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The Ghost in My Looking Glass

in my looking glass is a ghost

with dark eyes and frown lines

who visits me when I’m lonely

in my looking glass is a ghost

who looks like a shell of a person

completely devoid of emotion

in my looking glass is a ghost

who sends a chill down my spine

just when I begin to feel at ease

in my looking glass is a ghost

who somehow knows just the right thing to say

at just the wrong time

in my looking glass is a ghost

who haunts me in all hours day and night

like an itch that cannot be scratched

in my looking glass is a ghost

who I stare at for hours and hours

trying to convince myself it is okay not to be okay

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May

talking to you is like

always living in May,

where the flowers

are always bloomed

lilacs,

daisies,

roses,

& petunias

laughing with you feels

like a breath of fresh air,

cheeks ache from smiling too hard

but it’s worth it

orchids,

lilies,

poppies,

& marigolds

you’re my best friend

my go-to gal

my sister from another mister

& my forever favorite month

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Dreams

isn’t it poetic

how we chase the clouds

and reach for the stars

but behind us are other clouds

and more stars

because the sky is not the limit

it’s infinite

it’s our hopes and dreams

all spread out for us to admire

isn’t it lovely

how something that beautiful

can be ours

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Burning Weeds

love is not a word I would use

when speaking of you.

loathe

yes

that is the word I would use

loud and powerful

causing a bitter fire to spread in my chest

the hot charcoal is all that is left

releasing smoke into my head

blurring my thoughts

you are a seed that grows the roots of troublesome

and it is not a flower that blooms

but a weed

strong

resilient

infuriating

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Poem

you said you were sorry

when the game pieces straggled the floor

like a fallen kingdom

you promised there’d be no more

you said it wouldn’t happen again

after your blurred movements

redecorated the walls

confirming my trepidation

you said it was the last rupture

but volcanos are unpredictable

so forceful and potent

risky actions were not unusual

explosions can do vast damage

if not prepared for

and I had a suspicion

I needed something stronger than a door

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No Name

I am here

watching warm watercolor paint,

fill the sky at ease

I am here

feeling the breeze caress my face,

like a touch-starved lover

I am here

dancing with the weeds and flowers,

as the wind gives them momentum

I am here

breathing in the scent of salt,

as waves crash against the shoreline

I am here

listening to the melody of a little bird,

probably singing the blues

I am here

I am here

I am alive

& don’t you forget about me

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Shattering

A subtle hint

here

& there

A cry for help

quietly

& a little quieter

A broken heart

cracks

& falls apart

If a person breaks

with no one around to hear

did they make a sound?

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Mechanisms

I first tried drawing

People, plants, objects

Then reading

Romance and other subjects

Eventually painting

Scribbles and places

Then make up

Covering sad faces

Tried to be productive

Studied, worked, cleaned

Nothing helped cope

I still felt defeated

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I wish

wishes

shooting stars, dandelions

wishbones, birthday candles

I wish I could sing on key

I wish my art would sell

I wish I could dance with the beat

wishes

are shouts into the void

are far away dreams

I wish things were different

I wish you were here

I wish time travel existed

wishes

get your hopes up

are not promises