Greatness is earned; not given.

[she forgot her phone charger up in his bedroom] [she'll quietly open the door and step inside, reeeeeally hoping he's not in here right now]

[he was watching his favourite Schnaas movie for the 50th time]

Li-….Erzsi……

Erzsébet scooted on the bed slightly to be closer to him, settling on his lap. “We don’t have to do anything,” she reasoned, kissing him sweetly as she wrapped her arms around him tightly, nuzzling her face into the crook of his neck. He had let her down, that was indisputable. But she felt like from this point they could at the very least start to move on take their relationship to a healthier place.

"And my chick flicks are great. I watched horror movies with you and didn’t complain until someone’s neck got slashed," Erzsébet insisted with a little laugh, glancing over to where a horror movie was still playing. "Oh, and… If we end up like that again and half undressed, maybe we should actually just go for it. No baby to interrupt and all," she teased with a playful grin, pecking his lips gently before resting her head on his shoulder and closing her eyes, happy just to be close to him again after two dreadful days of being alone.

It was going to take a while to get back to where they once were. She didn’t want to think about moving back in or getting married… Anything like that was off the table for her right now. But, when she started to see process with Gilbert and the changes he promised her… Then they could surely start moving towards that again. It was simply going to be odd as her head still addressed him as her husband despite the fact things would be different in quite a few aspects.

"Yeah...Elijah's a handful on his own." He chuckled, "Just like any baby really. But I'm sure when he gets older we can have more alone nights." Gilbert winked before happily kissing her back with a big grin on his face. "Maybe I'll scare you into a huge cuddle fest too... make you watch the really good horror."

He smiled just looking at her now, and that was enough for him. He knew he was going to change for her though, he's too stubborn to break promises (Unless the promise got in the way of a prank) and Gilbert would be happy to do anything for her. It was so odd being so in love as he was. "Hey...can I still call you girlfriend or do we have to go back to girlfriendish?" He chuckled again, the memory of it, he really liked Girlfriendish at first but after a bit he felt like it didn't show they were close enough.

"Hopefully this boyfriendish is allowed to see the baby sometimes too" He added. Seeing Elijah would have been good enough for him, because the second she left he had an odd desire to at least hold that child one more time. But holding him was stretching it, so seeing him would be the best for now. At least he could still talk to the child like he always liked to do when Lizzie wasn't around. Or sing to him if he looked tored.

[she forgot her phone charger up in his bedroom] [she'll quietly open the door and step inside, reeeeeally hoping he's not in here right now]

[he was watching his favourite Schnaas movie for the 50th time]

Li-….Erzsi……

Erzsébet was a little confused when his disposition shifted from kissing her and what was definitely leading to sex, to something just softer. It wasn’t a bad confusion, but it took her a moment to catch up and switch gears, pulling back from the little kisses she gave him to look at him instead, running her fingers slowly through his hair. It was nice, hearing that everything annoying she did he loved anyway, seeing as most of those things she did ended up in stupid little spats or teasing.

"Gil," she murmured, kissing him lightly again, "You don’t have to keep apologizing. I’m excited that you’re willing to get better because I love you more than I ever thought possible… I’m proud of you," she insisted, moving to sit up when he moved them, pushing her hair back out of her face. "If you don’t want to do anything tonight, we don’t have to, either. I just sort of… got caught up in the moment and all. But, if you do I wouldn’t object," she laughed quietly, fiddling with her bra strap for a moment so it sat more comfortably before looking at him again, genuinely feeling happy.

She reached over and took his hand lightly in hers, thumb smoothing over his hand slowly. “Also, I hope you know that I’m going to remember you said you liked all that stuff and hold you to it when you complain about anything like that,” she teased softly, leaning over to kiss him again, giving his hand a little squeeze.

"I know I don't but I feel like i need to. I let you down Lizzie." He told her, happily holding onto her hips, he felt as if when he let go he'd lose her again. It was scary even thinking about that to him now. After hearing what she had to say he smiled, letting a few chuckles come out.

"I'll make sure to find something else to tease you about. Like you and your chick flicks." He stuck his tongue out at her, then gave her a peck on the lips. "But right now... I wouldn't mind anything sexual I would just prefer a night with you. Do you understand me? I just really want to be hugged by you." he pulled her in closer. He never realized how much she affected him really. He felt warm again though, even if he actually starting to get a bit cold.

[she forgot her phone charger up in his bedroom] [she'll quietly open the door and step inside, reeeeeally hoping he's not in here right now]

[he was watching his favourite Schnaas movie for the 50th time]

Li-….Erzsi……

The feeling of Gilbert’s rough hands roaming her skin was something she always adored.She trailed her lips slowly along his neck, nipping and biting every once and a while as he liked. There was definitely something different about this. Besides the fact they had just had a fairly difficult conversation (she wouldn’t call it ‘making up’; there was still too much to do and he wasn’t entirely out of the woods yet…) Gilbert just seemed different. He was more tuned into her and everything about them than he was other times. He was definitely feeling strongly right now, and those transferred to her to provide probably the most amazing sensation and emotion she had ever experienced.

When he tugged at the hem of her shirt she arched her back up slightly, helping him to get the garment off of her. She couldn’t lose it fast enough and tossed it aside, claiming his lips in another kiss before he started talking again, his lips kissing everywhere… It was definitely amazing. This was the Gilbert she had fallen for. Sincere, passionate, and grounded. She could feel it in him already and it pleased her beyond believe.

Everything he was saying was truly incredible, and beyond heartwarming. However when he insisted that he even missed her shoe obsession she dissolved into a little round of giggles, wrapping her arms around him snugly to hug herself to him tightly as he rambled about the rest. “I love you too, Gil… So much,” she whispered softly, almost reluctant to reply in fear he might stop telling her everything that he had never said before… It was amazing to finally get to hear all of this. Erzsébet was a romantic person and needed moments like this, and she had gotten them in the beginning. But she felt like she had been in a relationship with a stranger for so long now that she was back to Gilbert from the beginning. There were no words for her to justly convey her gratitude.

#erzsihedervary #I like how it went from lets fuck to let compliments me more

Putting the refound love for her into words was almost impossible for him, because he didn't realize everything he loved about her before. He felt nice though, giving kisses, getting them, they were only against each other now. But he felt like that was all he needed. He didn't need anything sexual from her, or at least he didn't want. All he wanted right then was for her to love him. And he knew she did, even If things were a bit tough at this point.

"I know Lizzie....it was dumb of me to take advantage of it." he nodded at himself, almost certain he could see exactly what had happened. HE felt terrible, not for his more current actions, but now just hwo terrible of a husband he was. He was glad this happened, even if it cause grief it really showed him how much he loved her all together.

After giving a small chuckle he looks right into her eyes. "Funny, after two days I missed every single little thing you did. Whether it was you changing your outfit for the fifth time in ten minutes, or how we always would battle over the sheets, or how your hair was always messy when you slept, it sometimes hid your face and I wasn't happy because I didn't like being awake and looking over to a giant pile of hair actually. I miss the way you'd worry about things, or the accent you slipped in when you started getting any emotion really. I miss all of that and well... thinking I would not miss it was dumb. Because I realized every little thing you did just made me love you more and. I don't even need sex right now. I need you. The way your eyes hold a fierceness in it, the way you carry yourself. I need everything about you which i why life was hell without you. It was because I didn't have you."

Wow, it felt like he said too much but he couldn't stop talking and reminding her how much he loved her. He moved both of them so they were properly on the bed and comfortable. Now able to look her right into the eyes. "Lizzie... I was an idiot... I'm so glad you could just try and forgive me because.... I fucked up big time and asking you to leave was the biggest mess up ever. But... it also helped me see a lot I never thought I would have. And it gave me plenty of time to think. And every single little thing you do only makes me fall more in love with you so... thank you. Thank you for doing all this stuff for me I never deserved. I want to make you the happiest woman alive but... it'll all start with me becoming better. I promise you."

[she forgot her phone charger up in his bedroom] [she'll quietly open the door and step inside, reeeeeally hoping he's not in here right now]

[he was watching his favourite Schnaas movie for the 50th time]

Li-….Erzsi……

Thankful when her back met the mattress, Erzsébet smoothed her hands slowly over Gilbert’s chest before moving to get his shirt off of him. Desperately she wanted to feel his skin under her fingers and become reacquainted with him. If she took a moment to step back and realize just how funny it was, being so desperate for him after only two days, she might laugh. They had gone weeks without intimacy after Elijah was born… But this was different, and she had a whole new need for him.

"I love it when you ramble," she breathed, practically a sigh as she tossed his shirt away and let her hands wander along his chest, thankful for the feeling of his warmth greeting her fingertips. As he kissed her neck she let her head fall back against the mattress and enjoyed the way his lips and teeth felt on the soft, sensitive skin of her neck. This was exactly what she needed.

He gladly let her take off his shirt letting her touch his exposed skin. For so long he felt like he was freezing, those two days felt like ages. He did see the humour in it though, but he realized with Elijah the end result was a beautiful boy, with leaving Liz there was no good end result only loneliness and he was desperate not to be lonely. He cared too much about Elijah to just suddenly leave the baby too. "I know you do." he whispered, going underneath her shit with his warm, rather rough finger. They were always rough but he liked how it felt under her well cared for skin.

Gilbert tugged his hands a bit at her shirt hem, hoping she'd lift up so that he could take her shirt off, almost as desperate to get her top off and just take in her. "I even missed your huge pile of shoes really" he chuckled, since he was known to complain about that. "I've missed those nights where I'd literally not be able to sleep but instead of getting up I'd just cuddle with you. It always made the night go quicker. I missed how you lightened my world, how you made a fire in me that kept me warmer than any other one I could have made, and I love the angel you brought into it as well. I love you so, so much Lizzie. Please, never forget that." He let his words fall out as he feverishly kissed anywhere he could. Everything he said was the absolute truth and he felt like a complete idiot for not saying it before.

[she forgot her phone charger up in his bedroom] [she'll quietly open the door and step inside, reeeeeally hoping he's not in here right now]

[he was watching his favourite Schnaas movie for the 50th time]

Li-….Erzsi……

[she knots her fingers in his hair for a moment before her hands moved to run over his shoulders and chest, sighing in complete content against his lips] [When Gilbert breaks the kiss and starts complimenting her she feels like her head is going to explode, so she starts trailing her lips along his jaw and neck slowly, until he’s finished]

[Once he’s kissing her again, her hands come to the front of his shirt and her fingers curl into the fabric slightly tighter] Gil— Bed… [she mumbles against his lips quietly. she presses herself against him firmly as her teeth tug at his bottom lip ].

#erzsihedervary #casually switches to lit

Gilbert happily gave her about as much lip as she wanted to bite as he slowly backs up to the bed. "Hmm...k." he mumbled, trying to remember every single curve and inch of skin she had.

Quickly he flipped them over before getting her on the bed, starting to move to nip at her neck. "God, I missed you so much, I forgot how smooth you kept your skin-" he noted, trying to soak in every feeling he got from her and every single touch he could do. It only took two days to get himself desperate for her again.

[she forgot her phone charger up in his bedroom] [she'll quietly open the door and step inside, reeeeeally hoping he's not in here right now]

[he was watching his favourite Schnaas movie for the 50th time]

Li-….Erzsi……

[she’s maybe just a little desperate as she kisses him, pressing herself firmly against him as she grips onto his shirt. this likey isn’t the wisest thing to do directly after making a step of progress but god damn it she needed the intimacy and to have him this close]

[he was starting to get desperate as well with his kissing as he wrapped his arms around her and brought her as close as he possibly could] [Screw being smart he just needed her and the kissing was exactly what he needed]

[breaks the kiss] God, you are so fucking beautiful. I need to tell you how gorgeous you are more, because I barely tell you it when every day I need to remind you how fucking amazing you are because holy shit I didn't realize it until you left. [goes back to desperately kissing her]

[she forgot her phone charger up in his bedroom] [she'll quietly open the door and step inside, reeeeeally hoping he's not in here right now]

[he was watching his favourite Schnaas movie for the 50th time]

Li-….Erzsi……

[she searches his eyes as he speaks, searching for any sort of hesitation or exaggerations] [her powers really do come in handy and she can sense the sincerity coming from him] [in that moment everything seems just a little bit easier, and a hell of a lot more hopeful for their future]

[she can’t really hold back before she smiles and wraps her arms around him tightly, lips pressing smoothly against his] [maybe it’s not the best time, but she really, really needs this after the last few days of complete and utter hell]

[is kissed holy shit] [That felt so nice though and just like every issue was forgiven (even though he knew it wasn't) so he was going to smile and kiss back because wow he needed this above all]

[His life was a hell without her and he was so glad to even feel her up against him again]

[she forgot her phone charger up in his bedroom] [she'll quietly open the door and step inside, reeeeeally hoping he's not in here right now]

[he was watching his favourite Schnaas movie for the 50th time]

Li-….Erzsi……

[as much as she wants to rip away from him and leave, she finds herself gripping onto him and burying her face in his shoulder]

Gilbert, I need you too… I can’t stand not being with you, it’s awful. But i need to know you’re going to change. Me going back to you, no matter how slow, isn’t an excuse for not getting better. You need to take your medication, you need to see a therapist, and you need to get to the bottom of this or else that’s it…

I can’t live never knowing who I’m waking up to or coming home to… I need you to be you. I need the Gilbert I fell in love with who was so utterly stupid on our first date I had to make you pull over so you’d talk to me.

Promise me, Gilbert. [her voice is shaking more than she wants it to] Look me in the eye and promise me that you’re going to do everything you can to get better for me, for Elijah, and for yourself.

[cups her cheeks so she's looking right at him before closing them for a second for the longest breath either]

[opens them back up and looks right at her; his voice was now level] Lizzie, I promise you, with everything I have, on everythign I was and will be. I will change for you. I will be that idiot who doesn't talk when flustered, trips on his own feet, and has an odd love for cheesy horror films.... I will do anything for you. I love you and will do everything and I was an idiot but not even the good kind...I got cocky and it was dumb of me and that will never happen again.

Even if it means completely changing myself, I will for you, and Elijah. Just please, don't make me do this all by myself.

[she forgot her phone charger up in his bedroom] [she'll quietly open the door and step inside, reeeeeally hoping he's not in here right now]

[he was watching his favourite Schnaas movie for the 50th time]

Li-….Erzsi……

What you can do is change. We can’t move anywhere from this point until you change, Gilbert. I need stability…

I feel awful. Can’t sleep, can’t eat, can’t fucking focus because of you. All you had to do was say you’d change instead of ending things between us but now I’m standing here crying and ready to scream at you because I love you and I can’t figure out why after everything you did! [she balls her hands into fists and just loses it, not able to stop herself from crying at this point]

I'm trying but I can't do any of that either and instead I'm stuck trying to keep myself alive rather than change.

[just brings her into probably one of the tightest hugs he can as he sobs onto her] You shouldn't love me! But I love you so much and I can't forgive myself for deciding to end it with you because-

I don't deserve you but I shouldn't hurt you and I should not have broken everything because I could deal with the wedding being lost-- I couldn't deal with losing you though. Lizzie I love you so much that I hate it! I love you so much that even seeing you cry is utterly the wort thing and I will do anything to change and only for you. I will do anything for you I just need you. Please I'm a complete and utter idiot but I'm your idiot and I just want you to be happy. I'll give you that stability I promise! I'll go to therapy, I'll take all my medication, I'll do everything to assure you have stability!

I just need you there. I need you to tell me I did good, I need you to remind me my focus, I need to see you smile when I do good. I'll change anything for you just please.....

I need you.

[she forgot her phone charger up in his bedroom] [she'll quietly open the door and step inside, reeeeeally hoping he's not in here right now]

[he was watching his favourite Schnaas movie for the 50th time]

Li-….Erzsi……

[she flat out flinches when he says he loves her]

This is selfish, Gilbert. I know you’re hurting but do you think any of this has been easy for me either? As of right now I’m a single mother trying to figure out how the hell to raise a one month year old baby alone, while constantly worrying about you and wondering if you’re going to get better or if you’re going to drink yourself to death or snap and do something even more stupid than you already have!

The last few days without you have been torture and I think I’ve cried more than I’ve done anything else but we can’t just pretend it never happened.

[she shakes her head slightly and runs her hands through her hair] I can’t.

No! No! It came out all wrong! I swear! I don't want you alone either or sad and I feel utterly shitty I made you sad and left Elijah and I don't want Elijah to go fatherless and my entire decision was selfish!

I know I'm selfish I guess but I hate hurting you and that's what I'm doing now and please Lizzie.... bitte....

Just tell me what I can do.....

I feel so utterly shitty and I want to make it up to you more than anything and I've been hoping to run into you for days now and I just want to see you happy again.

Lizzie....we can restart... I promise I'm going to change for you but....

I need you.

[she forgot her phone charger up in his bedroom] [she'll quietly open the door and step inside, reeeeeally hoping he's not in here right now]

[he was watching his favourite Schnaas movie for the 50th time]

Li-….Erzsi……

It’s not that simple. Gilbert, please just… Don’t. It’s not as simple as taking you back now. We had an agreement that you would get better for me and Elijah, and then we would work on us. I-… I can’t just pretend what happened didn’t. Would you take me back if I did what you did? If I lost it and hurt everyone we cared about?

I know... I know....

I just... I can't stand this everywhere I go it's the cold shoulder and I'm scared and I'm lonely, and all I want is a hug because I'm so fucking depressed and I don't have a single person with me and Aster is not even playing with me anymore and I just feel so hopeless and....

Lizzie.... I know you can't take me back but please can we start over or something? I'm so pathetic right now and a few days knowing I wasn't with you was so heart aching and being without you is almost completely unlivable because.... I love you so much and I haven't slept in so long, I haven't eaten, all I did was watch the same movie over and over and you get so fucking sick of hearing the same line after a few rewatches.