The devil and I get along just fine

she/her, walking bi disaster, in like 100 fandoms, no idea what's going on

[emryses]

CHARLES & EDWIN + Orpheus and Eurydice

"This is like one of those Orpheus and Eurydice moments, yeah?" "I certainly hope not, that story ends tragically."

+ bonus:

[anxious-witch]

he’s a little too easy to love #1

Okay, I admittedly took some creative liberties with this one, since og poem is about a girl/woman, but this was SO payneland, I had to

[afterall-thistime]

rewatching episode 6 and seeing how smitten both crowley (before he goes back inside after bringing nina and maggie outside) and aziraphale (after crowley mentions alpha centauri) look i just can't deal with this

knowing what happens after and that they could have been and us (and that they very obviously both want to be together) if it hadn't been for metatron

it's just so fucking heartbreaking

[afterall-thistime]

good omens s2 is just so fucking heartbreaking...

i was waiting for something to happen the whole time, with every look crowley and aziraphale shared and with every implication of them being more than friends.

i had given up hope in the last two episodes, thought there might be an ending left up for interpretation like they did with season one.

and then the last ten minutes came and now i just want to scream and cry and watch it all again.

it's been so long since a something made me feel as much as season two did.

so anyway i'm going to torture myself with rewatching this emotional rollercoaster at least 7 times

[afterall-thistime]

why are we okay with showing certain parts of our skin but others we hide away? like why is it okay to wear shorts or skirts but as soon as i walk around in a sports bra and some regular pants i get looked at? what the hell is the difference between these things?

[theyshapedlikefriends]

Bread (by honoyuri55)

[afterall-thistime]

you don't understand. i need this. now.

[afterall-thistime]

watching the oscars tonight...

i'm gonna hate myself in the morning bc i have school and i won't get a second of sleep cause i'm from europe so they start at 2am monday for me but hey who cares...

i have to get up at 5:50 and they end at 5:20 here so who knows maybe i'll get twenty minutes or sth...

tbh i'm just so excited because i know most of the movies and actors nominated and i kinda want them all to win so we'll see

[afterall-thistime]

can someone please explain to me why doing projects for art class always feels like punishment? like i can sit at home drawing shit all day but as soon as it's for school i feel like a toddler trying to draw a fucking plane or some shit

[afterall-thistime]

being a fan is great and all i mean you have friends in other worlds. there's always somewhere you can go to escape. you have sth to do when you're bored cause even when you're done with a book/show/movie you can always just look at fanart or read fanfiction. you have a family outside of your real one. it's fucking great finding a fellow fan in real life.

but there is one thing i will always hate more than all the heartbreak that comes with a characters death or the urge to jump in the tv or book just to hug your crying favorite character.

and that is when you come to the end of your new favorite show/book/movie. there is nothing that can prepare me for that and i have to live through the emptiness every time. and even though i know what's coming it hits me every time.

[afterall-thistime]

alright so i'm watching spn rn and i have this headcanon about castiel

so bc he's an angel we know that he doesn't need to sleep or eat or breathe and stuff right? but i mean we do see him breathing (ik that it's to blend in and misha has to breathe and stuff so that makes sense) but we also see him eat and drink at least after he became an angel again in s9 or sth.

and he does that not to blend in or anything. he does it when he's in the kitchen with jack or generally in the bunker.

so what i'm thinking now is that though he doesn't need sleep he can sleep.

so when dean has nightmares and wakes up screaming or cas just notices that he can't sleep he will lie down next to dean and hold him and dean will allow it bc it's dark and he needs the comfort and they don't have to talk about it and cas will stay there with him holding him until dean's asleep and then because he feels safe and comfortable and just overall warm he lets his guard down and sleeps too.

[afterall-thistime]

you know what guys? take a day off if you need it. honestly. it's better to miss one day than to have stay home because you pushed yourself to hard. there's absolutely no harm in giving yourself time to heal, do something for your mental health. you're worth it. you're valid. nobody has thr right to tell you otherwise.

[afterall-thistime]

maybe i'm just fucking tired but like...

showers are so intimate like i will make the water warm enough so i won't freeze, telling my body it's worth being comfortable. i will gently rub myself with soap, telling my body it's worth to be clean. I will massage the soap into my scalp, telling my body it's worth relaxing.

honestly showering is a love letter to your body.

[afterall-thistime]

so there has been another sleepy brain incident...

my alarm went off and my brain was like alright i'd rather get up for this family than the other like wtf i didn't even know there was another family

i'm not sure what i was dreaming anymore but i hope it has sth to do with that...

[afterall-thistime]

you know what would be great? having music in the background when you do stuff and not like listening to it but like it is in movies when they walk down a street or sth and there's a song to underline their emotions. like yes pls let me have that badass energy

[afterall-thistime]

my very tired brain produced some shit this night so...

i kept waking up and turned around every time and at some point in the early morning i thought i'm like a steak that has to be turned until it's done

at the time i thought that to be a very normal thing to think... now i don't