on the topic of teacher porn
I would like to address one more thing, because in my document I made a POINT to try and address every claim made against me so that I could accurately depict my history online and my trauma.
Well, I left out one thing.
Around 2015-16, when I was a junior in high school, there was a teacher I liked. He was my homeroom teacher, and I met him around the time that I stopped watching, drawing and hyperfixating on Markiplier. He had been referred to teach there by one of the nuns, who has since passed away (she died my senior year.)
I adored him. I drew him lots of artwork, and, because I was a horny teenager, some of the drawings I did for myself were more spicy. I indulged in shipping him with other teachers, etc, because I was a clueless child with no grasp of the fact that real life ≠ fiction. With my YouTuber and Bandom background, I truly thought I was doing nothing wrong. Of COURSE it was wrong! And eventually, the fact I was drawing him like that got around at school, and I had to delete my blogs where I was posting the art for a very small audience, mostly there for my spicy art of Markiplier OCs.
I was friends with one person at the time, named Bailee, who I openly shared these drawings with. We even ROLEPLAYED the OCs I made based off of my teachers, mostly because I begged her and I was a stupid teenager. I own this, it was wrong, it was gross, what I coerced my friend into doing was GROSS, and this behavior could cost real educators their JOBS.
Senior year came and went and I joined sports because of that teacher. I ran track, started getting in more shape than I’d been in years! Of COURSE there were red flags, including but not limiting to the fact that he’d married one of his former students (who was 17 at the time of meeting him and he was maybe around 21, so not THAT bad), but I ignored them because when you’re a teenager indulging in a crush or interest of any kind, that’s what you do. A lot of other students kept telling me he was creepy and to stay away from him, but I was like, ‘that’s SLANDER and BULLSHIT’, especially because when I’d apologized to him for the drawings (he knew they existed by the way), he told me he didn’t care and that I was fine. I was like “GOD, you’re the BEST”. He knew I self-harmed, and I felt like I could talk to him about ANYTHING. We spent so much time together, but none of it seemed inappropriate to me at the time.
I graduated high school and went on to attend SCAD for my degree in animation. My freshman year of college, a huge revelation came forward.
This teacher was outed as a predator who took pictures up student’s skirts, and was being thrown in jail on over 20 charges. Here are some articles about that.
INTIAL REPORT
DENIAL OF BOND
SCCPD POST ABOUT THE MATTER, WITH COMMENTS FROM STUDENTS
I was HORRIFIED. And so betrayed. I wanted to take my drawings back. I thought, ‘someone like that doesn’t deserve to know how I felt about him’. Of course it’s too late.
To this day, as far as I know, that teacher is still behind bars. I didn’t want to talk about this either, just like my suicide attempt. But this is apparently being used as EVIDENCE against me, along with other problematic things I did as a minor.
I own the fact that drawing ship art and porn of irl people is weird as shit, and it’s something I did as a stupid kid.
But my harassers are at the point where they are DEFENDING A REAL PREDATOR AND PEDOPHILE FROM ME TO SAY THAT I AM A PEDOPHILE WHEN I AM NOT. And that’s a bit too much for me to stay silent.
“I didn’t know!” is not a valid excuse. You’re using EVERY BIT of information that is resurfacing about my past to invalidate my experiences, my trauma AND my pain, which is very much real and VERY much still present, and to SILENCE me.
You are disgusting. Educate yourself before using things as evidence. Because Jesus fucking Christ, you are at the point where you are DEFENDING what you claim to HATE!
Use the Hamilton drawings, if you must. Use my old writing. Use my old Egobang art. Use whatever. I was wrong about a LOT of things that I did and said, and I know I was wrong. All I can do is admit that and apologize to the people I hurt with my actions and words.
But FOR THE LOVE OF GOD, you NEED to know about this and drop it. Because now we’ve reached a point that literal honest-to-god PREDATORS who have been PROVEN to prey on and manipulate children are being used to bolster a falsified narrative.
This shouldn’t need to be said, but PLEASE do not message anyone mentioned in these articles OR my former high school with harmful intent.
Please share to spread awareness. This will be added to the doc, but I wanted to just make a post here that I could share around as well. Thanks.
