Enter the Void @acodawithacurse - Tumblr Blog

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Lately, I've been contemplating my demise. I feel sad. I feel unfulfilled. I feel like a bad person. I feel not good enough... constantly not good enough. I feel unloved. And by love, I mean unconditional love. I cry a lot. I cut myself. I feel empty.

lovelustquotes

You asked yourself why it took so long for us to ﬁnd one another; lost in thought, I wondered about every woman I’ve come across… I don’t regret them, my time with them was enjoyed. But the universe is funny like that; perhaps we weren’t ready to ﬁnd each other then, perhaps not even now. Yet in every touch, every soul and every heartbreak I came to know, I conspired against the universe and found you.

Sidd Long (via lovelustquotes)

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#sexy

iroud

Why didn’t I learn to treat everything like it was the last time. My greatest regret was how much I believed in the future.

Jonathan Safran Foer (via lovequotesrus)

I almost forgot about this until someone liked it from the first time I posted it. God, it's so true. Always.

I struggle to keep living in the moment, consumed by all my tomorrows.

*sigh*

#thefuture #future #liveinthemoment

archatlas

Scientists are investigating the emotional toll of ugly architecture.

A growing body of research in cognitive science illuminates the physical and mental toll bland cityscapes exact on residents. Generally, these researchers argue that humans are healthier when they live among variety — a cacophony of bars, bodegas, and independent shops — or work in well-designed, unique spaces, rather than unattractive, generic ones. In their book, Cognitive Architecture: Designing for How We Respond to the Built Environment, Tufts urban policy professor Justin Hollander and architect Ann Sussman review scientific data to help architects and urban planners understand how, exactly, we respond to our built surroundings. People,they argue, function best in intricate settings and crave variety, not “big, blank, boxy buildings.”

There might even be a potential link between mind-numbing places and attention deficit hyperactivity disorders. In one case, physicians have linked “environmental deprivation” to ADHD in children.

Psychologists have found that jaw-dropping or awe-inspiring moments — picture the exhilarating view of the Grand Canyon or Paris from the Eiffel tower — can potentially improve our 21st-century well-being. One study showed that the feeling of awe can make people more patient, less materialistic, and more willing to help others.

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Andrew Valko

Andrew Valko has made himself the laureate of disconnected encounter: the master of incomplete ceremony. Almost without exception, his paintings and drawings are episodes in an ongoing fragmentary narrative in which we are obliged, as viewers, to fill in the details of a story that he only hints at. Valko knows that viewer and voyeur are close in meaning. These radiant paintings glow with a sense of golden unhappiness. On the basis of this new work, Andrew Valko legitimately anoints himself the master of the ambiguous gaze. ~ Robert Enright

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Prince

I am heartbroken. This has really hit me hard.

I remember being 14 and sneaking off school with my older sister to watch Purple Rain opening day, we saw it three times in a row. I wore out that album until the vinyl ridges let the light shine through. I bought every Prince album, single, remix, cassette single, and then all of them again in CD format. I learned every song, every dance move and for a brief while dyed my hair purple.

I followed his career closely, even in the days when he was not on the radio anymore, when his battle with WB took him away from the airwaves and looked forward to every new release like a kid waiting for Christmas.

Why? Because he never failed to surprise us, he never repeated himself as a way to accrue more hits, he was enigmatic but charismatic, he inspired and mentored many others in the music business, and you could not say his music was pop, funk, soul or rock but it was all of them.

I am glad that we had Prince and that he shared his talent with us. I am sad that he was taken so young.

Hope he is in the afterworld he described in Let’s Go Crazy!

Dearly beloved We are gathered here today To get through this thing called life

Electric word life It means forever and that’s a mighty long time But I’m here to tell you There’s something else The after world

A world of never ending happiness You can always see the sun, day or night

‘Cause in this life Things are much harder than in the after world In this life You’re on your own

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bodiesnminds

A long-term favorite.

The photograph, and even more so the action.

An overflowing handful of heaven. And my other hand at your butt.

chasing--ghxsts

Back when unrequited love was all I’d ever known, I used to think it was probably worse than a breakup. I used to think it was better to have loved and lost than to have never felt the arms of the one you love around you at night. Only now do I realise how wrong I was. I realise both are painful, and none of them hurts more than the other. I realise remembrance kills you slowly. I realise how scary it is when you start forgetting his smile, or how his lips felt against yours because he hasn’t kissed you in 61 days. I realise memories destroy you in a way unrequited love never will.

(via love-sex-n-cigarettes)

fitzgeraldfanatic

Her heart sank into her shoes as she realized at last how much she wanted him. No matter what his past was, no matter what he had done. Which was not to say that she would ever let him know, but only that he had moved her chemically more than anyone she had ever met, that all other men seemed pale beside him.

F. Scott Fitzgerald (via fitzgeraldfanatic)

yanilavigne

Sometimes, saying “Goodbye” is like saying “Let’s stop hurting each other”.

(via laceypanty)

Marriage

There was a time marriage didn't really scare me. I've always looked forward to that sense of stability, something I've long lacked in my own life. Now that I'm with someone I actually want to marry, I'm starting to realize the only real fear I have now is the mother-in-law. I never thought I would ever have to deal with someone more difficult than my own mother, that doled out more guilt trips and lourded more shit over people's heads. I appreciate my own mom so much more now... but karma IS a bitch.

#inlaws #motherinlaw #mil #family #marriage

MILs

My boyfriend’s mom got mad I wouldn’t eat her Thanksgiving leftovers and just said some kinda racist shit to me, which also alluded to a time where she got mad at my mom for coming over to watch soccer and refusing to eat anything.

Wtf.

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宽 Kuan™

I need to vent

My man totaled his car after helping my sis move last year. So, feeling bad about it, since he went on the moving trip on account of my fam, I’ve been very open and generous with driving to him, giving him rides, and sharing my car. He has shown no desire to buy a new car and is waiting for his mommy and daddy to buy their next car so he can use their old one by default.

Today, I let him use my car to go hang with his friends for a baseball game. One of his friends, I like, and the other, I can’t stand. He’s a stinking alcoholic who’s irresponsible as fuck and a total douchebag. My man texted me around 10pm to let me know the game ended. Two hours later, I call him wondering why he isn’t home yet. Not that I care how late he stays out, but i want to know my car is safely in the driveway. Especially because he’s had two car accidents due to him being stupid tired behind the wheel.

I find out my man’s still kicking it and, in fact, offered to drop off the douchebag friend at home an hour away from my home.

Now, I understand being a good friend but that’s my car. I just finished paying it off, I pay for the repairs, I pay for the gas. PLUS, he knows I hate this friend. So, it stings to hear that he kind of took advantage of my kindness.

Also, he’s going to get home so late and we both have to be up early to carpool to work together. When my man doesn’t get his sleep, he’s a cranky ass idiot. So, I’m the one who suffers.

I think I’m going to be a little less generous with offering up my car and let him just take the train from now on.