Feel like a failure and that I disappoint everyone around me. I haven’t gotten a full nights sleep in almost a month and my brain is going a mile a minute. I still can’t shake this wanting to die, even though I don’t want to be dead. I’m trying so hard to myself and work on myself, but I don’t know what I’m doing wrong. I just want to sleep but I can’t even do that right. Sleeping medicine knocks me out for like ten minutes, and then it’s right back to being awake, it’s gotten to the point to where I am constantly dizzy and I feel like my panic attacks are getting bad again. I can’t afford the help I need and I am too anxious to do anything about it.











