Iggyazaleamalangaleaf

✨Ella✨ Safe space for all fellow baddies who also have that Autism and/or ADHD, let’s indulge in our special interest together and free of judgement! 🩷 I mostly make memes but sometimes I post something serious! You’ll definitely notice that my biggest hyperfixations are Ginny & Georgia and Yellowjackets Also, I’m not a whor3. I made my user is high school and can’t change it😭

[adhdwh0r3]

How I feel telling people I’m pre med

[adhdwh0r3]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Chapters 1&2 are now live 🤍 Chapter 3 comes out this Friday!

Thank you to all who read it!

-xoxo Ella 🤍

[adhdwh0r3]

My university continues to PMO😭 I’m going into my senior year and thought I didn’t need any summer classes to prepare for my next semester. They then proceeded to CHANGE THE PREREQUISITE OF MY MOST IMPORTANT BIOLOGY CLASS🫩 so now I have to take the prerequisite over the summer instead of in the fall like I planned, and all of my scholarship money is already used up for the year so I have to pay like $1500 for ONE CLASS😃

I am so ready to finally graduate and leave this fucking school.

[adhdwh0r3]

i 🤍 fairies

[adhdwh0r3]

Being a hyper empathetic person is not for the weak

[anewkindofme]

I'm sorry, but a plot I am not buying is that in their small ass town and given what technology is today, that all of Marcus' teachers were sending physical notes home about his progress. There is no way they don't have power school or fricking e-mails. Or, hell, someone just walking up to one of his parents in town and being like "your son is never in class and never does his work".

This plotline worked in the early 00s (honestly even with Jess Mariano, given the small town of it all, I always doubted that no one would tell Luke that his nephew was ditching and not doing his work, but whatever, will give benefit of the doubt that they were just sending home paper notes that Jess discarded), but not in the 2020s.

[adhdwh0r3]

Yes! One of the biggest grievances I have with this specific plot line is how unrealistic it is for him to have just been able to fail the school year without ANYONE knowing. And Ellen literally works as a district employee! It is so so so hard to believe that she wouldn’t have any access to her child’s grades to know he wasn’t doing well, or for her and Clint to have at least received emails about him.

Both Abby and Ginny have had their parents mentioning something about their grades this season. Heck, Abby even started to attend tutoring to help her improve them! Either that plot line was poorly planned out, or the Baker parents are just neglecting their kids at every turn; which we know isn’t the case. There are definitely some flaws with how the whole Marcus failing the school year thing was executed.

I feel like they could’ve still driven the point home about the fact that his parents see that he’s hit rock bottom without him having to fail the school year without either of them knowing about it until it was too late. That makes them, and the school look terrible. He was already in trouble for drinking at school, why not just build from there? It’s all so frustrating to try to make sense of, especially when you’re a literal thinker and the “it’s just a show” excuse does not cut it for you.

[adhdwh0r3]

I love being autistic sm because it is because of the fact that I am that I was able to even think to implement the sims into my fanfic writing.

I’m writing my fic rn and it’s easier for me to write something when I have a something I can physically see so I used the sims to re-create my version of Wellsbury, the neighborhood the Baker’s + Miller’s live in, created the characters that are important to the story, and placed down lots of places that are key locations in my fic.

I also use CAS to help me get a good grasp on what the twins would’ve looked and dressed like as children and it’s been so much fun so far. I literally only have the time to do this at night though so my sleep schedule has been all over the place😂

I put two photos of my layout here, I’ll try to add more later, it will make so much more sense when the fic is out I swear 🤍🤍

[adhdwh0r3]

One thing I’ve been doing a lot of research for when writing my fic is about the harm that twin parents can be doing subconsciously when comparing them to each other, especially for things like hitting developmental milestones, behaviors, personalities, grades, and overall school performance. We see Ellen compares them constantly in the show with the “Your brother struggles more with *blank* than you do” routine that she does with Max. Not only does this have a horrible impact on Max as she is constantly being pummeled with the message that her struggles will never be as bad as her brother’s, but this is also horrible for Marcus because he is very aware of his status as the “problem child”, which is a very hard and lonely position to be in.

I wanted to dive into this and in my fic I play with the fact that he rarely gets to feel celebrated while Max is seemingly celebrated on a daily basis; which leads him to internalize the belief that Max is living life the “right way” while he does everything wrong.

I will be posting my first chapter next weekend on AO3 and I’m so excited 😆

[adhdwh0r3]

I’ve been in New England for exactly 4 hours and I love it more than anything. I never want to leave😭

[lipstickonapiggg]

[adhdwh0r3]

Sophie Thatcher has to be one of the funniest celebrities ever.

[adhdwh0r3]

I jump on my little brother’s trampoline everyday as a way to get rid of my energy + to add in a fun form of cardio and I literally just learned that I still know how to do a back tuck, even though I haven’t done cheer in 4 years. The possibilities of things I can do with this new found information are endless.

[allthingswhumpyandangsty]

MAY YOU NEVER LOSE YOUR HYPERFIXATION

[girltwinkjackietaylor]

Sometimes it hits that s4 of YJ is our last season and hey I’m not ok :)

[adhdwh0r3]

I’ve had to completely gut a key aspect of the Ginny & Georgia fic I’m writing. The new female character that I assumed was being introduced for one character in the show is (allegedly) being introduced for a different character. This is going to be canon, and while I love implementing smaller hcs in my writing, I don’t want to stray so far from the show’s larger canonical structure that I can’t figure out a way to fix it later on.

So, now I just feel stuck and will probably have to cut the entire storyline I had planned for certain characters in the storyline I had planned for them post season 3. I haven’t written a fanfic with this many chapters in so long and I’d honestly forgotten just how hard writing is. Thank you to anyone who sat and read this vent, I’m going to keep on working on it and keep faith that I will figure out this issue eventually.

[nataliescatorccioapologist]

Doomcoming Nat was having a nice shrooms trip, had a wholesome pep talk with her coach about the importance of love, and gleefully skipped back to the cabin ready to confess her love to Travis, only to find a screaming Jackie locked in the pantry after sleeping with him and the rest of the group right outside preparing to ritualistically slaughter him.

[adhdwh0r3]

Being able to move without having to force yourself to do so again after being in a constant state of ADHD or depressive paralysis for so long is a feeling that I can’t describe.

[adhdwh0r3]

I’m writing a Baker twin kidfic that progresses towards the show’s timeline each chapter and that focuses on what it’s like growing up neurodivergent (I wholeheartedly hc that both of the twins have ADHD, and from what we are given, I’m pretty sure Marcus has ADHD in canon and it is just not explored in a manner that is very in-depth. I also believe that there was an implication of OCD for Max. I also hc Marcus as being autistic, as an autistic person myself I find him to be the most relatable character for me.) and knowing that your brain woks differently but not necessarily knowing how to explain “why”.

It also focuses on the completely different life experiences that the two had from each other where Marcus has always been the problem child who needed more attention (even if that attention was negative), and Max was always the glass/heavily parentified child who was always expected to be “fine” and to step in and help when her brother was breaking down.

I also am trying to showcase how Max’s OCD developed over time, she had some (less severe) symptoms as child (her telling Marcus there needed to be an even number of lemons on the sign) and I think it’d be interesting in the show to see where it stems from for her, but I know that’s probably not going to happen so I want to do so in my fic.

We also get some interesting crumbs about how Marcus was like as a child from Ellen that just haven’t really been explored via flashbacks. We learned a lot about Max & her relationship with Marcus from her flashbacks but all we got from them was that Marcus was an extremely introverted and shy child who struggled to make connections with others. The only thing we’ve seen is his shyness, but we know based on what Ellen has told Georgia that Bridge was the one friend Marcus had that he felt comfortable running around and being wild with. I imagine Bridge was probably a high-energy child, like Max, and Marcus found a lot of comfort in their friendship; so, I really want to explore that dynamic in my fic as well.

I’m excited to post it! It probably won’t be ready for release until mid may, but I’ll continue to make updates!