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One day we will be holding hands, watching our grandkids run by while watching the sunset. We’ll be by the water, thinking about our days and memories. One day it will all be alright. I want you for the rest of my life and I hope I can prepare myself to be the man that deserves you.

i just want to be this. but i feel like youve given up on me being this for you. everyday i cry about how im not the man that does this for you. i feel like i won the lottery with you but i feel like im keeping you from being with a man that deserves you way more than me. and ive been trying since ive wronged you to show you that i am that man that deserves you. but i know im not enough. i do my best and i want to do more but im not enough.

all i do is love and understand. but im never enough. everyday i work so hard. but yet i feel like im never enough. all i think about is how to get better. everyday i try to treat like its my last. i try to be optimistic.

i do this for you. i do my best for you. and i slip up every once in a while because of my own issues and its like the end of the world.

now i understand why most men end up speaking less or none at all when they get older.

Im fine with it as long as i’m still with her and i can provide and keep her happy.

I only think about her. Sometimes i slip and feel like i can take a break from being a man but i really do know that i cant.

Keep loving. Keep caring. Keep adapting. Say less or say nothing at all. You may not be doing it yet but train yourself to just stfu. Its way better that way. You can always vent out to your friends. Grateful for all the people around me.

i’ll do my best not to get tired from work today

i wish i wasn’t so impulsive. I wish i didn’t react the way i do. I wish i was always good to you. i wish i grew up faster. i wish i was the guy that treated you right from the start and never did you wrong. but here we are, living miserably because of my mistakes. Wondering if we are right for each other. i just wish i knew how to get you back properly. i wish i didnt fuck everything up like i did. i want to feel human again. but i also dont really care anymore. i just want you to be happy. wether thats with me or somebody else, i just want to stop being another wrong/mistake in your life.

i really wish she knows how much i love her. i’ve never loved anybody this much. i hope im not forcing it.

i just want my issues to be taken seriously as well. i hate being undermined. especially from the person that chose me and wants to love me for the rest of my life. Even then though, I just want to make it work so bad that I put my issue’s beneath hers. By the time I talk about mine, it becomes an issue for her.

i just want to be able to be me. i wish i didnt wrong anybody, but i also dont have a time machine. I can only change, and i thought i was doing what i can. But if they don’t want me, then why do they stay. If they can’t accept me and what i am trying to do everyday, then why are they tolerating me. I just want to be where im celebrated, not tolerated. I’m just trying to continue my journey on this planet but it feels like i am not wanted. I always make excuses for people’s behavior but I just wish I could be treated like a human being that truly just has feelings. Still though, I just try and love everyday. I really do, I don’t know what else to do but try. Yet still I end up getting the short end of the stick. Some days, I feel like I really should just end up alone. I don’t have to bother anybody, I don’t have to end up hurting them and I don’t have to be tolerated by anyone else but myself. I wish I can just figure things out and stop causing people problems that I can’t even control because I’m just trying to live. Trying to work. Trying.

Always not listening. Always wrong. Always wrong mindset. Wrong thinking. Wrong emotions. Wrong reactions. Wrong everything.

Throw me to the wolves and i’ll return leading the pack.

A wise man can always be found alone.

A weak man can always be found in a crowd.

Saved.

Strengthen yourself and make sure your mindset is always controlled and that your thoughts align with your actions. Meditate meditate meditate

will i ever get her back. i love her so much, i really do. I love her so much to know that i should let her go when she cant take take it anymore. Its not fair for a person to be going through what shes going through and I did that. I did the worst thing possible to the person I truly love. God please help me, i am at a low point in my life and i really want you to help her more than anyone right now. I’m not enough now. I just want her to live a happy life more than anything in this world.

I dont want to ruin another person ever again.

you’re the reason why i believe in love

I love you.

you can’t get back what you’ve lost.

think about what you still have.

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