Hey guys! ๐ฉท Thank you so much for your asks and messages ๐ฉท
Honestly I just wanna get something off my chest. Someone asked me if I'm leaving or using a new blog. Both? I made a new blog, but somehow the thought of coming back here still feels so uncomfortable. And I realised it's because I addressed and worked through the 'hate' part and all.
But... there is also an issue I have had with my own readers that I didn't expect to have.
Look, there is absolutely nothing wrong with having your kinks and all. My blog itself is pretty crazy.
It seems not only 'haters' can't separate reality from fiction, but sometimes readers too.
There is a reason I have never called my blog a "kink blog" (again, nothing wrong with that!), but rather stuck to horror.
I have talked about this before but as my interest in darker shows and works grew, I wanted to write a horror story and I realised I had no idea how to, because I have spent all my life writing pg 13 romance and fantasy ๐ญ
I wanted to get out of my comfort zone and challenge myself. So I jumped into deep waters with requests, hoping for inspiration, and for the first time tried writing horror AND smut.
I love storytelling, I love exploring new things in writing, so even though the smut part is so big on my blog, I always give my characters personalities and back stories (at least I try lmao) and dive into their mental state because... I love writing.
And I did always want my blog to be a safe space for everyone... but that's including myself.
And I feel like some people just.... I'm sorry I'm just gonna say it.
What do you mean you want a fic based on the The Burning Sun Scandal. WHAT DO YOU MEAN. ๐ญ What do you mean you want me to write about your cousin. ๐ญ๐ญ
Am I crazy??? That's a REAL tragedy, guys, and it's so fucking upsetting and disrespectful to the survivors. And no one even stops to think the author might be upset or triggered bc they're a survivor too or bc this is, again, A REAL TRAGEDY????
It's like watching murder on a screen. It doesn't affect you the same way a real life murder with a real victim would! But it might still be too upsetting or violent so warnings exist for that.
"Um you write non con that happens in real life too" absolutely. But I am not getting inspo from REAL CASES involving REAL PEOPLE and real trauma. The people, places, events, are MADE UP, and if any feelings or situations are inspired by experiences, they're MY OWN experiences, and even then my work is far from reality.
I am not glorifying Dahmer and writing smut about him ok?
And the thing is we talked about this before and I thought I made that super clear on my blog, always.
If it wasn't before, then I guess this is the post I'm gonna have to pin somewhere.
I just... I expected this from the tea blog clowns, who are shocked a writer writes fictional non con but advocates for real victims ๐ญ Like you write about war and suddenly you're a real life dictator. ๐ญ
It's OK to make mistakes and learn. I'm just so so so tired of dealing with people who don't care to learn and it almost makes me feel bad for writing here. I know I can't be responsible for my readers and I can't control who follows me. But just.
If it wasn't clear before. Even though I have this in my intro post.
I'm sorry if you were looking for something else, there are other blogs for that. I'm just a writer writing fictional stories.
The only Burning Sun Scandal fic I would ever write would be with all the men getting, literally, burned to death. ๐
Anyway. Sorry, I had to get that out, I feel like I have had so much to deal with on this blog and I'm just working through it.
Take care of yourselves ๐ฉท hope you're all staying warm and eating well.
I will be back around to check in soon, maybe edit a fic? Who knows, maybe getting this out will make me feel better. Love you sm ๐ฉท๐ซ