coming undone

Alyn. half panda, half penguin. binge eating the sadness away since 1996. likes sleeping, procrastinating and annoying the world with my existence.

[sooyoonyul]

Hyoyeon right now

[thequeenbey]

[neverthegoodguy]

The truth is, I gave my heart away a long time ago.

And I never really got it back. 

[beejayway]

[justbeingnamaste]

“Everything you can imagine is real.”  Pablo Picasso

[dibujarodraw-deactivated2014011]

[fishingboatproceeds]

What happened to a Looking For Alaska movie?

The same thing that happens to 99% of books that are optioned by movie companies: It got stuck in development. Josh Schwartz wrote a great script, the kind of script that is so good that no for-profit institution would ever invest tens of millions of dollars in making it into a film, so it will probably never get made.

Does this make me sad? It does not.

For one thing, if I’m going to be honest, I like going to the movies, but I find the process of how movies get made horrifying and reprehensible. (Similarly, I like bacon.) 

Also, Looking for Alaska has a wonderful life. People are still reading it for the first time (in fact, 2011 will be its bestselling year so far), and they’re still recommending it to their friends, and it still feels like a book that people discover. Many of Alaska’s readers feel an intense and private connection to the story and its characters, and I am extremely grateful for that. If they made a movie, it might be brilliant, and it would certainly sell a lot of books, but readers would inevitably lose some of the connection they feel to the story.

I love the Harry Potter movies, but they forever changed the books for me: I can’t help but see Ron as Rupert and Hermione as Emma. That would happen with an Alaska movie, too, and while of course I’d love to have a bunch of money and go to fancy Hollywood parties and stuff, in the end I feel very lucky that Looking for Alaska lives solely as scratches on a page.

That said, if they ever do make it, I think it could be quite a good film, and I’d be totally excited. But I’m not waiting patiently by the phone or anything.

[thesecretletter]

My best friend and I promised to never lose contact with each other and I believed it. Yet slowly we drifted apart. Both of us making new friends and forgetting about the old ones. I’d like to say that her and I’s friendship is a building that’s burning down while all I can do is watch but that isn’t true. The building has already burnt to the ground, and all I’m left with is ashes, a couple hundred memories, and a dull ache in my stomach telling me it’ll never be the same.

Your secrets are safe here (via thelovewhisperer)

[anamorphosis-and-isolate]

[tswiftslyrics]

[highschoolhandjobs]

[zenies-deactivated20160523]

[richkidsblue]

[simonschusterca]

A poem by Lang Leav, illustrated by Zen Pencils

[love-personal]

[http-r3]

“This world scares me”

[ahhphrodite-blog]

i’m so stupid

Lol why am I back here writing but anyway. Grades are out. And it’s actually my first time crying because of grades. I never cared about my grades (it would be enough for me to pass actually) but this sem is just hell and I wanted to at least get an A in one subject. I strived so hard and I have 2 subjects which I was confident I’d get an A in but I only got a B+ and I feel so stupid as fuck. This is shallow, I know, but to me it hurts so much because I RARELY set goals and when I do, I make sure to get them. But I always, always end up disappointing myself. This is why I don’t like setting goals, and this is why I am losing trust in myself the more I go on with this fucking life.

And I hate how I always make myself feel worse that I should feel. And when my friends try to comfort me or try to offer help, I always push them away.

Then after pushing them away I get all sad because I feel alone. Dafuq i feel so stupid why am i like this

[yoo-sijin]

Ah, so I’m your oppa.