Aiden Devine

[aidendevine]

Given everything that's happened, I'd say you put far too much trust in your boytoy~

He’s never cheated on me. So I don’t know what you’re bloody talking about. And he’s my boyfriend.

[aidendevine]

You wouldn't happen to be worried about your boyfriend staying loyal to you now that his favorite fucked-up fling is back, would you?

I heard he was back.... How I don’t bloody know. But I trust Declan not to cheat.

[aidendevine]

[norabeaton-deactivated20160921]

“Nice. Congratulations, I guess. I’m pretty excited for the new Quidditch season to begin. Are you holding tryouts this year or is your team full?”

[aidendevine]

“I think we’ll have some tryouts. I gotta check though to see who is staying. I mean, we tend to have tryouts anyway for everyone on the team, just to make sure everyone is up to snuff,”

[woods-canvas]

“Nothing like a little head trauma and some broken bones to make you even more determined to kick some Slytherin arse, right?”  Oliver spun his broom, hitting the Quaffle aside with the stick.  “You’ll have to try harder than that, lad!  I’m old, not blind!”

[aidendevine]

Aiden was breathing heavily by the time he came down from the air, setting lightly onto his feet as he slid off of his broom. “Well, what do you think sir?”

[declanbouchard-blog]

It’s Complicated // Declan Bouchard & Aiden Devine

[declanbouchard-blog]

“No.” Declan shook his head. “You weren’t being stupid. You… You have every right to hate me.” He pulled away and stared into Aiden’s eyes. He’d known that he’d hurt Aiden, but to hear it from him was something else entirely. “I… I didn’t mean to,” he said. “It’s just… It was Marcus, you know? I mean, I don’t have feelings for him, and I didn’t really think I would cheat on you with him, but… The thing is, I just… After he and I broke up, I figured it was ‘cause he was good, and I was bad. And that’s what I thought this whole time. That he’s good, and I’m bad, and since I lie, he never would. I believed him because… I guess I thought he was too good of a person to lie about it.” He shook his head. “That sounds stupid, but it’s what I thought. What I’ve been thinking for over a year, now.” He held Aiden tightly, as though he was afraid Aiden would disappear if he let go. “You really do, you know,” he said. “When you’re here, it’s a little better. I don’t feel quite so much like… Never mind.” He wasn’t sure how much Aiden knew about how little he felt like living most of the time, but he wasn’t sure he wanted to bring it up. Besides, if he told Aiden that, then wouldn’t he be manipulating Aiden into staying with him? That was the last thing he wanted.

Declan took one of the little bottles and turned it over. He was ashamed how much the contents of this one tiny bottle could scare him, but a lot of things could do that, he supposed. “I… I can’t not take them,” he said. “Peter worked hard on them to make me better, and I want to be better, but…” He sighed. “I’m scared.” His voice was quiet, and smaller than it had been in a long time. “I don’t want to be fake-happy, and, well… Part of me’s afraid… I mean, I’ve been like this for so long, I don’t know if I’d recognize myself anymore if I wasn’t.” That was the worst part, that he didn’t even know who he was without this crushing weight on him. “Different?” He looked at Aiden, setting the bottle down. “Different how? Different from the way I was when we first got together?” He nodded. “I’ve gotta. I’m setting a bad example for Gabe, and I’m not being a good boyfriend to you, so I’ve gotta stop. But I…” He couldn’t bring himself to ask for help, so he put everything he was feeling into kissing Aiden, hoping that Aiden would understand. He couldn’t do this himself. He needed Aiden, though he was still afraid after all this time to admit it.

[aidendevine]

Aiden looked back into Declan’s eyes, frowning. “I don’t hate you okay? Not at all. I just... needed a little time because it hurt,” he looked away, hating that he had made Declan feel that way. “Hey, you are good okay? People aren’t just... one thing right? Marcus... yeah... I still can’t believe he did that, but he did, and he lied,” Aiden bit his lip. He still wasn’t sure what caused Marcus to do something so horrible like that, especially to him of all people. It wasn’t a funny joke at all. Even if Marcus had told Declan before Aiden found out, he’d probably still be just as mad. Tugging his boyfriend closer to him, Aiden pressed his lips against the side of his head. He didn’t want to say the words out loud, but he knew what Declan was going to say. “I’m glad I can at least help a little with with that. You can’t... You can’t do that okay?” he whispered softly. “Because I need you. I don’t know what I’d do without you. So you aren’t allowed to...,” he trailed off, hoping Declan would get what he meant. It was selfish to do that, to try and make sure Declan didn’t do anything stupid or hurt himself. Or worse, kill himself. But if it worked, then it would be worth it.

Aiden looked at the bottles as well. He didn’t know anything about them other than the fact that Peter said they would probably help his boyfriend. “I don’t know what they do,” Aiden admitted with a small shrug, and he didn’t know if they would act like the pills in the muggle world. Then again, Aiden didn’t really know how well they worked, if at all. “If you don’t want to take them... then we’ll figure something out, and make sure you get better,” he mumbled softly with a nod.”I want you to be better. You shouldn’t have to deal with that weight on your shoulder. You’re more... stressed... more distant,” Aiden frowned, it was hard to explain. Aiden kissed Delcan back, holding him closely. “I know. I’m gonna be here okay? I’m not leaving or going anywhere,”

[woods-canvas]

“I’m not opposed to him trying, but I don’t want him to feel like I’ve set time limits with my own experience.  I don’t want him to push himself the way… t-the way I’ve heard he does already.”  He wasn’t sure how both of his children ended up this way, but Oliver felt that it was probably his fault, at least in part.  He tried to shake the feeling and kicked off the ground, drifting toward the goal posts on his borrowed broom.  “Alright, then, let’s see you get the Quaffle past Puddlemere United’s best Keeper!”

[aidendevine]

“He pushes himself, definitely. But, to be fair I don’t think he’s actually hurt himself, at least no more than I did when I first started Quidditch. And he was much better off when he started here at Hogwarts than I was at least,” Aiden replied, giving him a small, reassuring smile. Grinning, Aiden grabbed the Quaffle he brought out and waited until Oliver was ready, before shooting towards him.

[declanbouchard-blog]

Well, maybe someday Declan will tell me that story. I want to leave him something to tell me, at least. And I’m surprised you managed to fool him. He saw your photo, but I guess he forgot what you looked like after he sent the photo to Declan and never got it back. You… you looked happy, both of you. I think that’s the first time I’ve seen him smile in a photo since he was a child. [She stops walking and leans against the wall, hiding her face in her hands and muttering curses in Spanish.] Scars? Andre’s been… Why didn’t Declan tell me? Damn it, he shouldn’t have had to, I should’ve noticed. I’m his mother, I could’ve stopped… I’ve been trying to keep it from… [She trails off, looking as though she might cry.]

[aidendevine]

Er... yeah sorry. I guess I’ve sort of just been... anyway. I guess he doesn’t really care all that much about muggleborns does he? Why bother remembering what I look like. That picture... it was the day I found out I got a tryout for Irish National. We were both really happy, but we didn’t now it was getting taken. [Aiden bit his lip, looking away] I didn’t mean to... Declan didn’t want you to worry. And he wanted to make sure that both you and Gabe were safe.

[odette--belcourt-deactivated201]

I’m sure he’ll be super proud. But does that mean you won’t be cheering for Slytherin this year? I was going to get you a green and silver scarf for Christmas.

[aidendevine]

Even if my boyfriend is the captain of the Slytherin team, that doesn’t mean I’m gonna be rooting for you guys. Even if I wasn’t the captain of Gryffindor anymore.

[declanbouchard-blog]

He told you? This sounds horrible, but I… I really wasn’t expecting him to be so honest with you, or to… Well, let’s just say that Andre doesn’t much like the idea of you, and I think this might be the first time Declan’s ever told Andre no. It takes guts, but I guess if you love somebody… -She smiles.- A whirlwind romance somehow turned into wanting a life with him, hm? I know that one. Just be careful, all right? Be gentle with him. He needs his life to slow down a bit, if you ask me. -She sighs.- I heard about Charlie and Quinn. That’s the worst thing in the world as a parent, to lose your children. But about Andre… Peter and Yuri’s mother suggested he might be… hurting Declan. I thought it was just Andre talking about wanting to disown him, but it’s worse, isn’t it?

[aidendevine]

He was pretty upfront about things... Sort of had to be. It’s a long story but... yeah. No I don’t expect he would. Saw him here the other day, had to pretend I was some bloke from the countryside in sixth year. Didn’t recognize me. [he chuckles] Um... yeah it just sort of happened you know? I try to make sure everything is going okay but... yeah. I’ll be careful. I... Dec showed me a few scars that he said his dad did to him. I don’t know. I just want him to be safe, but he’s stubborn and won’t listen to me.

[mcoventry-deactivated20151105]

-He crossed his arms over his chest and chewed on his lower lip for a silent moment.- I think I’m the last person he’ll listen to at this point. I can imagine he’s devastated and probably despises me right now.

[aidendevine]

It’s better than nothing.

[odette--belcourt-deactivated201]

That’s great!  Have you told Declan yet?

[aidendevine]

Not yet, haven’t gotten to see him since the speech.

[aidendevine]

“Wait! I can stay as captain!?”

[declanbouchard-blog]

I see. I was afraid he hadn’t told you about Odette. And… Well, I realize this is forward of me, but I want to take care of my son, so I have to ask. Do you want a future with him? Long-term? That’s not going to be easy, but I suppose you knew that. And as for him telling you everything, erm… Odette tells me he’s just upset about Charlie, but I think there might be something else going on. Not that he’d tell me. Has he told you anything? Is he sick, or… did something happen to him?

[aidendevine]

Oh, no, yeah i know about Odette and everything. I... yeah I do. I love him and if we can get him out of the contract I want to spend my life with him. I think... we think he might be depressed. Everything that’s been going on this year and with his father and all.... I think Charlie’s death put him over the edge.

[declanbouchard-blog]

“Don’t worry about it,” Declan said. “If you were ignoring me for Quidditch, you’d know. I’d start ignoring you for Morgan.” He hoped Maria would know Morgan was a cat and not a person, because his obsession with his cat would probably be difficult to explain to people who didn’t love cats so much.

He nodded. “He’s brilliant. The talent scouts only saw half of a game, and even they thought so. But you really should come see a match when he goes pro. Oh. He didn’t tell you?” He scratched the back of his neck and smiled sheepishly. “Well, erm… It sorta came out of nowhere in the middle of a match, and… Yeah. They stopped the game because there were too few non-injured people to play. Don’t worry, Aiden was fine. Didn’t even have to go to the hospital or anything.”

[aidendevine]

“Morgan’s his cat,” Aiden clarified to his mother before pouting. “Well I’m glad to see I’m getting more attention than the cat at least,” he teased. But then he groaned at the mention of the lightning. Declan really needed to learn when to stop talking about things like that. Especially with his mother, who he knew was going to lecture him about that bit.

Maria chuckled at the boy’s for a moment, until she heard the story about the lightning. “Wait a second. So not only are you flying around and getting hit and crashing but lightning is striking you as well!” he gasped, her eyes going wide as she looked between both boys. “You are not permitted to play this game!”

[mcoventry-deactivated20151105]

I can’t believe this. How did we not know this was happening? It just doesn’t sound like him. He loves you. You’re his best mate he would never do anything to hurt that. I-I have to find him. I have to make this right for him.

[aidendevine]

I dunno... he just.... [he threw his hands up in frustration] Maybe you can talk some sense into him sir.

[woods-canvas]

“Well, here’s to hoping.  I’m worried he thinks that he has to be like me and make captain by fifth year or something.”  Oliver took the broom and coaxed it into levitating with a bit of difficulty.  “Ah, these old things,” he sighed, climbing onto the broom.  “Now, what position do you play?”

[aidendevine]

“I dunno, he might want to try it. But I think that’s just because he really loves Quidditch,” Aiden replied with a small shrug. Peter would know better than he would about that though. “I’m Chaser,” he said with a small nod, lifting off ot eh air onto his broom.