alana

pretty face and drug habits

[alanaladykiller]

i just wish smoking on my balcony listening to music every night didn’t feel so right.

[alanaladykiller]

im hoping for your recovery i know how hard it is. im still in recovery. i will always be but i know i can do this. recovery is very important. i believe in you hun

it’s been 3 years and i’ve never seen this message from you but i just want to say thank you so much. i’m fully recovered now and doing much better. I hope you are as well! i wish you nothing but the best.

[alanaladykiller]

Okay I really need to stop purging. It’s what I hate most about bulimia.

So I’m posting this to hopefully remind myself to stop. I’ll keep updates if anyone cares!

Really want to stop, so here is some symptoms of self induced vomiting that I’ve already seen:

Swollen glands (worst one; like literal golf balls under my jaw)

Tooth decay (clear teeth)

Burns on tongue (sides of my tongue bleed and look shredded)

Enflamed throat (obviously)

Cracked smile lines (acid burns and cuts lips and mouth)

Stomach ulcers (thankfully have gone down)

Heart burn (this could actually kill me without notice)

There are more but these really hurt. I’ll let you know how I do 🦋

Btw if anyone is also trying to stop please dm me so we can do it together! <3

[alanaladykiller]

Gentle reminder that you’re not in a dark place, you just need to take a nap.