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24 she/her - quiet thoughts & other versions of myself

[worldscoolest]

[jesterlesbian]

All The Things She Said featuring Amber Glenn and Lena Lemon | Heated Rivalry

[afterrainlondon]

Why am I like this?

[afterrainlondon]

[worldscoolest]

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[afterrainlondon]

someone just told me they didnt have me down as a Sabrina fan and I feel the total opposite of seen

[rosesgray]

Sabrina Carpenter

performing Tears at Coachella Weekend One (10th April 2025)

[afterrainlondon]

i wonder if they know that sometimes i spend the day slightly distracted

because hearing from them would feel a bit like electricity

[afterrainlondon]

the ancient greeks looked at human connection and said “actually no, these are all different things”

eros — wanting someone so badly it changes your gravity

philia — the kind of friendship that rewires your life

storge — familiarity, family, the comfort of being known

agape — love given freely without asking for anything back

ludus — flirting, teasing, wanting joy more than permanence

pragma — choosing someone again and again over time

philautia — the terrifying lifelong task of loving yourself

mania — obsession, jealousy, the kind of love that consumes instead of nourishes

and i think modern life quietly ranks them. romance at the top, everything else underneath it like lesser substitutes

but honestly? i think being truly understood by a friend can alter you as deeply as romance. i think there is something sacred about being loved carefully, like a treasured heirloom, instead of something temporary or replaceable. i think surviving long enough to feel peace with yourself is as meaningful as being desired. i think playful affection matters. i think devotion matters. i think kindness matters.

i don’t think love was ever meant to exist in only one form

[lipstickstainsonly]

capitalism sucks but even im not immune to cartier

[afterrainlondon]

sometimes i make terrible decisions

sometimes the wind makes them for me

[afterrainlondon]

i give very good advice for situations i fully intend to repeat

[afterrainlondon]

i think seeing opera at the cinema suits me

highbrow mind, chaotic execution

[afterrainlondon]

spent the whole evening quietly hoping the villain would win

which feels… telling

[afterrainlondon]

i think seeing opera at the cinema suits me

highbrow mind, chaotic execution

[wetheurban]

What a privilege to outgrow the version of you that settled for less than you deserved.

[afterrainlondon]

i think people assume i’m more put together than i actually am

i don’t correct them