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Just a person posting every second thought of theirs to prevent themself from annoying the few people that tolerate them

[homunculus-argument]

I'm not "eye candy" or "soul food". I'm like. An emotional support vape. Probably not good for you in the long run but nobody's lived with me for long enough yet for anyone to know what kind of long term damage it does.

[agodsloneliness]

Plan A: Be pretty

Plan B: Become something people shout at "What was that?!" if they see me walk by in the forest

[mthsmelo]

Vee :3

[homunculus-argument]

You can teleport one (1) single individual live seagull into any time or place in history. Where would you choose to put it to best fuck with peoples' heads and cause as much confusion as possible?

I'd pick Tutankhamun's tomb, just behind the sealed door, 30 seconds before the seal is broken and the tomb is opened. Imagine throwing that into the curse myth - just as these people are about to crack open the greatest cold one in history, knowing that this is what they'll be known for from hereon, they open the door that must not be opened, and out scatters a frantic, deeply baffled bird, entirely healthy and intact, fluttering away never to be seen again, with no apparent way of how it got in.

[agodsloneliness]

I just watched a bug walk on a window for a while. It kept walking and barely held still, and whenever it did, it was only for less than a second. Despite moving so much it kept walking in the same general area of the window, rarely coming across a space twice, but not venturing very far. It kept flexing it's wings, so it obviously would have been able to fly away whenever it wants to, but it just kept walking the same areas, without a clear goal.

And then I noticed a little moth sitting on the pane as well. This one held still, barely moving, sometimes stretching their wings, but staying nonetheless. The two never even came close to one another, despite having so much in common.

I don't know who of the two is better off.

Walking without a goal, not finding anything.

Or staying in place, not wasting energy.

Maybe the moth is actually dead, and it's just the wind playing with its wings. But maybe it's waiting for a good moment to use its energy and will fly when it feels the time is right.

Maybe the bug wastes its energy, and when the time comes, won't be able to take off anymore. But maybe that won't matter to the bug, because it was able to see everything it could while waiting.

[agodsloneliness]

While I wrote the first part, the bug began stopping longer and longer, until it held still for minutes at a time and then finally stopped moving altogether. The moth didn't move the entire time.

When I saw them the last time, they were facing the same direction; downwards toward the ground at a slight angle.

Maybe they are not so different in the end

[agodsloneliness]

I just watched a bug walk on a window for a while. It kept walking and barely held still, and whenever it did, it was only for less than a second. Despite moving so much it kept walking in the same general area of the window, rarely coming across a space twice, but not venturing very far. It kept flexing it's wings, so it obviously would have been able to fly away whenever it wants to, but it just kept walking the same areas, without a clear goal.

And then I noticed a little moth sitting on the pane as well. This one held still, barely moving, sometimes stretching their wings, but staying nonetheless. The two never even came close to one another, despite having so much in common.

I don't know who of the two is better off.

Walking without a goal, not finding anything.

Or staying in place, not wasting energy.

Maybe the moth is actually dead, and it's just the wind playing with its wings. But maybe it's waiting for a good moment to use its energy and will fly when it feels the time is right.

Maybe the bug wastes its energy, and when the time comes, won't be able to take off anymore. But maybe that won't matter to the bug, because it was able to see everything it could while waiting.

[agodsloneliness]

Am I enough? Even when I am not there?

Am I present in the back of your mind? Do I star in your dreams, or am I just another face for your brain to use for nameless characters?

[agodsloneliness]

My age feels like the little percentage number in the corner of my screen.

It should be a good thing whenever it goes up, closer to a desired state.

But it feels like I'm closer to the lower end, time slowly running out while I watch, read, play to distract myself from being alive, from existing. All while the empty part gets larger, destined to take it all and leave nothing but the shutdown.

[agodsloneliness]

I also only notice it, whenever the number gets low and changes colour, when there are signs. It doesn't matter if it's close to the low end every day, as long as it doesn't show and cause worry.

[agodsloneliness]

My age feels like the little percentage number in the corner of my screen.

It should be a good thing whenever it goes up, closer to a desired state.

But it feels like I'm closer to the lower end, time slowly running out while I watch, read, play to distract myself from being alive, from existing. All while the empty part gets larger, destined to take it all and leave nothing but the shutdown.

[agodsloneliness]

My life consists of hoping someone else is saying what I'm thinking so I can agree and add my thoughts.

[agodsloneliness]

The world is empty, dark and forgotten.

And it's my head that makes me feel that way.

[agodsloneliness]

I really dislike turning off all the lights before going, it always feels like an end.

[agodsloneliness]

Looked outside and had the urge to go to a seemingly rather random spot

Thought to myself, let's follow that urge to go there and see what happens, maybe something interesting?

There was nothing, nothing happened.. not only is my intuition seemingly wrong, it's useless...

[agodsloneliness]

It's so easy to bleed, why is it so easy?

Maybe we were made to bleed

[pukicho]

WTF DIDNT YOU JUST TURN 24

My biorthday is september 4th so be sure to put it in ur calender so u always remember me

[agodsloneliness]

Here, I'll be nice to pukicho once

[tonysopranobignaturals-deactiva]

why can't anyone at least use deepfakes for good. make a deepfake of elon musk saying his fans should kill themselves

[one-time-i-dreamt]

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I am embarrassed to even ask for help and you all know that in almost 7 years of having this blog, I've never asked for anything, but my university is changing my major from next year on and this is the last chance I have to graduate and take my last semester.

Before the change announcement, due to my current financial situation I planned to take my last semester next year, but if I don't take it now, I will not be able to take it ever again. My only option would be to start all over from the first year on, and the five semesters that I already successfully took and paid off would be worth nothing and I would not be able to finish the course.

I'm a some 1.5k euros away from being able to pay it all off, and I don't have that money right now, even with my paycheck. Both of my dogs have had health issues in the past month and the vet visits wiped us out.

If you can help, please do. I appreciate every contribution. I totally understand if you can't, so please don't feel bad about it. Every reblog and share is appreciated and is very helpful as well.

I'd like to thank everybody who already contributed. You all are amazing and incredibly kind and have helped me beyond words. I'm really speechless at everybody's grace and kindness towards a virtual stranger on the internet like me.

You've all already changed my life for the better these past 6 and a half years. Sometimes I felt so lonely and sad and all of you were my only support systems and I could never thank you enough for that. I love you all, thank you.

[one-time-i-dreamt]

Just like to say once more how much I love you all so much and how much you all changed my life for the better, thank you all so much, much love to you all ❤❤❤

[one-time-i-dreamt]

Because of all of you, I am a little over 200 euros away from paying off the last of my schooling altogether, including my final term paper and I just can't thank you enough, I love all of you so much, thank you!

[one-time-i-dreamt]

Thank you so much, I'm only around 100 euros away from the goal, thank you all so much for the help, I'm beyond words, this means so much!