your mental, physical, and spiritual growth. You came far. You’ve evolved in so many ways. Giving yourself credit and acknowledging your improvements takes you to the next level. You’re getting better every day.

[lithiumic]

Shoutout to all girls working on loving their bodies. Your body is especially designed for you. It’s truly a unique masterpiece. It’s the home you grew up in. Nurture it. Honour it. Love it.

[desinteresse]

Its so strange to spend all your teenage years thinking you’re the ugliest creature in the world. An absolute swamp goblin, if you will.

But then you stumble upon old teen photos when you’re 20 only to realise that you were never ugly? You just looked like a child. Your vision of yourself was just being manipulated by hormones, insecurity and unrealistic beauty standards.

So yeah if you’re a teenager right now and you think you’re the ugliest motherfucker in the universe you’re wrong. Wait it out for a few more years, this WILL be just a phase in your life and you will overcome it, you can do this.

[purplebuddhaquotes]

“My whole life I’ve been telling myself, ‘don’t be afraid’. And it is only now that I’m realizing how stupid that is. Don’t be afraid. Like saying, ‘don’t move out of the way when someone tries to punch you’ or ‘don’t flinch at the heat of fire’ or ‘don’t blink’. Don’t be human. I’m afraid and you’re afraid and we’re all always going to be afraid, because that’s the point. What I should be telling myself is ‘be afraid, but do it anyway’. Live anyway.”

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[softyyy]

am I breaking out because of a new product or because I wore makeup or because my period is next week or because I’m sad or because I’m stressed or ????

[thatgirlcryssie]

Or because I didn’t drink enough water or because I ate candy or because I ate junk food????

[pretty-pink-dots-deactivated202]

Or because of my pmdd or because I ate gluten ???

[fourthell]

i love anyone who has acne/any skin condition and posts pictures of themselves. not only is it hard and im proud of you, im thankful. the vast majority of the pictures i see of people feature smooth, clear, and even skin. it’s so demoralizing to constantly be fed these images when im struggling with my skin and every picture you put out with skin that isnt “flawless” helps to reshape my skewed perception of beauty for myself and for others, and i thank you greatly for that

[leeef]

And shame on the ones who try to beautify a photo by smoothing the skin. Blemishes are a part of life.

[accutaneandme]

i don’t think we should shame people who edit their photos to make their skin look smoother. after all, they’re doing it because of deep insecurity that has been put on them by societal ideals. it’s not their fault. it’s not their fault that they feel the need to edit their photos in order for them to be able to post a picture of themselves. but if we’re talking about magazines and other forces that are enforcing these beauty ideals then yes - i agree.

[i-want-to-be-a-ballerina]

Shout out to my friends who don’t have perfect skin. Inflamed skin disorders, acne, eczema, psoriasis, excoriation disorder, rosacea, pigmentation disorders, scarring, and the whole lot. I see you– we don’t get enough love, but I see you and you are beautiful. 

[lovedhappysafe-deactivated20230]

Hey

please remove your hands from your skin. You are fine, your skin is fine. You don’t need to pick anything off. You don’t need to dig anything out. It’s okay. Breathe. It will heal. It will go away. Don’t let this illness control you. You control you. Okay?

[accutaneandme]

Hi! I‘m too sometimes happy with my Skin, because i don‘t have the acne I used to have..but it’s hard when I look at the scars, especially because I had acne only for one year, and before I used to have a normal skin. Anyway It’s overwhelming reading your posts, a big hug from one of your followers

hey, thanks for the sweet message! the scars are really difficult to deal with yeah. like you said, on one hand you’re grateful for not having severe acne anymore, but on the other hand, the scars can feel like the ugliest thing in the world sometimes. and it feels unfair. i used to have pretty normal skin before all of this as well so i feel resentful towards my acne and my genes lmao. but we just have to remember that scars fade eventually, no matter how long it takes <3 *HUG*

[accutaneandme]

sometimes you just gotta put some snail cream on your acne scars, drink some water, and get over it

[mazqueen]

[yoonswife]

me whenever i look at everyone: why am i the only ugly person