close the door behind you.

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how can the void be filled if you never acknowledge its existence?

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it seems as though giving and experiencing love is our only solace from the day to day chore of living this evil ass life

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10/16/2019

How am I ever supposed to be calm now that I know what Home feels like? Memories of your hands tracing my lips send chills through me.  You make concentrating difficult. I remember how it feels to fit my frame into yours. How it feels like a miracle everytime I get to breathe your air. Your sweet and minty scent combined with the scent of coconut oil and shea fills the entire house. The scents linger for days after you leave, and sometimes that makes me cry. It’s almost like you were a ghost, just stopping by. You are part of every vision and dream I have in this life. And I could snatch every one of those visions right out of the sky. Losing you scares me but loving you scares me, too. 

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freewrite 1/inspiration/vibes

lavender.tuquoise.shellac. light pink. soft. yet edgy. geometric.kinky. silver. Dune. afro. Grace Jones. divine feminine. androgyny. deep purples and gold speckle.raw amethyst. drunk sex. Stevie Nicks. cactus. pastel. studio 54. peep toe shoes. Janet Jackson. car show. romantic nights in California on PCH. lowrider anthems. calming. manifest. freedom. Thunderstorms. humidity. Bayou. Lace. Long braids. electric guitar.