( don’t look at me like that, don’t say those  things, don’t, don’t, don’t.Â
 she ducks her head, tries to hide her face,  the burning heat in her eyes. she won’t cry  in front of deidre, not now and not ever, she  hopes, because the only person she has ever  cried in front of has been valentin, who has  seen her through all of it, everything. )
     I don’t know.
( she swallows around the lump in her throat. )
     I don’t know what you want me to say.
  I ----
( she doesn’t know what to say other. she wants   more than anything to fix what she’s done, how   she’s hurt rina, but there’s nothing she can do.   there’s nothing to do but show rina that she does   care, that she is important to her, that -- )
   ----- I love you.Â












