lesbian heartbreak will really have you stringing together the most devastating sentences you've ever heard in your life in your notes app & then you just go about your day
the cold from last september still lingers in my room, and i am being told already, to speed up my process of grief. i will, before the impatient line of your mouth, cut my heart out and hand it to you, so you can wring it out for me. since you want it to be over so bad.
i lay down and decay, and i'm treated like a ticking time bomb. i just need some time, i say, and everyone tries to defuse me. picking me apart, passing me around, debating on whether or not to take a knife to my red and blue parts. i don't care anymore. clean up the arterial spray on your way out.
i want to be angry, i want to be violent, i want to rip things up and set a house on fire and take an axe to certain people's heads and necks and i also want to be lobotomized needle slipping past my eye and into my brain, piercing the white matter just right. whatever it takes to stop feeling this way to stop hating what i see in the mirror, to stop looking at the pills weird, to stop taking the kitchen knife with me to bed. to stop having the dreams where i see things from before september and i'm forced to become a version of myself who still clings innocently, obliviously, to the hope that she will soon be loved.
I want to give up trying to push her off and just grab onto her instead because it’s too much and I’m scared so I just have to hold onto something and then cry “please stop, I love you” into the crook of her neck while she whispers to me through her moans that she loves me like this
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💚cast your mutuals as band of brothers characters💚
In no particular order:
@cielie-voss as Don Malarkey (the biggest Hufflepuff vibe. A dork. The trauma. Right up my alley. Deadpan funny. Functional despite everything (how?). Underestimated but could kill you and wouldn't get caught. Kinda reckless. The sweetest soul. Deserves better.)
@itswormtrain as Joe Liebgott (scrappy little bastard. Literally where were you raised (affectionate). Trouble but in an endearing way. Sardonically funny. A tease. Actually hot.)
@gaypiratesandangels as David Webster (I wanna wrap you up in a blanket and mother you. Introvert. Artsy. Film lover. Writer. Well-spoken. Versatile. Kinda 💅🏻.)
@lordndsaviorwinters as Alex Penkala (Token introvert in a trio of extroverts. Actually trouble but no one would believe me. A gentleman. Awkward. Unintentionally funny. Tied to the hip to the following mutual.)
@addiesfairytalebs as Skip Muck (you and Lana come in pack or what. Little shit but actually smooth. Will make everyone feel included. Prettiest smile. Tone the mischief down. Lucky af.)
@iambasilgnome as Joe Toye (Irish queen if I remember correctly. Witty. Cool but in a simple way. High-key badass. Gryffindor but softie.)
@liebgotts-lovergirl as Floyd Talbert (Super easy o talk to. Cheeky. Flirty. A true sweetheart. Loyal to a fault. Probably fit be put in charge but idk if you'd like it.)
@bandofbrothersandsisters as Eugene Roe (Caretaker. Goes unnoticed for absolutely no reason. Self-critical. Mom friend but also let me mother you. Little anxious queen. Cat person.)
@onlyyouexisthere as Richard Winters (glueing this fandom together everyday. Flawless content. Inspiring. Introvert. Idk if you know what's socializing (affectionate).)
@tvserie-s-world as C. Carwood Lipton (down-to-earth. Underrated af. Nourishing this fandom low-key silently. I feel like everyone of us appreciate you endlessly but don't say it a lot. Queen of encouragement.)
@rossmccallsqueen as Harry Welsh (funny. Kind of unhinged. Easy to talk to. Would hang out with you anytime. ENFP vibes even though you might not be.)
@victoryrollsandredlips as Lewis Nixon (so classy. Cultured. Good taste. Probably prone to addiction (yes, media consumption counts). You need to sleep. Very supportive.)
@wwhatev3r as Shifty Powers (Introvert. A joy to have around. Very polite. The few times we interacted I wanted to invite you into my home and give you hot chocolate and cookies. Giving old soul vibes.)
@nandoalonsos as Ronald Speirs (cryptic creature. I like you but you also throw me off. What's your real identity bc I feel like I'll never pin you down. Giving off a super cool vibe tho.)
@iwasathomeintonawanda as Donald Hoobler (sweet and simple in the best way. Giving a "I'm a little awkward irl" vibe. Legally I can and will adopt you. Probably hardworking but also messy. Has the best intentions.)
If we're indeed mutuals and I forgot about you let me know and I'll add you real quick<3.
Summary: Their imminent death brings surprising clarity to both Jyn and Cassian about how they feel about each other. While one of them surrenders to the realization, the other decides to act on it.
Warnings: major character death, wounds and injuries, mild language, blasters, canon compliant (I feel like that should be a warning tbh)
A/N: Recently read the Rogue One novelisation in hopes of finding a little kiss in the elevator scene. I was so disappointed that I wrote it myself. Enjoy?
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Jyn Erso wasn't stupid. She knew they wouldn't make it.
A part of her was made aware of that the moment K2 had shut the vault's gate. Said part kept growing the higher she climbed.
By the time she, through welled up, defiant eyes, saw Cassian Andor holding up a smoky blaster even though he could barely hold himself up on his feet, she knew.
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IM GOING TO HUNT U DOWN FOR THIS YOURE SO WRONG SO SO WRONG FOR COMIBG BACK AFTER A CENTURY OF BEING M.I.A AND HITTING US WITH THIS FIC WITHOUT A PROPER WARNING
I'm trying to finish writing ANY of the Band Of Brothers fics I have sitting in my drafts, but I'm unable to do so bc @lordndsaviorwinters made me rewatch episodes 5,6, and 7 from The Pacific and now I'm thinking about Eddie Hillbilly Jones and Andy Ack Ack Haldane
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