was the heaviest brick thrown right against his ribcage, screaming, straining, in a undeniable force strong enough to make him come to the light, and admit to her, and himself, exactly how deep this had gone. had spent their months together brushing off each linger of eyesight that lasted a few seconds too long, each breathless confession that made strings of his heart tug, and each time they fell asleep, chests breathing in a perfect sync, her head resting on his chest like it belonged there, his arms wrapped around her with the fear that she could pull away any second. nothing could overshadow, nothing could mask it — the cloud that surfaced over them, the fate he was meant for. didn't believe in fairytales, in the belief that each person was molded meticulously for another person to grab hold of and fit together as if they were one. had always believed it was a humorous idea, one that hopeless romantics conjure up to make themselves feel better. his long list of conquests had proved that, left with a satisfaction between their thighs paired with a broken heart when they realized it wasn't authentic. there wouldn't be a mind altering shift in his brain, the one that happens in every romantic movie, where he's hanging up his coat and falling in love with the girl no one expects, riding off into the sunset together. it was bullshit — the biggest joke of the century. except . . it wasn't. he'd felt it, that shift, each time his lips pressed against hers, or when her nails dug into his arm, or once ears heard sweet moans whispering his name. it dug further and further, trickling along until this moment, when it all collided into him at once, sending a shockwave throughout his entire body and holding him hostage. it wasn't a joke, or a fairytale : it was as real as she felt throbbing against him right now. it was undeniable, and unshakeable. had told himself every excuse in the world until he ran out of them. there was no other option, no other tale he could spin. even if the words she spoke were construed from the pleasure she felt between her thighs, it was as truthful for him as he could give out. stone cold sober, and he meant every fucking word. explanation given sends a thrill up his spine that only pushes him to deepen his movements inside of her, hands dug into skin so deep, so raw as an open mouthed grin widens his lips, “ maybe i should. ” it's hushed, tilting his head downwards to watch as her eyes hood over, leaning down as his brims hover atop swollen ones, head angling along with each shift that his hips give, “ you want me to forget about every girl? they're long gone. they can't even think about touching the spots you can. but you . . ” voice lingers on a detrimental shift, possessive, and jealous, “ you haven't forgotten . . your goddamn sheets in there smell like him. ”
wants to hush the insane grip he has on her hip but it only deepens as his hand moves further up, looking down at the welt that was sure to bruise on hip bone. “ fuck you like you deserve. and just when you think i'm gonna give you the satisfaction you so . . ” a deep thrust pushes him deadly inside of her, “ desperately need. i'll make you wait. i'll make you suffer. ” not now, at least. wouldn't let either of them wait a second longer to let themselves succumb to the head rush only the other could give. would keep that idea in his mind, remembering when he needed it most. his own eyes flutter closed just before their pleasure overtakes them both as she speaks, the familiar string tightening felt louder than ever between his chest as his eyes open, and he watches her, and how each stoke he fulfills affects her. it was his favorite movie, one that he would never grow tired of watching. “ i do need you. ” it's spoken between his own groans, each muscle tightening as a fire grows wider and wider, “ you have no idea what you've done to me. ” pushed through gritted teeth, the hesitation before spilling truth wiped clean from his mind as each buck of his hips sends his mind to the deepest state of insanity. “ you're there. you're always there. since the first moment we met i — ” she's sinking deeper and jaw is clenching, shuttered breath falling from his lips, “ it's been you. ever since that night, nothing has felt right. nothing — compares to this. ” hazy mind is overwhelmed with each accuracy that's spilling from both of them, and he has to wonder if maybe he wasn't right in assuming she was speaking false truths. she had him, right in the palm of her hand, what would be the point of shouting these words to oblivion? her date had left at some point, and the only thing that he could think of was the second scariest fucking mantra that he could imagine : that each thing she spoke, each feeling she had was just as real as his was. that the three words that he never believed he'd ever hear a day in his life rang true. even if it was for now . . just for tonight, when they're overstimulated with their emotions, flooding the gates with mind numbing orgasms, and it was too much for them to bear. maybe they'd wake up tomorrow and never speak of it again. but they had tonight. a night that he was holding onto for dear life, with no intention of pulling away as long as he stood here breathing.
admission is shot through his chest deep enough that he can physically feel the sting, that number one spot of his scariest thoughts boiling over, just as he's filling her with each drop he encompassed. wasn't sure if it was possible for one girl to cause so many emotions to flood his system at once, but it was in this case : and was evident in his gaze as he watches her beautifully cum at the same time he did, as if they were so perfectly in sync that they couldn't breathe without the other. the sickening part? he fully believed they were. didn't have to think about it for a second, didn't have to linger on the sheer possibility of him turning around and walking out the door once he heard such a confession. any other girl would speak this and he wouldn't think twice about running the other direction. eden malaak breathlessly speaks it into existence, and there's not a second thought about staying. it terrified him, sent such a wave of fear through him that he could feel the tips of his fingers shuddering as the grip her hips, lifting her up to carry her into the next room. there's a rare warmth in his chest, one that almost convinced him he was having a heart attack, but he's too consumed, too intoxicated as he plants her against the wall of her kitchen, and she continues with another declaration, and he was certain now that her only goal tonight was to kill him dead. the wind is knocked from his lungs, and they're filled with each statement she breathed out tonight, the only oxygen he needed to inhabit his body. he was so consumed, so entranced with this girl that he didn't know anymore where he ended, and she began. “ i can't breathe without you. i can't live — without you. i don't want to. ever. ” hushed tone is pushed in the shell of her ear just as digits hug the outer space of sensitive walls, his head shaking against her cheek as lips press a gentle kiss against her cheek, “ don't ever tell me to leave. i can't — the first time in the past seventeen days that i've felt a breath of fresh air was when i kissed you. ” eyes strain as tension fills under them, a foreign feeling as they blink upwards, closing away the rim that threatens to showcase his emotion, “ i won't survive without you. that's the power you have on me. so please, don't ever make me. ” his own form of begging is slid across his brims, and he's pushing digits inside her to try and mask it, but it's no use, as he's admitting his own shattering confession, and just as it pools out of him his hand is drenched with her, an open mouth moan covering his words as her walls clench around his cock and fingers alike. expects his own words to be too much, too real for either of them to accept. thinks she'll push him out as quickly as she done xavier, but she doesn't, only lets her second orgasm fill him as quickly as his frame molded into her, and it's a sensation he couldn't explain if he tried.
take it out on me. fucking ruin me. her own words are sending a wave through his system, eyes glancing down to drink her in as she continues, tongue running across his lesser as she brings his digits between her lips. his other hand between her thighs aren't slowing down, sounds of soaked walls are echoed through each truth she's speaking, and he was two seconds away from dropping to his knees for her right there on the spot. it was a dream, the most perfect fucking dream he could think of, and he had no intention of waking up any time soon. then, she's moaning against his fingers, tongue dragging along bone in a sinful way that makes him shutter, and the words i love you are repeated, and it's omitting the same reaction from minutes before, only worse. his excess his overwhelming him as cock slams between her cheeks, each drop filling her ass at her words, bitten down lip muffling a gritted moan the best it could, even if it wasn't successful in doing so. he's pulling both hardened cock and fingers out from her and yanking her around, naked bodies clashing together as he forcefully pulls his fingers out from her mouth, cocking head to the side as soaked digits curve the back of her neck, pressing his lips to her so rough the sound of her head hitting the wall is evident. tongue is shoved between her lips as he kisses her, unknowingly pulling away as his hand curves around the bone of her jaw, “ you'll get your turn. when i say you can. ” grits out as nails dig into the curve of her jaw, pressing another teeth filled kiss against her lips, “ i'm not done. and i'll never be done. ” with one move he's lifting her up again, lips messily moving against hers as he walks to the bedroom, earlier thought wiped clean from his mind, feet stopping at the foot of the bed as he drops her to her feet, turning her once again where her gaze looked at the played with bed spread, “ did he tell you he loved you while he fucked you, eden? ” pure insanity laces his words, as he tangles a hand between dark tresses, yanking her back as he forces gaze to look at him, “ do you think any man would love you the way i do? ” head dips down, teeth grazing already bruised skin before they're closing down, such force omitted that there's a crack in her skin, and he pulls back, a small drip of crimson running down her neck, “ it breaks my heart that you had another man in our bed, baby . . ” tongue flattens against red sheer as he tastes it on his tongue, humming at the immaculate feat that coats his mouth. he's then shifting her around to face him before pushing her back against the mattress, then both hands grip her ankles and he's pulling her to the end where he stood, prying legs open as he stands between them. “ you want me to show you what i feel . . you want me to ruin you? ”
a crazed laugh fills the space, cock hovering over the throbbing hole between her legs as he slides tip up and down her folds, hand lifting up and in one swift movement, palm is striking her cheek before fingers curve to the back of her neck, prying her vision to meet his, “ beg me. ”