Lonely in aesthetic way

18+|Kiki|29|pansexua|Finland| ig: Aesthetikiki

[aesthetikiki]

I'll be 30 tomorrow. 22 hours left of my twenties

[theone1n]

[foxyglow]

Us?

[lofi-mp3-deactivated20191115]

[wyrmrose]

Miffy's Dream (1997)

[whendidmythoughtsgocrazy]

And if I'm meant to be alone, please take away my desire to be loved.

k.b. // unknown

[slimeseasonn-blog]

[mournfulroses]

Alfred Stieglitz, from a letter to Georgia O’Keeffe featured in My Faraway One: Selected Letters of Georgia O'Keeffe and Alfred Stieglitz: Volume One, 1915-1933

[dropovers]

[dropovers]

[mournfulroses]

Ōtomo no Sakanoue no Iratsume, from a poem titled "Like the sedge of sun-dominated Naniwa," featured in Japanese Women Poets: An Anthology

[xcryogenicx]

[softbratxoxoxo]

All my mutuals are hot. Reblog to tell your mutuals they are hot.

[aesthetikiki]

I feel so unwanted that I'm still using pictures of myself from two years ago when anyone truly still wanted me or even got hard from looking at me.

I haven't changed, only that my hair is darker and make up is lighter but i feel like a different person, like I'm not good enough anymore, not pretty, not tempting or sexy. That's all gone since he doesn't look at me like he wants me, his body doesn't react to me.

I don't want to measure my self worth like this but it fucking hurts, enough to make me doubt everything.

[thepersonalquotes]

[skippymutt]

my fetish is being liked

[kuesseaufderseele]

or being loved

[bxdluxk]