[ah-leah]

i’m excited to move

other than as of right now i don’t have a job and i hate packing but our house is in a good location, and it’s small but will work well for us.  and it’s cute.

[ah-leah]

i’m so damn anxious that we haven’t heard anything from the places we’ve applied for jobs.  i think we picked out a house though, so i wish the job thing would come quickly.  i’m also anxious about the possibility of moving in bad weather ugh.

but i’m excited 2016 will be good.  moving out of state with my boyfriend who i am ridiculously in love with.  literally when i have to sleep without him, i have nightmares.

my coworkers and cousin are also convinced i’ll get a ring this year.  lol.  

[ah-leah]

moving out of state in winter is going to be the hardest thing i have to do and i’m still not entirely sure how i’m going to do it lol

[ah-leah]

text i just got from my boyfriend:

“It feels like it has been a week.  That’s way too long to go sleeping alone.  I don’t feel like I get any sleep and I miss you way too much.  Meals are boring and I miss you.”

Like i wanted to cry a little bit.  It is weird, because I usually do spend my days off with him and I haven’t seen him since I left at 4:30 saturday morning to go to work. So I also miss him a fuck ton.  I’ve never felt such progression with any other relationship I’ve been in.  I mostly didn’t go to him while I was off because I had a doctor appointment, but also partly because I wanted him to be able to finish his work on his truck without worrying about having to entertain me, or that I’m bored.

I definitely don’t sleep as well alone anymore though.  It took me almost three hours to fall asleep last night, and I think I only did because of exhaustion.  I always miss him but last night was so hardcore.  I’ve never wanted him so badly. I’m worried about winter because with winter driving I’m most likely going to go a week at times without seeing him and it’s going to suck.  For both of us obviously.  Three and a half months never felt like so much more before.  And it’s strange but at the wedding I brought him to, my coworkers told me they were sitting at a table together looking at us saying “they’re next.”  I’ve heard we just seem right for each other from so many people.  I don’t want to be rushed but, fuck, he means a lot to me.  Already.

[ah-leah]

im like 90% sure my boobs have grown in the past week

[ah-leah]

Last night before bed

“December 6th right”

“"Yeah that was random”

“I just don't want to forget” 

:)

[ah-leah]

What she texts: I'm finw

What she means: I'm fine

[ruinedchildhood]

[ah-leah]

i shouldn’t read drug reviews online because i know when people review things it’s most commonly to bitch about them

my NP put me on tri-sprintec and because of reviews i’m now terrified to start it.

[ah-leah]

my cousin got engaged

that timing is just.......... lol.

[ah-leah]

i wish i wasn’t such a jealous person.

[ah-leah]

easily the best thing that’s happened to me in 2015.

[haramfood]

[ruinedchildhood]

What the fuck even was the 90’s

[ah-leah]

i haven’t seen my boyfriend in 7 hours and i miss him already so much and i think it’s escalated because that means he’s now 7 hours away. he’ll be nine tonight.  and then tomorrow he’s riding even farther.

[ah-leah]

Beautiful bride 👰🏼 love you!

[ah-leah]

:) kittleson wedding!

[ah-leah]

story of our lives #allthepizza 🍻🍕