Stargazer

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I kinda feel like I'm getting bad again : <

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if this is love then why is it making me cry?

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in this big vast world, amongst billion other people, I know for sure if by chance we cross path again one day in an unknown future, my heart would recognise you, and it would beat hard for you, and I know your heart will feel it too. Just like what I once told you, that between us, there exists an invisible string that's tying me to you. For that I know this is what we call love.. even if we walk in two opposite path, the love I have for you will never last.

[perrfectly]

“The silence is the worst part of any fight, because it’s made up of all the things we wish we could say, if only we had the guts.”

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[lesmotsquejauraisaimeecrire]

“Je crois que les meilleures histoires sont celles qui vous donnent l’impression de continuer à exister quelque part, dans leur espace à elles.”

— La mer sans étoiles, Erin Morgenstern, Sonatine, 2020, p. 602

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[minuty]

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With every slightest scattered pieces of my broken heart, I will always love you.

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At the end of the day, when I look into myself, I see the roots of why things go wrong.

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Et si tu aimeras quelqu'un d'autre, je serai heureuse pour toi.

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and what does the "I miss you" means when it is so difficult to get two people reunited

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if one day you find this tumblr account of mine, just do not be surprised that all i write about here is nothing and no one else but you!

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i discover life without you and I still prefer those of when you took part in it. in short i miss you so much.

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You told me in your letters that you left part of you in this little place. Could that be the reason why I move there now? To collect part of you that lingers and stays here. Because I refuse time to advance completely and leaving you as part of memories in the past.

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the fact is, as much as I want us to survive all this unbearable distance, I can't neglect your need and desire for longing. It would be cruel of me to do.

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I wish I could be the cure to ease up your pain. But with the stretching distance involved in between, I think, only wishing to be it, without any real impact happening, will only craft the wound deeper. It is like telling a comforting lies. Dressing it up in a pretty golden wrapper with ribbon,  yet slowly got rotten by time