📜 "I feel like a young Cookie again!" - How did you find out your identity?
♣️ "My first battle in a long time" - Your first fixation?
I found out i was Agender when i was circling through many identity. First i was Transmasc, then Genderfluid, then Boyflux, and when i found Boyflux, i discovered Agender! It fit so well! I then discovered i was Lesbian when i finally figured out i was Agender. I never really liked men, sure i loved Feminine men, but i never dated a man and felt genuine love like i did with Women. So when i became Agender, the Lesbian label came aswell. As for DemiAroace, it just strives from the fact i find it hard to trust people, and i cant just date anyone, i have to really love them, and id never do it with anyone unless i have an EXTREMELY strong bond with them.
My first real obsession was fnaf! I loved William because i hadn't realised i had Major Daddy issues yet. Then it was Day shift at Freddys, And then it was crk! I always loved the Antagonist you could feel sorry for, pathetic little guys who have some kind of parental issues, with explosive/obsessive personalities, E.G Elizabeth and Michael from Fnaf, Dave (NOT FROM FNAF BOOKS) from Dsaf and Jack (NOT HENRY) from Dsaf, and then Shadow milk and pure Vanilla!!
🩹 "The vanilla orchids smell lovelier than usual" - Whats your Type?
🪽 "Tomorrow will be better!" - Who helps you get better?
🌔 "Healing is my specialty." - Rate yourself on a scale from 1-10
alsoooo some random questions:
what kind of fruit are you?
whats your favorite ice cream flavor?
do you prefer rugs or bare floors?
hugs or head pats?
bubblegum or mints?
My type is more based on personality. I want a girl like me, not someone perfect. Someone who has a sense of style, feminine, long to medium length hair, shy, stuff like that! And it would most likely be a girl or someone outside the binary, unless its a feminine man whixh i really doubt ill ever get.
@obsxssed--waiter and @darling-de-angelo !! They are lowkey my fav Jirai bloggers and they helped me so much! Also my safe person, i dont wanna Say their name here, but ill Call her E. Lowkey my fav person!
Id rate myself a 5, maybe 4.5. Im not the best but im not the worst.
Id say im a Blueberry, either you like them or you hate them y'know?
Probably Vanilla or Cookie dough! Vanilla goes with everything and cookie doigh adds a bit of crunch!
I think bare floors mostly, but again im up most nights and i like to walk around so rugs would make my footsteps less loud!
Depends on the person. If we are basic friends i guess you could give me Head pats? Ask first. If we are good/best friends, a hug is fine as long as i initiate it, and if you are my safe person or if i love you to the next galaxy and back, you can do both. Oh and if you are my partner then you can do both too, i trust you for a reason.
I think bubble gum, gives me something to chew so i dont bite myself and my fingers!
🪐 "Is anything troubling you?" - Anything that makes you feel sad/disgusted or angry?
☀️ "There's nothing we cannot do!" - Favourite thing to do?
🌔 "Healing is my specialty." - Rate yourself on a scale from 1-10
📜 "I feel like a young Cookie again!" - How did you find out your identity?
♣️ "My first battle in a long time" - Your first fixation?
🎂 "You don't see the error in your ways." - Favourite Game?
OMDS HI TWIN!!!
Fav song? Stick it to the man, love in a bottle and Spoken For!! Also any will wood song from the normal album!
Disgusts me? When someone doesn't apologise or doesnt see the bad in their actions, like seriously? Both people should apologise especially in petty arguements. Disgusting!
Art and paper stars! >_<
Again, a 5 or a 4.5, not the best, room for improvement, but not the worst!
Ive already explained this in aother, but basically after i was going through a bunch of identities, i found boyflux and then realised Agender existed! I realised i was lesbian after i started to like girls, but also that the only love i had for guys was platonic, and my trust issues and dysphoria led me to be demi-aroace!
First fixation was FNAF!
Right now? Crk, what remains of edith Finch and The kindergarten games!
I cant be the only one who really wants someone to be obsessive over someone like me. Like Anons who spam my inbox >_<
Im a hopeless romantic, i love affection and god i love... LOVE! Id literally let you do anything to me (Call me a simp because im a pathetic little thing ❤️🩹)
🩹 "The vanilla orchids smell lovelier than usual" - Whats your Type? ( /nf /curious.)
^ ask game for Fool / Pure Vanilla ♡
Women-
Jk its more than that! I love femininity. But again I dont want picture perfect girl. My typr has to be a shy listener. I yap way to much and im also shy, and as much as id love to have someone confident, i fear i wouldn't be good enough for someone like that. Id also loved if they played an instrumental, because id love to learn and instrument, and i find anyone who plays any instrument cool! But then again id love to be with someone with my hobbies, like Drawing! Or someone who reads or listens to music!
I know its pretty basic, but thats basically it. Id love someone with their own style too! Like yes i want to look cool with you! Like i love to dress alternative, and if love for them to be my colour.
This is a Jirai blog. This blog includes mentions of SH, Unhealthy Relationship with food, Twisted Fantasies & Bad Mental Health. You have been warned.
𓏵‧₊˚ ┊𝓑𝓪𝓼𝓲𝓬 𝓘𝓷𝓯𝓸:ִֶָ🪽་༘
☆ 𝑵𝒂𝒎𝒆: 𝑽𝒂𝒏𝒊𝒍𝒍𝒂 / 𝑺𝒂𝒈𝒆 / 𝑵𝒊𝒍𝒍𝒔 <𝟑
☆ 𝑨𝒈𝒆: 𝟏𝟓 𝒀𝒆𝒂𝒓𝒔 𝒐𝒍𝒅 <𝟑
☆ 𝑷𝒓𝒐𝒏𝒐𝒖𝒏𝒔: 𝑻𝒉𝒆𝒚 / 𝑰𝒕 / 𝑺𝒉𝒆 {𝑻𝒉𝒆𝒚 𝒊𝒔 𝒑𝒓𝒆𝒇𝒆𝒓𝒓𝒆𝒅}
☆ 𝑮𝒆𝒏𝒅𝒆𝒓: 𝑩𝒊𝒈𝒆𝒏𝒅𝒆𝒓 {𝑨𝒈𝒆𝒏𝒅𝒆𝒓 & 𝑮𝒊𝒓𝒍𝒇𝒍𝒖𝒙}
☆ 𝑺𝒆𝒙𝒖𝒂𝒍𝒊𝒕𝒚: 𝑺𝒂𝒑𝒑𝒉𝒊𝒄 {𝑳𝒆𝒔𝒃𝒊𝒂𝒏}
☆ 𝑳𝒐𝒐𝒌𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒎𝒐𝒐𝒕𝒔 <𝟑
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Before being moots with me, please read:
I tend to get obsessive over people I love. I can be possessive and annoying if you guve me an once of attention. I'm a hopeless romantic, i crave someones Validation, Attention and Affection. I rely on it to feel good. Please communicate if i have upset you or do something you dont like, if you vauge post or ignore me after, I will Become paranoid and i will become impulsive and "Explode".
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DNI: Homophobes, Transphobes, Pedos. My Ex, They have hurt me and they keep posting about me. I am willing to change this, but its not my first step.
I use Pure Vanilla as a coping mechanism. He brings me joy and I love him more than anything. I project onto him, so please, Don't tell me to stop. I want to be seen as Pure Vanilla.
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☆ 𝕿𝖍𝖊 𝖙𝖗𝖚𝖙𝖍 𝖆𝖑𝖜𝖆𝖞𝖘 𝖕𝖗𝖊𝖛𝖆𝖎𝖑𝖘! ִֶָ🪽་༘ - Normal Post
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☆ 𝕲𝖊𝖙 𝖗𝖊𝖆𝖉𝖞 𝕸𝖞 𝕱𝖗𝖎𝖊𝖓𝖉𝖘! ִֶָ🤍་༘ - Responding to asks
📜 "I feel like a young Cookie again!" - How did you find out your identity?
♣️ "My first battle in a long time" - Your first fixation?
I found out i was Agender when i was circling through many identity. First i was Transmasc, then Genderfluid, then Boyflux, and when i found Boyflux, i discovered Agender! It fit so well! I then discovered i was Lesbian when i finally figured out i was Agender. I never really liked men, sure i loved Feminine men, but i never dated a man and felt genuine love like i did with Women. So when i became Agender, the Lesbian label came aswell. As for DemiAroace, it just strives from the fact i find it hard to trust people, and i cant just date anyone, i have to really love them, and id never do it with anyone unless i have an EXTREMELY strong bond with them.
My first real obsession was fnaf! I loved William because i hadn't realised i had Major Daddy issues yet. Then it was Day shift at Freddys, And then it was crk! I always loved the Antagonist you could feel sorry for, pathetic little guys who have some kind of parental issues, with explosive/obsessive personalities, E.G Elizabeth and Michael from Fnaf, Dave (NOT FROM FNAF BOOKS) from Dsaf and Jack (NOT HENRY) from Dsaf, and then Shadow milk and pure Vanilla!!
This is the last EVER post on this account. I have FULLY moved to my new account TheFoolishJester. This will not be tagged as i dont want attention, i don't want pity or anything. This is just a blog to clear my grievances and start over.
I just wanted to say how im very grateful for everyone who followed, and i wanted to speak about something.
Why did i make a new account? Well this one was associated with another person, as you may know. Safe to say we are not at all close anymore. I wont be saying any details as it is a private matter, but i will never forgive them for how they handled the situation At ALL, and how i will nevr forgive them for how they made me feel, how they affected me, and how the showed me to be. I have relaped several times, had paranoia, felt like shit and i broke down several times, even leaving a community i loved. I admit that im not perfect in ANY WAY. I was impulsive and a bit of a Asshole, so im not 100% the victim here, and i never claimed to be. I dont want sympathy, or to wish harm on anyone. But im not a bad person. I dont want to be seen as an awful person because of this whole scenario.
I agree i am vauge posting, but im not the only one. Im just wanted to have a voice, and i didn't want my image to be tarnish. I agree i was NOT the Victim here, not at all, but im not the full problem. Both of us messed up, and i admit to my faults. To anyone involved, im sorry if i acted Impulsive, aggressive or harmful. I was not in my right mind. Im not making excuses, or blaming, i take a full accountability. This account will be Deleted in 1-3 days.
Thank you all of following, my new account is carefreefool, or TheFoolishJester. I will not be replying to anything like comments or Asks, so please dont send them on this account. Bye everyone.
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