FALLEN ANGEL

YOU ARE, I THINK, AN EVENING STAR, OF ALL THE STARS, THE FAIREST andromeda tonks. twenty-six. healer. order member.

[earpwynonna]

[adromvda]

     * SIRIUS !

  an eerie silence seemed to fall over the headquarters of the order. the possibility of there being a list out there that could out every single one of them had tensions at an all time high. still, sirius was ultimately a man of ACTION when it came down to it. which is why he was one of the first to break the silence with his own voice. “ so.. do you think it’s true? “ he asked, asking anyone in the room that would choose to answer.

      andromeda felt sick to the stomach. uncertainty and anxiety filled the room with a level of unease that left her twitching, ITCHING to escape to anywhere that might provide even an ounce of comfort. and yet she stayed, stood rooted to the spot with her arms crossed against her chest. ❛ maybe, ❜ she called across the room, unable to drag her eyes up from the floor to meet that of her cousins. ❛ but we’ve been told not to worry so... don’t worry, hey? ❜

[adromvda]

she was one of the first to hear about sturgis — called to examine the body of a man who’d been brutally murdered only to find it was one of her own. and the sight of a man she’d so casually sipped on drinks with the other night lying motionless on a steel frame was enough to make her feel sick to the stomach, choking on bile and directing it towards a bin as it crept up her throat. STURGIS PODMORE WAS DEAD. and suddenly everything felt so much more real. she was brought out of that room in an instant, told to sit down on another cold, plastic chair and down bottles of water as the hospital staff continued to charge around her — she barely felt like she was sitting on this planet anymore. floating through a world that was intent on destroying her, tearing at pieces of her heart, her will until there was nothing to keep her down any longer. the only thing that could possibly bring her back down to earth was the mention of another familiar name. BENJY FENWICK WAS DEAD. and in an instant she was up, tossing half empty bottles of water to the ground as she tore through the crowds of nurses and found a place to safely apparate to her door. she had to be alive, she had do she had to she had to. because if she wasn’t... she had to. knocking gently on the wooden door ( holding herself back from pounding it open ), andromeda called out in the softest tone she could manage. ❛ daisy? it’s andie... please let me in. ❜

@daisyborn

[buffysummers]

[adromvda]

      - ̗̀ ft. sturgis

her hand caught his attention, making him stop to inhale for just a moment. why the hell did everything have to be so hard ? why did he have to stand there, insides spiling out for the world to see, raw and exposed and full of shame ? this was not the way he did things. something ached in him ? he numbed it with a glass. something honest and emotional was about to spill ? he drowned it with a glass. then another, just to make sure it stayed in place. “ okay. okay, okay. “ sturgis walked in, looking as if he was crawling out of his skin, one hand rubbing his whole face, especially his eyes, keeping in something far more personal ( as if that was possible ), but the red in his pale skin denounced it. the keys were still tightly held in his hand, almost painfully, pushing against his palm as a reminder to keep him steady, and the man took a seat at the kichen table. “ i fucked up. “ voice low. child in the house. there was something broken in his tone, the little cracks in it that she’d heard before he at last followed her advice. “ i didn’t- i didn’t drink, okay. i swear i didn’t. i just drove there. paid. i was so - “ raw, exposed and full of shame. his eyes didn’t leave the keys.

       andromeda could recognise the pause in sturgis’ frantic motions, she could recognise the deep breath and the thousands of emotions that passed across his features in that moment --- she could recognise it and she could remember it. but having seen it so many ( SO MANY ) times before didn’t make it any easier to witness. her expression was soft as she watched him enter the small apartment, closing the door behind them with a gentle click so as not to shock either him or her daughter. she didn’t say anything as she followed him to the table, taking a seat across from him with her features still projecting calm, giving him the time to form his words rather than rushing him. when he finally spoke, the soft smile slowly fell, replaced with a furrowed brow full of concern and empathy.   ❛  oh sturg, that... that hasn’t happened in a long time.  ❜   pausing for a moment, she dipped her head, trying to catch his gaze with her lips turned up in a small, gentle smile.   ❛  but hey --- hey. you walked away. and i know you think it’s horrible that you were even there, but to be there and to walk away perhaps takes even more courage. i’m PROUD of you, alright. it might feel like a step back, but just think about where you were a year ago --- it’s a step forward from something, okay?  ❜

[adromvda]

      - ̗̀ ft. lucius

     lucius malfoy did not NEED any more reasons to hate hospitals, but they just kept providing themselves either way. one was the terrible food they provided, the other the fact that his wife’s room had a terrible view, and then there was the fact that his sister-in-law was working there, too. that last reason was particularly grinding; lucius harboured no kind feelings towards andromeda ( @adromvda ) all, and he did not need her near his family at a time like this. he’d been trying desperately to get a different nurse, but had been met with polite but annoying excuses as to why that was not possible. he was a malfoy, however, and he got what he wanted, no matter how hard he had to work for it. he was walking towards andromeda, his legs taking great strides, his eyes narrowed — he would not cause a scene, that he’d promised himself, but that didn’t mean he wasn’t going to let her know that she needed to leave. “listen up, TONKS –” the surname was spat out of his mouth. “– i need you to take the day off. pack your bags, take a sick day and go home. i will not have you ruin this day. it’s about family, and that does not include you.”

       andromeda had not ASKED for this when she’d signed on for the day. she was quite content with this day going on just like any other, and when a recent mother was put at the top of her list she was actually rather excited, so when she saw her little sister lying in the bed with a tiny baby in her arms, she wasn’t so sure how she felt anymore. it was all too confusing. she was tired and stressed and now emotional and feeling guilty too, and while she wanted nothing more than for her sister and her nephew sisters baby to be happy and healthy, she wasn’t even so sure she could finish this day tending to them. it was all just a bit OVERWHELMING, and to see her brother-in-law storming towards her as it ticked towards late afternoon only added to the stress and exhaustion that this day was bringing her.   ❛  mr malfoy, i ---  ❜   before she could even attempt to calm him, lucius was hissing at her to leave, leaving a foul taste in her mouth as she tried to regain some semblance of composure.   ❛  i’m sorry mr malfoy, but i can’t do that. i’m sorry you feel that way, but it’s out of my hands --- i need to be here, and someone needs to look after m--- your wife.  ❜

[adromvda]

      - ̗̀ ft. alastor

“ i’ve got something for you. if you can find it. “ alastor spoke with a grin at the little girl, an absurdly sized ice cream cup very obviously behind his back. all around the three, there were families, and the noise of children playing was a large part of the soundtrack of the event. “ i’m gonna give you just one clue, because you’re on like level two of life still, ye? it’s behind someone. “ one quick glance at andromeda, returning from a different queue; he was somewhat looking for reassurance. the same look he had every time he interacted with dora. am i doing this right? // @adromvda

      andromeda’s grin matched the enthusiasm of her friends and perhaps more, the small girl perched on her knee as she bounced her up and down and tried to coax her gaze towards his.   ❛  ooh, dora, what’s that ?  what’s al got ?  ❜   catching alastor’s nervous glance, andromeda gave a reassuring nod, her widening grin communicating that of course he was doing this right --- he was a bloody natural when it came to kids, after all. eyes back on little dora, she watched as the little girl giggled and reached towards alastor and grabbed frantically at the air.   ❛  ally, ally, ally,  ❜   she squealed with excitement, clearly desperate for him to reveal what exactly he had hidden.

[adromvda]

      - ̗̀ ft. lucius

[ 6:01 PM ] LUCIUS → ANDROMEDA TONKS: You’ve had your daughter for two years and you’ve not found a babysitter yet? That’s rather odd. [ 6:02 PM ] LUCIUS → ANDROMEDA TONKS: Not being able to call on your family is no excuse.

[ 7:16pm ] ANDROMEDA → LUCIUS: k!

[adromvda]

      - ̗̀ ft. bellatrix

[ 8:49 am ] bellatrix >>> andromeda : Are you five years old? Or just high? Stop sending me these, I’m busy.

[ 8:56am ] ANDROMEDA → BELLATRIX: Ahhh but it’s fun!! Who else is gunna get mad at me when I tell them stories about mickey mouse??? Iconic!! Really!

[adromvda]

      - ̗̀ ft. lucius

[ 5:32 PM ] LUCIUS → ANDROMEDA TONKS: Have you never heard of a nanny? Babysitters?  [ 5:33 PM ] LUCIUS → ANDROMEDA TONKS: Though I’m not surprised that you’re a lazy employee, who’ll skip shifts for any small thing

[ 5:48pm ] ANDROMEDA → LUCIUS: Ah, pleasant as ever I see, Malfoy. [ 5:50pm ] ANDROMEDA → LUCIUS: Not that I need to explain myself to you, but my child is not even 2 and I’ve yet to find a babysitter. I would call on family if I could but I think you can understand why that’s not an option, hm?

[adromvda]

[ 8:42am ] ANDROMEDA → @bitchtricks​: Swear to god, somebody just drove by with mickey mouse in their passenger seat and he waved at me.

[adromvda]

         [ ROYAL LONDON HOSPITAL, june 2018 ]

          she hadn’t even looked at the name of the patient when she’d been assigned to the room of a new mum for the rest of the afternoon --- but when she looked up from her clipboard after stepping through the door, she suddenly wished she had. NARCISSA BLACK MALFOY ( @dyiingflower ). and how long had it been since she’d seen her ?  one two three four... too long for grown women who were supposed to call each other sister. and looking at the blonde with the tiniest little baby in her arms, andromeda felt nothing but shock, guilt and a feeling of betrayal that she knew she didn’t deserve.   ❛  i... uh...  ❜   years of nursing training out the window as she stared at the sight, eyes wide and feet planted firmly to the ground a safe distance from her sister.   ❛  hi. s-sorry, hi. uh... congratulations, i guess. the baby is looking, um... very healthy, so we just... i’m just... sorry, uh, i’m just here to look after you for a few hours, i --- i guess.  ❜

[adromvda]

[ 4:21pm ] ANDROMEDA → @peacvck​: Hi! How do you feel about covering my shift next Monday? Ted came up with a last minute work opportunity and I need to look after Dora. [ 5:07pm ] ANDROMEDA → LUCIUS: Fuck please ignore that, meant for my coworker...

[adromvda]

     - ̗̀ ft. sturgis

( april, 2018. )

“ i know i’m not supposed to just come here and knock on your door, and i didn’t even know if you were home, so this was all just a stupid decision and i’m sorry. “ he blurted it out the moment andromeda opened the door, his words, which were already usually fast and clumped together, a rapid string of noise. he’d dialed amelia twice, but she was likely in some meeting, and there were very few other people in the world he’d be comfortable talking about this. his sponsor being one of them. “ is dora home ? “ shit, the kid. he’d forgotten about her, in his frenzy to get anywhere he could be kept in check. his car keys were rattling loudly as he jiggled them in his hand, needing to unleash nervous energy somewhere besides his non-stop mouth. “ shit. “ // @adromvda

      she was stunned for a moment, opening the door to see him standing there, so much so that as he blurted out excuses and apologies all she could do was stand and stare. it took her eyes noticing the jiggling keys in his hand to shock her out of her daze, her hand reaching out to stop his quaking so as to dull the noise that her sleeping three-year-old might hear.   ❛  hey --- hey ---  ❜   she interrupted, her voice low and soft in the hopes of projecting some calm onto the clearly anxious man standing in front of her.   ❛  just come in here. ted’s out for the night, dora’s asleep, but don’t worry --- we can still get you sorted. just come in and tell me what’s got you in such a frenzy, hey ?  ❜

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[adromvda]

starbucks, london, circa 2018

                            andromeda had just finished what felt like the longest night shift of her life. three baby deliveries, another visit from the one and only dorcas, and for some reason multiple men with all sorts of contraptions stuck up THERE. it was enough to make anyone exhausted. all she wanted was to go home, lie in bed and sleep for eternity, but sleeping for eternity apparently wasn’t an option --- so instead she opted for a large coffee from the starbucks by the hospital before heading home so that she might seem at least somewhat alive to her daughter. relishing the tall paper cup once it was finally in her hand, she turned all to quickly and found herself crashing into another morning-goer, her long black spilling down their front as she watched in horror.   ❛  oh fuck, fuck, i am so sorry --- let me --- hang on, i’ll get something to clean it up ---  ❜

[adromvda]

                           she sat at the bar stirring her drink with a plastic straw --- now the fourth drink she had ordered that night. what the fuck was she doing ?  she was supposed to be home by now, supposed to be watching dora tomorrow morning, but it was now 11:52pm and she had no intent on leaving any time soon. fuck. the only thing that could turn her attention away from her glass was the sound of the little bell ringing above the door, her head tilting to watch as sturgis podmore ( @sturgismore ) made his way inside. she offered him a half-smile and gestured lazily towards the empty seat next to her, sort of hoping that he would join her but not wanting to appear desperate.   ❛  come to catch up, i hope,  ❜   she called, taking the last sip of her drink before waving her hand as a sign that she wanted another.   ❛  you’re certainly behind --- that is if you’re on zero right now.  ❜