I miss you, I really do
It's been 16 days to be exact since you've been gone but still I can't contain what happened. But don't worry about us we'll get through this just have a good rest up there. I know you won't be able to read this anymore but atleast I can vent things out. I want to say thankyou for everything, since I was your first born grandchild I was the lucky one to experience everything,from clothes that Im wearing,shoes and everything that I need. Thankyou for being my human diary when im suffocated at home I'll just drop by at your store and I can say anything and everything to you and specially when im arguing with Mama😂thankyou for being my #1 support system. When everyone failed to believe in me or understand me you we're always there cheering me up and saying things will be alright.As they say time heal's eveything but for me as time goes by it gets harder and harder for me to accept and let you go. It feels like it was yesterday everything is so fresh and it keeps running through my mind. To the last minute that I saw you,the last hold to my hand and to the last glimpse of you while you are fighting to survive. Im sorry I can't do anything to lessen your pain that day Im sorry I didn't knew that you're not feeling well that day. Im sorry if I can't full fill my promises to give you everything you want and what you need just like what you did when I was young. You left us so soon without saying goodbye. Sorry I didn't have the chance to say it to you personally because I can't see you suffering. Don't worry about them I'll take care the rest. Too bad you didn't see me graduate but I know you are very proud of what I got. I love you so much and I miss you so bad. 💓👵🏻I promise to visit you whenever im free but don't visit me in my room ha. You know im scared😶