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& I’ve waited.

Watched.

Silently//smiling.

Again I’ll smile. Far far away.

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what are they going to do about the fact that you can never go back

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Turns out you can and must go forward.

How have u been friend it’s been along time since we have talked but I wanted to ask you opinion on things u have always given me solid advice snd i need it more now then ever. You have always been a good friend to me. But I’ve never felt so unsure in my life. And I’m finally breaking down completely. Im at a point in my life where I have to cut out family and friends to better myslef and it’s been so hard because the most important person in my life i feel like I’m losing because right now they have asked me to stay in their lives but put a pause on our life together so they can figure out if they even deserve me or what a life eith me and I’m struggling so hard to be supportive and not destructive. Im struggling with being okay everyday is a ight for my life external and internally and I just wanna know how do you do it. How do you keep going even though you wanna help but can’t because they person wants to do it themselves.

Buddy. Sorry I went MIA. Hope you’re still here. Holding on best you can. You can love someone but you can’t love the enough to love them themselves. Give them space. If you’re meant to be the world will keep you close in ways you never expected. Stay above water yourself, that’s enough work. Don’t burn yourself trying to put out a fire you didn’t start. I love you. Report back soon.

Random update but hope u been doing well ❤️💕wishing u all the best in life

Life is shit. I’m back in my hometown. If I see them I’ll die. I pray I don’t but ya never know. Wishing you well, always. Sorry I went MIA.

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“Do not expect people to tell you the truth because they also lie to themselves.”

— Don Miguel Ruiz

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“Sometimes you break the things you love and sometimes the things you love break you.”

— r. m. drake

Sorry it took so long for me to get back to u 😅.

So basically I laid it all out and they said they pay me this past Sunday. That was told to me on Saturday late night and . So then all of Sunday I was Ignored. I waited till 5 pm Monday to basically say that they didn’t have to pay me and I wish them the best but we are no longer friends. They proceeded to text me hours later and come up with an excuse of getting a new job and that’s why they didn’t answer me even though everyone knows how long does it take to say hey started new job I’ll get u money this week. It just doesn’t add up because Friday when I spoke with them they would have known they started new job because that’s when they started was Friday so why would u tell me on Saturday that u would pay me Sunday if u just started a new job. I’m not sure where it’s going to end but in my heart I now know they aren’t my friend and they never was my friend and it’s that’s the part that hurts more than anything. So basically that’s it for now. I will update if they actually send any money or care for our friendship at all. But I am not very hopefully. Sad but u just kinda know and that’s where I am at right now.

Sorry for unloading on u bestie. Just a tired good person who wanted to update u on my meaningless life. I appreciate u and ur advice always ❤️. I don’t know why I continue to have to go through shitty people and events but I hope that u never have go thru the same ever again

So thank you. again ❤️✨⭐️🌟

Ps don’t ever change !

Oh bestie. What a terrible spot to be in (being taken advantage of by someone you thought cared for you). I’m sorry you had to walk this road, however, I hope it brought some clarity to what you thought to be a friendship. People SUCK and I too have had to learn that the hard way. I will anxiously await the update and hope for your payment. Also, I def don’t think your life is meaningless and I’m genuinely honored you felt safe to come to me for input. Love you mean it. 😭

It is really not talked about: Being homesick for a home that about killed you. Riding the streets that almost killed me 3 years ago was heavier than ever tonight. I sobbed passing my old house flooded with memories of people I thought would be in my life forever. I hate this town and I don’t think I can ever come back again. They killed me. They fucking killed me. I hate them. I FUCKING HATE THEM. I didn’t ask for what she allowed and what he did. I didn’t ask for it. I asked for it to stop. I begged for it to stop. He wouldn’t. I hate him but I hate her more.

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Hey bestie it’s been a while I hope you have been doing great !

Kinda random but I’ve been dealing with an issue now for 1 year 6 months but How do u deal with close friends owing you money ? More so how should you go about it because I am at the point like how many times should u have to explain they need to pay u back and how should you say it because I feel like it’s not coming across completely that they need to pay me back. It’s not a little money and u helped them when u believed they needed help so I feel it’s only right they should understand how important it is to pay anyone back that u owe money

Ps thank you. for ur advice always

HIGH Hello Bestie! Ugh this just SUCKS. I do not appreciate your friend knowing they owe you money and avoiding it. I’ve only ever had to have an awkward conversation about a friend owing me money (rent money) once and I’d never like to go through that again. Anyways, if you’ve already kindly reminded them and it’s still being swept under the rug unfortunately, it’s time to get a little direct and that’s never fun! Maybe something like: “Hey *****! I know life is busy so I genuinely don’t believe you are maliciously trying to stiff me the money that you owe me but it’s been a year and a half and I still haven’t gotten back what I loaned you. I realize funds are tight for many people and I am in no way trying to add to any financial stress you may have going on but it would be really helpful for my financials if you could work on paying me back. I realize paying me back might not be possible in a single lump sum so I am totally cool if you need to make weekly / monthly payments. I hope that you can understand where I am coming from.” I hope this helps and they receive the message well 😭 keep me updated!!

My besties are planning a trip to come see us and I just- NEED IT 😭

Hoping it all works out and they can come in February 😭

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