send me asks to entertain me. NSFW sideblog, 25, it/its, trans girl, poly and bi, domme. ace both as in good at it and as in asexual 55 temptations towards evil
welcome to my horny sideblog! I'm here to write about things I'm horny about, and in the process of that get better at writing. There's a pipe dream where someday I make money off writing about kink.
I'm a dom leaning switch, I post about sadism, hypnosis, tf, snuff, training, and probably a few other things.
I have a ko-fi. Partner talked me into making it as I am in fairly desperate need of money. Sorry if my posts about that are annoying, I am still figuring shit out.
and also, I have a patreon now! Support me, and over time I intend to add more exclusive content (though there is a bit there now), as well as use it as a space to rough draft my longer works, and help decide what to create in the future.
writing
Below the cut, notes on comfort levels and interactions.
I am a trans woman, I'm bi but primarily interested in girlthings, which means that my content is primarily understood as f/f. however, i generally keep gender out of my posts, in large part because i have a few mlm friends into hypno that i have a huge amount of respect for, and i'd like to think that my kink posts can be enjoyed by them as well. but, uh, please do not imply that i'm a man in the tags. that makes me viscerally uncomfortable. Additionally, I'm not really here to flirt (except with my mutuals...) but like feel free to dm me to compliment my writing understanding that if I get flirt-y vibes I'm likely to back off. I am polysaturated and am not looking for new subs.
I like receiving asks. I like getting attention. But at this point I have received so much unsolicited flirting that if you spook me I'm liable to run. Additionally, like, I don't answer 90% of the asks I receive. I just don't have the time nor energy. A lot of the asks I most enjoy I can't respond to because the vibe just isn't right. C'est la vie.
In terms of specific discomforts and the types of interactions I like: I love hearing that my work strikes a spark in you. I love hearing that you've discovered something about yourself from my stuff. I love hearing that you're learning new things from my stuff. I really, really love hearing that my stuff led to you participating in kink, either leading a scene or joining a scene. Genuinely a major hope with this blog is getting more of y'all into kink.
But like, for ace reasons, I don't like hearing about your orgasms or personal sexual activities!! I'm totally fine hearing you describe how strong your emotions are or tell me how lost in the fantasy you are but the moment anything gets to physical descriptions it makes me very uncomfortable!
Finally. I might be repeating myself. But please do not treat me as your domme. I am not your dominant. I am not your miss, I am not your mommy, I am not your mistress, I am not your trainer. You do not have the right to call me by those titles. Yes, this is a kink setting, but I am not even aspirationally your dom. To you, I am merely Alice. Do not request or expect flirting from me, I do not owe that to you. Do not dm me asking to play out a scene or assuming that you submission is desired. Please. This is getting exhausting.
It's really hot that "being hypnotized" is a skill that one can work on and improve at and get better at. I'm a sucker for the trope of like "addicted to losing" in hero/villain instant loss smut and being able to get better at being hypnotized is like that in real life I think.
Faces are also just really fun to touch, in the sensory-seeking sense. There's lots of squishy parts with really funky textures. Exploring the various pieces and components with your fingers is always a treat. Plus, treating them irreverently, ignoring the usual height we place upon the 'face' as a seat-of-the-self, is quite nice. It generates just a really lovely kind of implicit power dynamic. Nothing of you, no part of you, no piece of you is safe. Everything that is you is below anything that is me.
[spoken with my hands on your body while ignoring your attempts to remove them] you know, 'inappropriately' is kind of a classic way to touch someone, if you really think about it.
So, uh, "tf" is short for "transformation kink". It's. Um. I've spent a while talking about various kinks but I think tf is still probably the hardest to explain. With the exception of maybe 'vore'.
While most kinks I talk about are in large part taken up by sensory aspects and physical aspects or at least obviously associated with things people understand as 'sexual' or 'erotic', transformation is almost entirely fantasy and doesn't really contain any "inherently sexual" aspects, with "tf kink play" being almost entirely roleplay.
And the other thing that makes tf hard to talk about is it's a pretty broad space. There are a few different derivations of "what makes transformation hot" that don't overlap that much except in aesthetics and execution, so explaining it is hard.
From one angle, one could compare "what makes tf hot" a bit to "the eroticism of the uncanny valley" and "the attraction to trypophobia" and a bit towards standard "eroticism of taboos". The idea of your body being forcibly made into something different is viscerally horrifying. But more precisely, there's a funny feeling in your stomach and a part of you doesn't want to look away. Here we find a kind of eroticism.
And from another angle, "what makes tf hot" is a simple matter of impossible desires. Especially when you're growing up and facing a puberty that's slowly turning you into something you hate, there's an eroticism to imagining a puberty that isn't. As well, all kinds of things you want that are associated with 'appearance' can become entangled with the idea of needing your body to be different. And transformation can also be an eroticism of that.
it seems like in bdsm the "rewards" and the "punishments" look very similar. this concerns me a great deal, because it points to a system of misaligned incentives. if we're not careful, it's even possible that a rational actor could deliberately violate regulations, because the penalties for rule violations are in fact incentivized. one shudders to think of the consequences of such an arrangement
Actually, the weird patterns in my eye are perfectly normal. Not a big deal at all. Definitely not foreshadowing anything suspicious. It's totally safe to ignore that the rest of the cast doesn't have anything like them. Except when they sometimes do after or during speaking to me. It's just a coincidence. Look at me. It's fine. You don't need to worry about it at all. You can just go back to pretending everything's fine. There. See, they're in your eyes now, too, and you're feeling perfectly fine. Totally fine no matter how much or where I touch you. 'Cause there's nothing to worry about at all.
lol i just licked that angel girl's ear wing once and it fell in like half a second. halo shattered, horns fully formed, wings stained darker than night just like that. zero fighting back at all, kinda cute.
Sorry, I just thought your neck looked really naked without a collar. Like, it looked so cold and there was so much skin showing and the look just wasn't complete. It's not even like a making you my possession sex thing. I mean, it is now, you belong to me now 'cause of the curse on that collar. But like it really was just that I thought it'd really complete your look. You know? You at least agree that you look so good in the collar, right? I mean, of course you do, that's part of the curse. But like, you agree that the pre-collar you would agree, right? Okay good.
the head close up with blurry dialogue and a fixation on hands and fingers specifically as they impact the body is also just very, very well done. really precise depiction of that space. how it feels for your world to be made tiny. everything else is rendered larger in a way. as well as the coping with boredom of it. i just really love the ways this kind of thing can 'chafe'. the imperfect experiences. it adds to it a lot, for me.
'opposites attract' is propaganda by big difference to sell mediocre het fic. ideally you should be dating someone who dresses the same as you and has the same name as you and has the same media taste as you and has the same birthday as you and is increasingly distressed by how similar the two of you are until you snap your fingers and it forgets what it was thinking about.
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