* 𝐫𝐨𝐬𝐞 𝐜𝐨𝐥𝐨𝐫𝐞𝐝 𝒃𝒐𝒚 .

*  𝐚𝐣𝐚𝐱  ' 𝒂𝒋 '  𝐜𝐚𝐛𝐫𝐚𝐥  ,  penned  by  𝖉𝖆𝖓𝖎  for  𝒉𝒒𝒉𝒐𝒍𝒍𝒐𝒘𝒂𝒚  .

[ajaxfm]

spoiledveins·:

          ⥽  the  frown  doesn’t  dare  budge,  wiggling  in  his  arms  as  she  tries  to  get  closer  to  him.  drunk  cj  is  NEEDY  (  way  too  damn  needy  ),  craving  for  touch  and  warmth  from  anybody  who  is  willing  to  give  it  to  her.  usually  the  culprit  is  clyde,  dealing  with  her  shit  and  giving  her  what  she  wants  (  something  she’s  used  to  ).  to  have  aj  here  and  denying  her  a  kiss  of  all  things,  it’s  like  her  intoxicated  mind  short - circuits.  if  she  were  sober,  she  would  APPLAUD  aj  and  his  morals;  she  knows  he’s  a  good  guy;  but  it  doesn’t  make  her  any  less  upset  in  the  moment.  ❝  isn’t  there  no  time  like  the  present  ?  ❞  she  tries  to  ARGUE,  draping  herself  over  his  body  like  a  rag - doll.  almond  shape  nails  dig  at  his  shoulders  as  she  tries  to  pull  herself  close  to  him;  cj  is  ALL  over  him  in  every  sense  of  the  saying.  ❝  you’re  mean  because  you  won’t  kiss  me.  ❞  the  software  engineer  nuzzles  into  the  crook  of  his  neck,  arms  wrapped  around  him  as  she  breathes  him  in.  ❝  you’re  so  warm.  ❞  the  topic  is  changed  almost  immediately,  mind  moving  to  another  thing  with  the  speed  of  LIGHTNING.  oh,  if  only  she  could  do  these  things  while  she  was  sober.  but  no,  sober  cj  doesn’t  LIKE  him  like  that.  she  tells  herself  that  practically  every  morning;  trying  to  hide  a  saccharine  sweet  smile  as  she  reads  a  perfectly  crafted  good  morning  text  from  him.  every  mutual  friend  they  talked  to  either  thinks  they’re  dating  or  thinks  they  SHOULD  be.  but  cj  would  laugh,  and  wave  it  all  away — because  she  had  convinced  herself  that  ajax  was  just  her  friend.  nothing  more,  nothing  less.  ❝  it’s  okay,  i  for - forgive  you.  ❞  they  HICCUP  the  words,  pulling  away  with  her  face  i n c h e s  from  aj’s.  with  a  giggle,  carmen  gently  rubs  their  noses  together  with  how  close  they  are.

          he wishes that he was drunk enough to actually enjoy this moment --- the feeling of her limbs tangled with his own , her nose tucked into his neck . this is literally everything he wanted , but now it didn’t feel quite right . hand lifts to run through the length of her hair .  “ yup , i’m a big meanie . ”  he sighs out for dramatic effect . aj doesn’t expect her to understand right now , so ... if you can’t beat them , join them . might as well just agree instead of trying to bicker with a drunk cj --- he doesn’t even want to argue with her sober .  “ are you cold ? ”  as attentive as ever , aj’s ready to be chivalrous and offer her his sweater , but he finds himself at a loss for words instead when she’s pulling away and bumping their noses together . now he’s blushing again , hands coming up to rest very delicately on either side of her face , cupping her cheeks in his hands and keeping her close .  “ thank you . ”  he says , voice just above a whisper , leaning in to bump their noses together once more . a smile curls the corners of his lips upwards , finally dropping his hands from her face , letting go only so he can wrap his arms very loosely around her torso .  “ ... did you want to wear my hoodie ? that’ll keep you warm . ”  he offers , pausing for a beat .  “ i don’t need it --- i don’t mind . ”  alright . he might be stretching the truth there just a tad bit . aj can feel the chilly breeze on his face , and he knows he’ll be slightly uncomfortable without his jacket , but it’s worth it if it makes her feel better . he really doesn’t mind --- he truly meant that .  “ i think you’d wear it better than me anyways . ”  he tacks on , charming grin set on his features . 

[ajaxfm]

dolcevitals·:

          ⥽  amelie  GASPS  at  the  sight  of  the  bills,  her  hand  coming  up  to  slap  over  her  mouth  to  hold  in  her  laughs.  ❝  SIX  bucks  ?!  my  god,  we  should  just  E A T  the  rich;  and  yes,  that  includes  your  little  girlfriend,  aj.  i  know  that  video  game  of  hers  is  racking  up  the  big  bucks — but  she’s  gotta  go  !  ❞  amelie  chuckles  again,  shaking  her  head  as  she  bumps  her  shoulder  against  aj’s.  the  playful  and  joking  air  between  them  gets  sucked  out  pretty  rapidly,  replaced  by  a  quiet  silence  as  she  follows  him  to  his  car.  ❝  yeah,  ❞  she  whispers,  thinking  of  charlotte  at  her  door - step  with  bruises  all  over  her  face  and  a  broken  ankle.  ❝  that’s  one  way  to  put  it.  ❞

          he dramatizes the effect of her nudging his shoulder , stumbling over a few feet purely for comedic affect , nose scrunching up at her words . but then the moment is gone , and they’re left to settle back into the harsh reality of what’s been going on in ivory falls .  “ it’s like ... if she hadn’t been there to spook that guy off --- ”  he couldn’t even say it . the thought of it made aj uneasy . what if it had been him ? he’s all his dad has left . and what if it’s one of his close friends next ? he doesn’t really want to talk about it right now , he decides , especially not when they’re both walking through a dark , empty parking lot . hands shove into his pockets to fish out his car keys , pressing the button to unlock his shitty , little ford fiesta . he points a finger it her direction , attempting a serious look ( that doesn’t work out --- he’s already breaking into a cheesy grin by the time the words leave his mouth ) .  “ --- she’s not my girlfriend . ”

[ajaxfm]

dolcevitals·:

CLOSED  starter  for  @ajaxfm·   ⤹  location:  longhorn  steakhouse

          ⥽  shoving  her  apron  into  her  bag,  the  ballerina  SIGHS  as  she  looks  up  at  aj  walking  alongside  her.  ❝  what  a  NIGHT,  huh  ??  ❞  food  industry  was  a  nightmare,  in  her  oh  so  humble  opinion.  ❝  did  you  see  that  lady  that  literally  screamed  at  me  because  i  brought  them  the  wrong  order  ?  ❞  locking  the  front  doors  to  the  establishment,  she  drops  them  into  her  bag.  ❝  would  you,  uh…  would  you  mind  giving  me  a  ride  home,  aj  ?  ❞  usually,  amelie  would  just  walk,  but…  she’s  not  so  sure  how  she  feels  walking  home  ALONE  after  the  events  of  the  night  before.

         what a night ! he couldn’t have phrased it any better himself .  “ nuh - uh . i was too busy with my giant table of businessmen that kept trying to one - up each other on ordering . the entire table racked up a three hundred dollar check , and i was super excited for the tip on that thing ... ”  he pauses , fishing in the front pocket of his apron that he hadn’t taken off yet to reveal two measly bills . “ --- six bucks . ”  he shakes his head , shoving the money back into his pocket .  “ i never mind , lee - lee . i wouldn’t let you walk home . ”  he pauses , voice a little bit lower , “ especially now . i mean , that’s ... that’s insane , right ? ”

[ajaxfm]

judah-cohen·:

“Oh my god, I really just said that like a whole ass clown, I’m so sorry,” Judah replied, scrunching his nose a little. AJ seemed to have taken it in stride, so Judah didn’t linger on the embarrassment, despite the way his cheeks and ears bloomed with color. Thankfully, it was dark out, and maybe the other wouldn’t notice it. “Shut up, I’m not rhyming every other sentence! Leave me alone,” he joked, laughing quietly. “Anyway, you look like you’re having a great time tonight. I’ve seen you around and I just wanted to let you know I think you’re cute, that’s all,” he admitted, feeling the nerves fall away. Judah knew he didn’t really have a reason to get nervous, but he couldn’t help it sometimes. He didn’t want to make a fool of himself, but he did anyway, and he lived. So maybe it wasn’t so bad after all. “Please don’t tell me you’re here all alone, cause that’d be criminal and I’d have to file a formal complaint.”

          gentle grin rests on his features as he looks down at the other boy ,  “ why not ? i think that’d be really cool . it could be your thing . ”  he continues to tease , laughter slipping out along with his words . aj’s particularly jovial tonight ( not that that’s much different than his usual demeanor ) .  “ oh , i --- thank you . that’s very kind of you to say . ”  aj doesn’t have a problem with confidence , but being on the receiving end of compliments always flusters him . his nose scrunches up a little bit , playfully so , and he brings the bottle in his grasp up to his lips for a sip . head shakes , reaching out to gently nudge judah’s shoulder ,  “ you’re here , right ? so i’m not alone . ”  he raises his eyebrows a bit , finishing off his drink and nodding towards the array of coolers set out ,  “ you said you wanted another , yea ? let’s go . and maybe on the way over you can tell me your name so i don’t have to wonder who this stranger was all night . ”

[ajaxfm]

theosalazar·:

his blush has her own grin widening and she instantly feels a bit more at ease, happy to see someone OTHER than her blushing from a compliment. “please don’t hold it against me in the morning…i’m so going to regret saying that tomorrow. i mean you are…beautiful. i just…normally i’m way too nervous to tell a guy that i think he’s cute.” theo gave a shrug of her shoulders, nose crinkling ever so slightly, “ugh. water is so boring but maybe you’re right. how about you, pretty boy? you having a fun time tonight?”

          “ i promise i won’t mention that you brought it up ever again after tonight , alright ? ”  he lilts , half - serious , soft laugh accompanying his words .  “ it’s a good thing to compliment people though , so don’t be too embarrassed . ”  not surprising coming from the guy that basically preaches about living life to the fullest and never being afraid to tell people how you felt .  “ water is boring , but it’s also super good for you . maybe we can compromise and get gatorade instead ? ”  his brows raise a bit , expression settling into another smile .  “ i am now . how could i not be after being called beautiful ? ”  he teases , leaning over to nudge her shoulder playfully .

[3840293843293-deactivated202211]

I don’t understand “dark academia” if it’s dark where you’re studying just turn on the lights?

[ajaxfm]

spoiledveins·:

          ⥽  carmen  doesn’t  even  think  she  remembers  the  last  time  she  had  a  boyfriend  (  but  then  again,  she  can’t  quite  remember  anything  right  now  ),  it  must’ve  been  sometime  in  high  school;  and  it  definitely  didn’t  last  very  long  either.  yeah,  thanks  clyde.  she’s  had  many  people  in  her  bed,  and  many  who  have  simply  been  a  play - thing  for  when  she’s  bored;  but  ajax  is  DIFFERENT.  somebody  she  can  flirt  with,  but  also  something  m o r e.  she  can’t  place  her  finger  on  it,  but  when  she  flirts  with  him  with  nothing  but  FUN  in  mind — her  stomach  twists  up.  what  about  that,  huh  ??  yeah,  she  can’t  explain  it  either.  ❝  uh  huh…  ❞  she  breathes  out,  all  while  they  hang  onto  each  of  aj’s  words;  even  if  focusing  is  a  bit  HARD  right  now.  nodding  her  head  along  as  she  stares  at  his  lips,  watching  the  way  they  moved  as  he  talked,  absent - mindedly  wondering  how  he’d  react  if  she  nibbled  on  the  bottom  one.  would  he  make  a  sound  ?  would  he  pull  her  closer  ?  maybe  he’d  pull  her  into  his  lap.  cj  zoned  out  on  what  aj  was  saying,  babbling  on  about  how  chap - stick  melted  or  something  like  that.  though  at  the  feeling  of  ajax’s  hands  on  her  biceps,  the  software  engineer  FROWNS  as  she’s  pulled  out  of  her  day - dream  and  pushed  away.  ❝  d-do  you  not  wanna  kiss  me  ??  ❞  she  whimpers  the  question,  hurt  written  all  over  her  face  as  she  looks  up  at  him.  steeling  herself,  cj  sits  up  a  bit  straighter;  reaching  for  her  forgotten  drink  as  she  g u l p s  down  the  rest  in  one  fell  swoop.  ❝  you’re  not  very  nice.  ❞

         in hindsight , he could see how his words could’ve been mistaken for a flat - out rejection , but that’s literally as far as you could get from the truth . he’s actually pretty close to gobsmacked when she mewls out the question --- half because he’s never heard her sound anything less than confident , and half because he can’t believe she’d actually think that .  “ --- i- i DO want to kiss you ! ”  he exclaims , maybe a bit too defensively to be written off as just nothing . but she’s drunk , and she’ll probably just forget it all anyways .  “ ... just not right at this very moment . ”  he tacks on --- an afterthought . and maybe that’s not the whole truth . he does want to kiss her right now ( all the time ) , but he knows he probably shouldn’t . if she still wants to tomorrow --- when she’s sober --- he will gladly make out with her for as long as she wants . but she looks genuienly hurt by his words , and now he’s torn . is he supposed to just shove all his morals out the door ? he can’t do that . lips press together in a thin line , and his typically jovial expression has morphed into a frown , brows knitted together as he watches her finish off her drink and claim that he’s mean . it actually stings a little , hearing those words fall from her lips . that’s the last thing he wants to be seen as --- especially to cj .  “ no --- hey , c’mon . ”  he stammers out , brows knitted together . aj’s usually a master at emotions , and somehow always knows the right thing to say , but cj managed to put that skill into shambles .  “ how am i being mean ? i don’t want to hurt your feelings , cj . that’s not what i was trying to do . i’m-- i’m sorry . ”

[ajaxfm]

spoiledveins·:

          ⥽  feeling  the  thumb  brushing  her  cheek,  carmen  lets  out  a  noise  close  to  a  p u r r.  her  face  pushes  into  his  hand,  like  a  cat  craving  affection  from  it’s  owner,  all  while  giving  him  that  same  lop - sided  smile.  ❝  i  bet  you’d  be  a  nice  boyfriend.  ❞  she  muses  aloud,  melting  back  into  his  chest  as  she  wraps  her  lips  around  her  straw.  cj’s  entire  body  feels  warm,  all  a  mixture  of  the  boy  draped  on  top  of  her,  the  bon - fire,  and  the  alcohol  warming  her  from  the  inside  out.  if  she’s  honest,  she  could  bask  in  this  feeling  all  night.  granted,  she  won’t  REMEMBER  anything  she’s  done  to  the  poor  boy  come  tomorrow  morning,  but  for  now  ?  she  was  a l l  his.  another  giggle  fills  the  air  at  aj’s  silly  antics  once  again,  his  mouth  moving  faster  than  his  brain  as  something  stupid  comes  out.  cj  disregards  the  comment,  lets  out  an  ungodly  snort  at  the  way  it  reminds  her  of  the  puppy  dog  eyes  incident.  he  sure  was  funny,  wasn’t  he  ?  ❝  you  do  ?  i  bet  it  tastes  nice.  you  seem  like  the  type  to  use  cherry,  or  maybe  vanilla.  ❞  carmen sits  up,  taking  another  sip  of  their  drink  before  setting  it  aside;  carefully  so  it  doesn’t  get  knocked  over  by  some  stumbling  freshman  who  can’t  hold  their  booze.  ❝  can  i  kiss  you  and  find  out  what  it  tastes  like  ??  ❞  the  question  is  BOLD,  sitting  up  on  their  knees  as  she  twists  around  to  face  aj  now;  kneeling  on  the  dirt  in  the  spot  between  his  legs,  her  face  so  close  to  his  that  he  can  probably  S M E L L  the  vodka  on  her  breath.

          his breath hitches in his throat at her utterance . he thinks so too --- he wants to be . for her . if only he’d stop being such a wuss and just tell her . this feeling’s so weird . aj’s not the type to put off telling people things . he’s all about communication and openness and telling people how you feel ... maybe he’s just never felt anything like this before . it was different . aj felt like he really had something to lose . it’s exhilarating and exhausting all at the same time .  “ it really just depends on which one i pull out of my backpack . ”  and , of course , he’s answering her pondering literally .  “ i have a lot in there . ‘cause like ... they get all melty , so then you throw another one in there , then another one , and then you end up with , like , seven of them in there . ”  as if this was a universal experience , and not just an aj experience . eyes stay glued to her as she sets her drink down and readjusts herself , letting out a small breath of disbelief as she kneels in front of him . his immediate answer ( in his head ) is yes . yes , you can kiss me whenever you want , wherever you want , all the time --- i’m yours completely . but the smell of alcohol brings him back to his senses . he can’t kiss her ... not when she’s drunk like this , and he’s not even tipsy . aj doesn’t want to take advantage of her in any capacity --- even if it was just a kiss . it doesn’t feel right . hands reach out to gingerly grab a hold of her upper arms , pushing her away just a little , gentle slope of a smile on his lips .  “ --- maybe later . ”  when you’re not drunk ,  “ if you still want to . i don’t have chapstick on right now --- i gotta reapply . ”

[ajaxfm]

theosalazar·:

“you’re drunk and i’m beautiful!” theo slurred, dimples engraving in her cheeks before her brows knit into a furrow, “wait…no…” she could count on her fingers the number of times she’d been drunk: 1. so to say that she was a lightweight was an understatement. “i MEAN you’re beautiful and i’m drunk. there we go. nailed it.”

          the comment seems to come out of nowhere , but aj can’t say that he disagrees . well , maybe a little --- he’s not drunk , but she is beautiful ! but then she’s correcting herself , and a rosy flush is setting on his nose - bridge .  “ that’s very kind of you to say . ”  he laughs out , charming grin etched onto his features .  “ you are definitely drunk though . maybe it’s time for some water , yea ? you’ll thank yourself for it later . ”

[ajaxfm]

judah-cohen·:

After having heard AJ mentioned earlier in the night, and saying the other had never spoken two words to him, Judah decided he’d be the one to make the first move. He had seen AJ several times in passing once the semester started, and had never really worked up the courage to go talk to him. The ugly what-ifs of insecurity reared up every time he saw the guy surrounded by mutual friends they shared. He knew he could approach but somehow… didn’t. Presently, he had a few drinks in his system, which took down a few of his mental filters, and he decided he’d finally go over and just say anything to him to make his existence known to the other. When AJ looked to be alone for a moment, Judah decided to make his move.

He approached the other, holding a beer in his hand and gave him a little smile. “Hey! It’s a nice night for… an evening… Wait. That’s hot what I wanted to say. I MEANT. I love bonfires, don’t… you? I need another drink, I think. That rhymed on accident. You want another beer?” Judah wanted the earth to open up and swallow him whole right then and there. Fuck. What’s the matter with me?!

@ajaxfm·

          it’s unusual to find someone on campus that aj hadn’t ran into ( figuratively or literally --- he’s a bit of a klutz at times ) . and it’s even weirder , to him , that someone could even be nervous to talk to him at all . aj likes to think that he’s a nice person . but he very conveniently likes to forget the fact that he can be a lot . he’s big , he’s super tall , he’s loud , he’s clumsy , he’s always talking at a million miles per minute ---- it’s no wonder some people found him a little imposing sometimes .            digits are wrapped delicately around the neck of a beer bottle , bidding a group of people goodbye so that he can find some fun elsewhere . but the fun seems to come to him --- before he can even plot his next move , a smaller , blond man is approaching , and aj’s warm brown eyes are fixated on him , lit up in amusement at the other’s gibberish .  “ it is a very nice night for an evening , yea . ”  he nods , voice laced with a light - hearted , teasing tone . charming grin pulls on the corners of his lips , head nodding ,  “ i would love another beer . but only if you keep rhyming every other sentence . it’s very fresh , i think --- very fun . it’s like live - action slam poetry . ”

[ajaxfm]

spoiledveins·:

CLOSED  starter  for  @ajaxfm·    ⤹  location:  the  bonfire.

          ⥽  a  lop - sided  smiles  plays  on  the  petite  girls  face,  leaning  into  her  g i a n t  of  a  counter  part.  there  weren’t  many  places  carmen  could  go  without  aj  being  close  behind  her,  and  she  ADORED  it.  she  adored  the  attention  he  gave  her,  the  affection  as  well  was  an  added  bonus.  with  a  vodka  ginger  ale  held  tightly  in  her  hands,  the  platinum  blonde  leans  back  against  aj’s  chest  while  they  sit  by  the  fire;  sitting  comfortably  between  his  legs.  ❝  isn’t  this  like,  totally  romantic  ?  ❞  a  giggle  leaves  their  lips,  and  they  swear  she  feels  ajax’s  heartbeat  pick  up  against  her  back.  ❝  it’s  like  we’re  totally  boyfriend  and  girlfriend  right  now.  ❞  carmen  lets  out  another  inebriated  giggle,  her  head  dropping  back  on  his  shoulder  as  she  analyzes  his  face.  ❝  you  have  such  pretty  lips,  aj.  they’re  so…  plump.  very  kissable.  ❞  she  slurs  the  words,  but  the  meaning  is  still  there;  she  said  what  she  said.  drunk  words  are  sober  thoughts,  right  ???

          he really does follow her around like a lost puppy sometimes . it’s almost comical the way those honeyed brown eyes can’t stay off of her --- she’s quite entrancing , he thinks , even more so when she’s leaning up against his chest . arms are draped very loosely around her torso , and yes , that is his heart - rate quickening when she speaks , though he’s attempting to will himself to slow it back down . cj just has this insane affect on them --- he’s constantly hanging on to every last word , every last touch , every last glance ... he can’t get enough of her .  “ uh --- um ...  yea . yea , totally . ”  he titters , not wanting to come off too eager . a part of him wants to ask if they think that’d be a bad thing --- the two of them , boyfriend and girlfriend . neck cranes to meet her gaze as she leans back further , bringing a hand up to brush a thumb tenderly over her cheek . aj is so thankful for the fire right now --- not only for the warmth it radiates against the chilly night air , but for the dim lighting that hides the way his cheeks are flushing a bright red .  “ --- thanks . i grew them myself . ”  his brow furrows . why did he say that ?  “ i mean ... well , i guess that’s technically true , no ? sure . ”  now he’s going to be pondering that in waves for the rest of the night ,  “ ---- i use a lot of chapstick ! ”

[pochacco]

i am stupid for free. no one pays me to be this stupid and i think that’s very brave

[fallininyou]

wholesome breakfast

[ajaxfm]

spoiledveins·:

          ⥽  wrapping  her  lips  around  her  straw  and  taking  a  sip  for  herself,  she  sets  the  cup  back  down  on  the  picnic  table  beside  her  garden  salad  for  lunch.  ajax’s  presence  was  more  than  enjoyable,  a  highlight  of  her  day;  maybe  even  of  her  WEEK,  truth  be  told.  the  only  person  who  could  make  her  feel  such  safety  and  down - right  happiness  was  none  other  than  c l y d e.  but  maybe  he  doesn’t  count,  he  had  been  their  best  friend  ever  since  they  were  kids;  aj  was  NEW.  like  a  breath  of  fresh  air,  and  quite  frankly;  carmen  was  OBSESSED  with  it.  sometimes  she  couldn’t  decide  if  it  was  just  platonic  or  something  else,  but  that  was  a  can  of  worms  she  wasn’t  exactly  ready  to  open  up  just  yet.  at  all,  actually.  besides,  surely  aj  had  BETTER  things  to  chase  after  than  the  software  engineer.  ❝  it’s  coffee,  duh.  ❞  she  smiles  as  she  pokes  his  bottom  lip  with  the  straw  once  more  before  putting  it  down.  nibbling  on  her  lip,  she  nods  along  with  his  statement;  maybe  it  COULD  be  a  little  sweeter,  but  then  again — carmen  wasn’t  really  one  for  a  sweet - tooth.  amber  hues  watch  the  way  he  taps  his  pen  against  the  splintered  wood  of  the  picnic  table,  trying  to  ignore  the  way  that  the  sound  starts  to  drive  her  near  insanity.  reaching  out,  she  BATS  the  pen  out  of  his  hand;  like  some  sort  of  feline  begging  for  attention.  the  pen  makes  a  soft  c l i c k  as  it  hits  the  table,  cj  busying  themselves  by  lacing  their  fingers  with  aj’s.  a  F I N E  distraction,  she  thinks  to  herself.  the  way  she  acts  with  ajax  is  bold,  utterly  shameless  and  s o  not  her  either.  to  the  way  she  shamelessly  holds  his  hand,  or  that  ONE  time  she  kissed  him  as  a  thank  you  for  buying  her  a  coffee  (  she  remembers just  how  flustered  he  got  afterwards.  how  could  she  forget  ??  )  if  summer  could  see  her  now,  she’d  probably  tell  cj  to  stop  simping  for  such  mediocre  dick;  or  something  to  that  extent.  she’s  listening  INTENTLY  when  aj  literally  tells  her  something  she  doesn’t  know,  and  she  honestly  should’ve  expected  this  from  him.  he  was  V E R Y  good  at  taking  things  literally.  aka  the  puppy  dog  eyes  incident  from  mere  minutes  ago.  ❝  no  kidding,  huh  ??  ❞  carmen  chuckles  as  she  keeps  her  foot  hooked  around  his  ankle,  fingers  still  intertwined  with  his  MUCH  longer  and  larger  ones.  ❝  i  mean,  it’s  understandable.  bread  is  not  to  be  taken  lightly  when  it’s  so  fucking  delicious.  ❞

          you see , aj’s had a sweet - tooth for as long as he could remember , and it wasn’t going away anytime soon . he’s probably the last person on earth that needs to be subject to a sugar rush , but it doesn’t stop him . maybe that’s why is personality is practically saccharine . ah , well . he doesn’t dwell on the thought now , focusing instead on the incessant clicking of the pen against the wood ... until she’s knocking the utensil out of his grasp . aj’s ready to protest , lips already parted , but then she’s binding their fingers together , and suddenly , he’s perfectly content once again . he smiles --- it’s a sweetly little grin too , as gentle as ever . that rosy flush is back , burning on his cheeks as he looks at her with those puppy - dog eyes . he adores cj ( more than he probably should ) , and he’s in too deep to stop anytime soon . a thumb brushes tenderly over the back of her hand , and he’s taking the time to look now , at how much smaller her digits were compared to his own , cognac brown eyes drift up to her face now , drinking in her features with heavy admiration . aj really has a way of making people feel seen . it’s obvious that he cares about people , no matter who they were to him ... and cj ? he cares so much , he feels like he’s constantly about to melt into a puddle in their presence . his gaze is so expressive that he almost doesn’t even need to say it aloud .  “ really , yea , isn’t that wild ? ”  now his eyes are lighting up for a different reason , just like they always did when you got him on a topic that he was actually interested in . he shifts to sit up straighter , and his free leg starts to bounce underneath the table .  “ ---- bread is super dope . ”  he blurts out in agreement . that didn’t sound nearly as cool or collected as he’d intended , but he’s running with it anyways .  “ like ... toast . am i right ? there’s nothing more palatable in the morning than a nice slice of toast . eh ... well , maybe a bagel ... ”  now he’s getting lost in his own thoughts ( which isn’t terribly uncommon for aj ) .  “ ---- but that’s only if there’s , like , twenty pounds of cream cheese on it . otherwise , i don’t want it . no , you know what ? toast is superior . you can put anything on toast --- nutella included --- and that’s why it’s just the best . you know , sometimes i think about how people hundreds of years ago didn’t have nutella , and i feel bad for them . i wouldn’t be able to cope with that . and it’s like , yea , i would time travel if i got the chance , but i’d have to bring snacks with me . ”  it was actually impressive how he could bounce from one topic to another completely seamlessly ,  “ the ancient greeks didn’t even have sour patch kids ! i couldn’t live like that . ”

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soooup·:

❝ hey man, that’s really cool of you, ❞ Conner says, smile on the edge of his lips. Although aj had expressly said he didn’t actually want the money, Soup was trained in the sly art of secretly leaving tips. It was the least the boy could do…other than maybe pay for his funeral if he died— but the number of drug-deal-related deaths in Ivory falls has always been low, axe wielding murderers however? ❝ ya but you only argue for like fours hours a day and then you get to fuck right off and blow that $1000/hr retainer on hookers and blow, at least that’s what I think my dad’s lawyer does, ❞ he shrugs. criminal minds is good, but the suits lifestyle is better. The worry in aj’s voice is audible and Conner kicks himself for even telling him the truth. ❝ psssssh—❞ he starts, hands raised like some sort of mafia boss from a 70s movie ( gabagool! ) ❝ you won’t even know it happened buddy, that’s how quick i’ll have ya’ out of there if you follow exactly what I say.. so— still in? ❞

          a gentle , friendly grin rests on his features , shoulders lifting in a shrug once more . it just seemed like the right thing to do --- with the polaroid killer popping up all of a sudden , aj always feels a little weary knowing that someone’s --- anyone’s --- going out alone .  “ don’t mention it . ”  seriously ... don’t . as much as aj likes to live his life without judging others , he’s not too keen on the idea of being part of a literal drug deal ... even if he was ( quite literally ) just standing there .  “ i guess that’s a pretty good deal . ”  is it , though ? and does aj really think that ? but soup had said it so casually ; he doesn’t want him to think he’s lame . hookers and blow , it was , then ! and while aj still looks a tad bit weary , he’s bobbing his head up and down anyways ,  “ yea , man . no doubt . ”  ... okay , maybe just a little . but this was fine --- this was an experience that he needed to have . ( no , it really wasn’t , but his optimism is ever - present ) .

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