My Wind Beneath My Wingsā¦.So Longā¦
November, the month we celebrated Thanksgiving dayā¦But, will this be a month I will be thankful for? November 20, Sundayā¦at 10am Philippine time. The last breath of my Mamay(Lola), was heard..I cant imagine the devastation I have when my mom broke the news to me. Full of denial, grief, confusionā¦lost. One of the most important person in my life had bade goodbye to us.
Recounting the days I have spent last July, was one of the happiest moments in my life. Knowing that I will spent my vacation with my family along with my Papay & Mamay. I may say, I brought joy to them when I arrived. Presents was given & adored by them on this moment. But, I guess the greatest joy I had given to them is that knowing, I am around in the house.
Mamay, has seen me grown to a woman I am now. As a kid, my mom would remember thatĀ Mamay was overjoyed when I was brought into this world. She would pay us more visit every now & then. In our family lives, she is our confidant in every path & milestone in our lives even to my Momās journey. She is always there. When my Mom gave birth to all 4 of us, she was there. If Mama, needed something to watch over us she is there. When my Papa succumbed to sickness Ā & death she is there all along. She never leaves usā¦Thatās why, I know, it will be very difficult to my Mom to pass this road now. The one person she entrusted our lives with has bided goodbye.
I remember when I was young, I overheard my aunts talked about Mamay .That Mamay, put most care & love to our family. We, her grandchildren, Me, Tonet, Yan & Gel, are the only grandchildren that she hold & carry in her lap when we are still baby. She would even rush quickly all along to our house if Mama needs her to take care of us. That even their children, my cousins, did not felt that care from her.
Me, as a child, they say, Iām one of her favorites next to Kuya Nato, my eldest cousin. I donāt know why, but I do feel the importance of my life to her. Why? Coz when I was young. Mama told me that one time, Mamay runaway in our house carrying me all along with her. I donāt have any memory for that but I know we build the greatest bond together. She would tag me along to all her trip in Manila when I was young. Pictures are evidence for that. Every year, during my birthday, whether she is in our house or in their hometown, she will never forget to light a candle to the Saint whom is the feast day of my birthday, Saint James.
I know this is another test from God to our family. But like what we have gone through, when Papa died, I know we will make it. Mamay, is just around us..watching over us. Continue taking care of us. Loving us.
Ā Mamay, I may not be there to bid my goodbye to you, you know that, you are most love by me. I am very much thankful to God that he had provided me a wonderful, strong, lovable & the best grandmother in you. I know that in your journey here in this world, I became one of the reasons to have that wonderful smile in your face and in your heart. I thank you Mamay, for being there with me, when I needed a caring hand to pat me on the shoulder when Iām sad or when I needed a big hug from someone who understood me. Thank you Mamay, for the wonderful memories that you have shared with me when I am growing up. This will be hard for me for now. But I know in time, I will be seeing you soon. My wind beneath my wingsā¦..I will be missing youā¦
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